Frustratingly Mediocre

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA no. i'm not a dancing queen keke. but i enjoyed dance today so much hehe. i really love ballet idek why. and i feel much less stressed when evan's not around. no offence to her haha. like i feel i can dance much much much better when she isn't around :D  and then today, cos i attended two lessons right, we had to change so much. haha first was free movement, so w the chiffon skirt and everything. then after that it was character. then after that the first class ended. then it was the second class, it was barre. so just ballet shoes. and we were made to do barre work in the center ._. and miss wah was like 'anyone fall we will redo the whole excercise again' T.T it's hard ohkay ): like esp during plié, when you're in fifth position. so i opened my legs a little.. haha don't tell her that! >< and then after that it was center work, so i had to put on my chiffon skirt again. we had to change soooooo much. lol.  nicole and el...

so on wed, i was supposed to have piano, but then miss chia cancelled it, so whatever. then after that me serene and eva decided to go to eva's house :D damn fun when we were there ohkay! xD so during via, we were supposed to like write our thoughts on certain pics on postits, and it had to be about the thing we're working on for via. and then this girl who's serene's friend, that's like yoo jaesuk's long lost twin, was sitting diagonally behind me. and she said out alot of her answers and guess what? MOST OF HER ANSWERS ARE THE SAME AS MINE HAHA XD at one point of time, i looked back, and she was like 'don't judge me' and i said 'i'm not judging you, we have the same answers' haha xD and then after that serene was saying something about the two of us and at the exact same time, we said 'great minds think alike' xP this kindda reminds me of that time when me and val had like 'twin' telepathy :P have i ever said it before? ...

ayo it's easter!! the day Jesus rose to heaven (: i can't thank Him enough for dying on the cross for us... and i don't really know what to say on this day... really... sometimes i cant seem to express myself with words... i'm just really really really thankful and yeah.. i love Jesus. i love God and i'll love them forever. for all eternity.

OMG SHINee PERFORMING LIKE A ROCK BAND. LIKE SOME LEGEND 100 SONG. I CANNOT. IT MAKES ME SO FUCKING HAPPY. ITS SO FUCKING NICE JSKEIQKCJKRKSJCJWKX btw it's dream girl now and minho's face just now was so straight :p Jjong's Barbie... Who knew he was such a girl? XP I saw the interview. Her hair is a wig :p but the interview had no subs ):

So on thursday, which was also the last day of school for term 2 week 1 monday, i got into a car accident in the morning before i came to school keke. like i was otw to school, and i wasn't too far from school already. we had stopped, and i was in a semi-conscious state and we had stopped the car. suddenly there was a bang and the whole car jerked forward, obviously waking me up. haha. and then my mom was actually pretty angry, but then was like uhm, trying to be nice and well yeah, she was  nice to the person that hit my car cos my mum said that she was being really apologetic. and guess who hit my car??? xPPPP  ONE OF MY VICE PRINCIPALS OMG LOL. haha. it was a little awkward keke. and the damage was horrible terrible vegetable ohkay. LOL. it was damn bad. like my parents have been in i think a few car accidents before, and this is the worse one >< and it was awkward also because everyone was fussing over me, and asking if i was ohkay >< oh, and guess the rea...

YO DUDES IT WAS GOOD FRIDAY YESTERDAYYY!!! :DDDD i'm sorry that i didn't blog, cos i was out until really late ): like i came home past twelve T.T so yeah. what did i do yesterday? i woke up with a sore throat (not surprised, since my throat was a little sore the previous day) and then yeah, i guess i was a little sick too :\ but then my sore throat recovered after a little while (: and then i pretty much used the computerrr~~ watched SHINee's One Fine Day :DDDDD the boys are so cuteeee <3 i was smiling like a freaking idiot :D then after that kor had to go to his friend's house for housewarming i think... so we sent him there and it's like in the middle of nowhere omg haha. like we got lost a little >< and all the street names are named after nuts omg -.- haha and their house is HUGE. FREAKING HUGE OHKAY. I THINK EVEN PEOPLE IN AMERICA WOULD THINK IT'S HUGE. or maybe average haha. AND IT'S SAYS ALOT COS THE HOUSES IN AMERICA ARE HUGE OHKAY. or mayb...

Being squashed in the backseat of the car now cos kor's sending two of his friends home so four teenagers are squeezing in a car meant for three people. And I have a huge butt so that's a problem lol. Which reminds me, I have something to blog about yesterday, but I'm not sure if I can blog it by today :\ Oh, and whenever Kor talks I can feel his diaphragm or something that's currently resting on my rib moving LOL and my back and stomach hurts ): like muscle ache cos of napfa ytd. I understand how my stomach hurts cos of situps, but I don't understand how my back hurts. And it hurts damn bad Ohkay :\ sigh. And no on can massage it for me too cos I'm ticklish there :\ xoxo Hope™

hai guys! i know i stink and i havent been blogging i'm so sorry ;_; anyways, it's minseok's birthday today!!! :DDDDD HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINSEOK AKA XIUMIN!!! ^o^ you're 23 yet you still look so young. TELL ME YOUR SECRET OMG. WHEN I WAS 13 PEOPLE THOUGHT I WAS IN JC (17~18) T.T anyways, hehe i'll go to the letterrrrrrr annyeong minseok-oppa! how are you? i can't believe you're the oldest in EXO tbh. hehe. i always thought you were one of the youngest or something :O how are you and the members so far? how's the comeback album coming up? it's almost april... which means it's been almost a year since you've had a comeback, while many other rookie groups that debuted around the same time as you have churned out alot of songs already... hope it's all good yeah? and i know it's a little sensitive, but you're not the least-like member ohkay? (: at least not to me (: well, i cant help but notice that many times not many people like you... a...

did i get that correct? lolx i meant choi ren's hair :P i think ren's hair like that suits him really well... LIKE REALLY REALLY WELL :D

hai hai! i'm watching NU'EST L.O./\.E Story now (: this ep: Nu'est Love Story Season 2 Ep. 3 English Subtitles they're cooking now... and there're so many things that i wanna 'reprimand them about. first; REN DON'T WASTE WATER YOU WASH VEG PUT A BASIN BELOW TO COLLECT THE FREAKING WATER!!!! :OOO i watch him wash i feel damn sad ;_; and also to minhyun and baekho. haiyo.. wash face never turn off the tap ._. second; aron, i think that pan is non-stick. dunnid use oil hehe. third; aron again, hehe. dont use metal cutlery when cooking in a non-stick pan. it will spoil the non-stick surface. :< I WATCH THEM COOK I FEEL SAD LOL. but it's not as if i can cook that well either :P but really. LOLOLOL ohkay i'm itching to go back to the show so ppyeong~ (wow, it's been a long time since i didn't end off with xoxo LOL) Hope™

I realise that I have a new habit now .every single time I'm frustrated or stressed ,I feel like playing the piano. No .I'm serious. I seriously want to play piano now ohkay .but obviously I can't cos I'm in the bus. But when I play piano I don't like randomly bang on the piano one ohkay! I play properly one .like practice lol I guess that's good news for my piano teacher ?xP xoxo Hope™ edit-oh, either that or listening to piano versions of kpop songs? lol

Yup .my class is not gonna get into the finals and that's final .LOL I WAS SHAKING SO BADLY OMG. AND I DID THE DANCE MOVE WRONG. But then again ,complaining now,, how can it help, eh? I'm like 100% sure that the classes advancing to the finals are 3/3 and 3/5. Like I'm so sure of it lor. Aish. Whatever.. .bye(: BTW ,I have like 2 posts from quite some time ago that seem to fail whenever I try to blog about it. .so if u ever see like a random post that doesn't seem to fit chronologically it means that those two were the posts that cant seem to be uploaded. BTW my phone's being a fucking bitch right now ._. Always cannot type one fucking annoying omg.aish .whatever..... :\ Hope is hopeless. Thank you very much Hope™

Whoops >/////< heh^^;; I got lost on my way to my piano teacher's hse. Apparently ,I'm supposed to take bus 22 and not 23 >< I went all the way to aljunied when I was supposed to go to bedok LOL So yeah .lesson's pushed until tomorrow morning. Xian's random corner: ¤there are so many random things I wanna talk about now hehe ¤#nowplaying my love - SKarf ¤oh, change already. It's what I've been looking for - high school musical (don't judge hehe) ¤the man next to me smells like curry o.o ¤I'm wearing one of my OBS shirts :D ¤it's lunch time but I'm not hungry >< ¤the deadline for the nuest dance thing is today ¤idk whether should I still upload :\ my phone's being a bitch and I can't export the video :< ¤I kindda think I should, cos if not it will bug me for the rest of my life ¤my dancing in that video sucks like Shit. Thinking if I should refilm... maybe I should ¤hope that kor won't come home so early so that ...

HEHEHHEHEHE thanks Natasha for pointing out my karma points xD hehe so observant~ :P  happened to find this pic while looking for the above one in my file ^^ xoxo Hope™

http://www.twitlonger.com/show/lbhlip omg aron writes his smileys the same ways as me \m/ now i'm even more confirm that aron helped ren in his twitter bio LOL

damn. minki looks pretty without any makeup on :O

no seriously. I CANT BELIEVE REN HAS A TWITTER. LIKE SERIOUSLY., I NEVER KNEW IT HOW COME I DONT KNOW IT?!?!?!?!?!??!! T.T like only just now when i was watching their soompi interview, then they were asking: excluding ren, would the other members get a twitter account? or something and i was there like WTF. REN HAS TWITTER. shit i'm so sorry minki!!! ))))))))): i can't believe i didn't know. now i know how natasha felt when she took so long to find out that key has insta.. haha but i guess what she felt was worse lol. since key is her ultimate. MINKIIIIIII WAE DONT I KNOWWWWWW T.T btu woah he has really nice pics on twitter :DDDDD too bad everything's in korean though :\ LOL. all those english in his tweets.. CONFIRM IS ARON HELP ONE lol. xP omg i feel so sad ;_______; aish ): he created twitter like last year, a day before his birthday :\ and it took me until march 21 march to figure it out. that's four months and 18 days. FOUR MONTHS AND EIGHTEEN DAYS. IT'S F...

I think I today very lucky hehe. When I turned on disney channel, it was Jesse :D and then nickelodeon was iCarly and there was Victorious too :D Then kmtv had kpop dance academy with Tasha and ilhoon. I was so shocked seeing Tasha! :o I've never seen her on tv shows before! Like other than those Singapore ones la. Haha. And in kpop dance academy, they danced to Sherlock! ^~^ Then before I went for ballet there was music bank :D Just now there was show champion on kmtv, but hello counsellor was on kbs and guess who's the guest? Yup! SHINee :D hehe omg feel so lucky today~~~ :p I'm being random hehe bai~ xoxo Hope™

T-T just now Nuest was on inkigayo and my dad only changed back to one after the whole intro part (where minhyun's sitting on the chair as everything) was overD: Dammit. Ohkay that's not my point of this post. My point is. I can't fucking stand how he just accuses everyone of lipsyncing. Like yea sure, those amazing people do lipsync sometimes. Nobody's perfect lag. What if they had a sore throat that day? What if there were technical issues? Hat if the dance is fucking tiring? YOU DO NOT FUCKING INSULT SOMEONE LIKE THAT WHEN HE OR SHE SUFFERED SO MUCH TEDIOUS TRAINING, "BATTLED" WITH FELLOW TRAINEES AND MAYBE EVEN THEIR FRIENDS JUST TO DEBUT. JUST TO ACHIEVE THER DREAMS. YOU DO NOT OHKAY. DO NOT. I'm sure you guys know by now that I kinds have this (maybe) ridiculous dream of debuting in the kpop industry. So I wanna ask my dad: what if (by some miracle) I really did debut? And then let's say I'm as unfortunate as Jess-Unnie. And you see everyone ...

WALAO fuck you man what is wrong with you bastard. You cannot find things at the computer table that YOU FUCKING PACKED and then you come and blame me. I was being honest when I said the last time I saw it was on the table on top of the computer table. And then when I asked to if you saw it when you packed the table, you said I was putting the blame on you. You think you so 委屈 izzit? Shouldn't I be the 委屈 one fucking bastard? You blame everyone for everything. Never blame yourself. You teach us to take responsibility for our actions yet it's so ironic that you don't ._. I really haven't used that memory card reader in a really long time Ohkay. My camera kindda went haywire eons ago and I haven't been using it like... Prolly since last year. So I haven't been using those memory card readers. Stop trying to fucking put the blame on others Ohkay. You now panicking or whatever shit cos you can't read your memory card... Can't you use ur own laptop for it? So...

Awwwhhhh ): Ohkay so I have ballet lesson on sat sun and mon now, because exam's coming up soon. And I was being worried that my leotard wouldn't dry in time and that I won't have another leotard to wear (since all my old leotards are tooooooo tight for me alr) And then mum said that if it couldn't dry on time, we'd have to buy another leotard - that made me excited :D I really want another leotard. Like one that I can choose the design and everything. Cos it'll b so pretty ^~^ plus, the ballet school leotard the design not nice one lor. Only one nice only haha. Anyways, so yeah. And then yesterday was like a test to see if my leotard will dry by today. So it's like testing if next week sat it will dry by sun for my ballet lesson. And DAMNIT LEOTARD WHY TOU DRY SO FAST?! D: I really really really wanted a new leotard ): I even went online to sonata to look at the pretty pretty leotards ): Man.... Really wanted a new leotard ): it's pretty ex though, heh...

do you know how fucking annoying you are? ._. it's finally the holidays well not really since the fucking teachers decided to bombard us with homework  and yet all you care about is me and my homework. really? sometimes i wish you're overseas all the time ._.

i wanna say one thing first - FUCK IT CAME OUT SO LONG AGO AND I DIDN'T KNOW I'M SO SORRY MY BABIES!!!! DDDDDDD; I JUST HAVENT BEEN ON COMPUTER RECENTLY BECAUSE OF SCHOOL AND EVERYTHING AND I'M JUST SO BUSY AND I'M SO SORRY I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT THE FULL VERSION CAME OUT UNTIL NATASHA TOLD ME THIS MORNING DDDDDD; ohkay lemme continue: SHIT THIS VIDEO IS SO AMAZING I LOVE IT SO MUCH T.T i like the symbolism in the mv (: it's like the candles.. passing on hope to one another, lighting up someone else's life ((((: ohkay fine that might not be the exact meaning behind the candles and everything but that's how i see it to be (: and can i be part of the audience clapping to the song??? please??? ;~; the singing is so lovely.... and nice... and everything lahfvlinaoiuvqar i may not understand japanese, but this... I SPEAK MUSIC (Y) lol clearly i've gone insane. oh, and another thing - when they were placing the candles around them, i felt quite worried co...

gonna learn the dance for NU'EST's Hello now! wish me luck! haha really hope that eva's learning it too cos we only have one week left and knowing from previous experiences, i'm fucking freaking out ><

In the bus now. Someone knocked over the emergency hammer for breaking the glass just now o.o there was this really loud high pitched sound that's so irritating lol. The bus driver had to walk all the way back to put it back into place... and he didn't look very happy >< On a side note, my phone is driving me crazy omg .it always cannot type one! Like yeah, I can press the keys to type stuff and everything ,BUT ITS NOT BEING WRITTEN IN GHE FREAKING BOX (where you type what you want to say to ur friends) so irritating urgh. Keeps happening. T.T the best part is this phone is only half a year old >_> imagine I have to bear with it for the next one and a half years -.- BTW ,there are some really annoying girls (that are unfortunately tkgian ) in the bus now .they're talking so loudly omg .super noisy. It's like everyone all quiet diamdiam one and then there they are talking as if they were born w megaphones attached to their mouths -.- I think they're sec o...

Fuck I am so fucking screwed for chinese oral omg. Fuck man. I won't even be surprised if i failed T.T Like I'm serious! I'm not making a mountain out of a molehill Ohkay! I didn't fucking understand what the teacher was asking me during 会话 fuckkkkkkkk. And she was like laughing at me ._. I'm thankful it's 张老师 though. Hehe she's so nice (: and I'm also thankful that God let me be able to have an epiphany and be able to recognize the super chim word: 藤. Haha. I was like panicking when I couldn't recognize it when I first read the passage, but then reaching the end I managed to put one and one together and managed to figure out that the word was teng :D must really thank God for that (: also must thank Him for letting me have a nice teacher hehe. Ohkay idk what now. I really hope all my friends can do well in this test too. That God will help them too (: good luck chingu-deul~ Oh yeah, I forgot to say something haha. Like cos I play w my fingers when I...

hey guys! haha i guess it's pretty obvious i'm taking about chemistry eh? :P haha so yeah. today in chemistry, we were learning about group I metals... wow. haha. cos mr ahmad was showing us how sodium reacts in water and stuff o.O it's really cool actually haha. in the beginning, when i just entered the room, i saw like... a plastic shield-like thingy on the teacher's table and i knew instantly that there was gonna be something interesting during that lesson HEHE :D  and true enough something interesting really did happen. omg it was so cool ohkay! like mr ahmad was cutting up sodium... SO COOL!!! :DDDDD hehe and i like sodium alot cos my friend used to call me sodium. cos xian sounds like salty and what do you get from salty? SODIUM! XP and sodium is so soft! omg! hehe. i feel sho amazed~~~ and then after that he asked us to come infront cos the ppl at the back couldn't really see and everything. me and ravi like chionged all the way infront xP then yeahla, best s...

ohkay first off i wanna say that i'm terribly sorry if someone was researching on ADHD and chanced upon my blog. you need to know that this has nothing to do with attention deficit hyperactive disorder. i'm sorry if i gave you false hope. it's just something i talked to my friends about it school. i'm really sorry if i gave you false hope. good luck in continuing your research (: ohkay! now that i've said that so that people wont read thinking that it really had something to do with adhd, I'M SO SORRY FOR NOT BLOGGING YOUR BLOGGER'S A LOUSY BLOGGER D; btw, i've learnt a little of html editing (from trying to fix camp:araderie and stuff, and i'm using this post to try it out! :D tell me how it looks yeah? haha ohkay so let me start from last friday... hm what did i do? keke xD yeah, i lunched w natasha :D couldn't have subway cos natasha can't eat meat other than fish so we had pepper lunch (at like freaking 3). the pepper lunch was nice! ther...

Hey it rhymes! :D anyways yeah I'm in school now .fucking early ): but oh well :\ normal ppl all either leaving home or just woke up .me leh? In school -.- have to wait like another 20 min until my friends come so imma sleep. Nites~ xoxo Hope™

You tell me that currently it's hard to decide what I want to be in life. But I've already decided. I just don't know if I can reach it. Ps .I feel so PMS-ish today lor lol. Like moodswing.... lol

Isn't it ironic how you scold me for being rude by taking others' phone yet you invade my privacy by looking at everything I have?