Frustratingly Mediocre

i edited the pic of me and my cousin!! xD  yes, i know i went overboard with the editing heheheh

Happy Horse Year from a Tiger and Monkey!! ^^ HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!! it's the year of the horse this year! it's the year of 02-liners, 90-liners, 78-liners, 66-liners, 54-liners, 42-liners, 30-liners, 18-liners and 06-liners!!! ofc i know there's more but if i really continued to name it it'd take a millennium hahahhaa. my grandpa was born in the year of the horse!! :D too bad he wasn't able to experience the 6th cycle... ><  can you believe that zhenjie is 12 this year?!?!??! like WHAT. i actually remembered the day he was born ohkay. i was four but i rmb it! or maybe not the day he was born la, the day after? like i rmb my mum telling me "zhen jie was born ytd." !!! and i rmb we were walking along this sheltered walkway at my grandparent's old house when i was told that! i don't really rmb much of when zhen jie was a baby tho o.o i do rmb our australia trip and he was five at that time. he didn't really seem five to me at that time tho lol....

went to pulau semakau with the class on monday! and skipped training hahhaha. it was really nice!! :D sat w huiqin in the bus to go to um... marina south ferry terminal?? actually i forgot alr hahhaha. but yeah. at first i tot it would b a bit awkward to sit w her cos we don't really talk that much. surprisingly it was not awkward at all!! xD she says i'm fair but um..... cos i was putting sunblock in the bus and everything :P then claire oso got put! haha she also got lip balm :P there wasn't much sun, but my specs were pretty dark so.... :o then in the ferry! ohkay we were told it was a double-decker ferry with an open air upper deck. but apparently what we got was a 'vip' ferry. yala, the seats got like... cushion-y like airplane seats but ummm vip???? ya sure????? the windows were pretty dirty if you ask me and some of the chairs were spoilt too. i think the aircon oso got prob o.O got a little bit seasick on the boat, but i think it's mostly 心理作用 hahahha. t...

omg sunday has got to be like one of those days where i participated so much in cleaning the house! LOL  really! although i kindda slacked a lot and didn't do much i think it has been one of my biggest contributions to the cleanliness of the house HAHHAHA. i helped to vacuum, mop the floor.... a lot of things la. oso got not related to cleaning, but needed to be done jobs.  like i helped to fold the clothes, i helped to cook lunch and dinner! ohkay lunch and dinner was the same thing so i just cooked like a damn big portion near lunch time xD ofc, mummy helped me out a lot cos it's kindda my first time cooking a meal for my whole family like that. i guess i mostly helped with the preparation of ingredients?  DID YOU KNOW THAT PURPLE CABBAGE RUNS IN WATER OMG.  it's such a pretty purple! :3 i was washing the cabbages and then i realised that the water became purple!! omg i totally love purple cabbages now xD maybe that's how in the past (and maybe present) people dyed...

on saturday, i skipped ballet to go to mandai crematorium.  cos yeye's um....... marble... the thingy that seals a niche was finished and we were gonna put it in place.  i had mixed feelings when i saw that marble thingy... idk whether to feel sad? or what? ><  and the person that helped us was pretty nice (:  i'm so sorry to the person that i accidentally knocked the picture off >< there was this marble thingy where the person's picture was pasted on my plaster. like just a temporary one. i touched it, thinking that it would stick but then it fell!!!!!! D: i'm so sorry!!! ))))): yeah.  then after that at night there was this cny celebration thing downstairs my house awww it was nice (:  i ate many goodies!! and mummy and daddy were like telling me about when they were young they ate that and stuff lolx xD i ate long xu tang! omg i love it so much :D the person who made it seemed really friendly and nice hehe. can tell that she's old but she lik...

i'm really really really sorry for not updating guys!!! )))): imma update as my as i can cos it's the eve of cny! ^~^ so wait for the posts! :D

oh shit. last time i for fun go fill up i think jellyfish's audition form my dad found it and read through it abit shit shit shit nvm at least i took it from him and crushed it hehe hope he doesn't think i'm serious or something i am la, but dont need him to know hahahha

Yknow now that i think of it, maybe alot of ppl that knew me from young will say that i change alot. like personality wise maybe? Idk i feel like i got change like that ley. LIKe i become quite antisocial and ive learnt how to shut my mouth and not act stupid n eccentric. Is this a good thing? I still at stupid and eccentric but i guess not as much anymore? Its like i have two totally different sides of myself now even i am confused. I have one side when im w certain ppl and one side w everyone else and one when im alone and stuff idek. Im so confused Why dont i understand myself. Whatever. Now guess lai guess qu oso do nothing idk la, i dont want my life to be a waste but that looks like what it's gonna be. I would say hope but how much can hope do really. I like the irony of my name (: hey at least that's a smile Hope™

Sorry la ohkay. Not lipservice this one. Like really sorry. Ohkay? It's ot that dont care abt u but the place really got very scary u always say dunnoe what girls cannot go out alone whatever im telling u i had been holding my knife for a very long time kay. Always got this kind of weird cases like dk what ppl kena killed/raped/idek what other crime then i scared mah. bETter safe than sorry right? Aiya liddat then nvm next time i go home myself wtv. Next time wont bother calling u liao ohkay? U need me to block ur no on my phone oso? Then you'll never b able to reach me then dunnid care liao. OHkay? Not trying to be smart aleck or rude or whatever negative word that you can prolly come up w la ohkay. Im not good w stuff liddat and i just scared la i see so many ppl like then some got the very sinister feel u tell me u not scared meh. I think guy oso scared pls. These ppl dk what they can do one. Now i waiting alone oso quite scared sigh. But what can i do. I tell u nvm dont com...

Hey guys! Im omw to dhoby ghaut now to meet karen cos we're volunteering as motivators in chingay 2014! HEHe xD but i meeting dong for dinner first then later we go the actual place hehe SO anyways, i lost my purple earphones that i got for my bday last year from my buddies and i was kindda bummed abt it cos not only was it a present, it was also a really good pair of earphones!!! I finally found it after 5months ^^ turns out it's been w me all along ._. It's been in the bag that i always carry around but it's in this small compartment that i hardly ever open (obviously lol) Then just now waiting for the bus, i wanted to keep my earphones somewhere (some pair i stole from kor hehehee) and when i opened that compartment, i found my missing earphones!!!! XD HEhe i happy~ Damn this train goes to stadium ): gotta get off at promenade ltr. Hope™

I know this is really really stupid, and probably extremely biased. But this is my own thoughts, and humans tend to be biased to certain people/things, eh? But I'm honestly Kindda frightened/scared rn for SMAs. Turns out voting ends 2359 on 21jan and not 0000 21jan. Last time I saw, VIXX and EXO had the same number of votes.  I feel bad. I feel bad that even when VIXX does so much for us, the immaculate amount of love they give us Starlights, we cant give them many awards. We can't give them constant first places on music shows, we can't give them big awards at award ceremonies.  I know that winning's not everything, but i just... I just really want them to be able to get it! I know other bands work just as hard, if not harder, but since humans all have a tendency to be biased, I'm being Kindda biased to VIXX now and I want them to win!!  VIXX is confirmed to be going for the SMAs so I really hope they win something. Even though nothing's confirmed yet, I can...

The title might be wrong I anyhow Tikam one. Lazy go translate Liao lol But just thinking, should I not talk anymore? Like everytime I say something you say something else. You tell me so many different things the moment I open my mouth and say something. Would it be better if I just keep my mouth shut?  Sometimes I find that I'm really like dr. Jekyll and mr. Hyde. Not trying to bring Kpop in here. I promise. Sometimes I'm so smiley crazy and happy, but the next I become some antisocial emo Kia. Like what. And they're both my personalities, it's not like I'm trying to fit in or anything. Is this like... Split personality? But split personality is smth serious and I don't think this is something serious. So meh  Sleep tight!! I hope I wont over think today Hope™

haha ohkay so i realised that i forgot to mention some things about today and i didn't really wanna continue from that one cos it didn't fit the context (?) first! chem class! omg chem today was spa and i admit it was kindda scary. i forgot what i was reacting, but i was reacting to produce oxygen. so i didn't read the thing properly, it said to put small amounts of the solid but i put one whole spatula OTL. and then the whole thing just bubbled up and out of the test tube it was actually quite scary and shocking o.o but the solution (?) is only warm, it didn't corrode my hands or anything hahah. my ten fingers are still intact~~~ i rmb fern was screaming at me to put the test tube down cos the whole thing bubbled over my hand. and we were all frantically calling for mr ahmad hahaha. surprisingly mr ahmad didn't yell at me or anything o.o he just like stoned there, picked up the test tube and told me to wash it o.o after class karen was so freaking out LOL it was qu...

what's up guys! today's kindda a weird day for me....?? just saying, i had glutinous rice for all three meals today!! xD mummy made it ytd and i brought it to sch for breakfast and lunch. then when i come home from ballet i ate it for dinner xD anyways, this is not what i wanted to say. i'm a girl, but i think some of us are just so weird sometimes. like wtf nothing happened and you start ignoring me. REALLY?!?! ohkay i wont say names. let's just name her E. so E and i are pretty close. or rather really close. like we used to text all the time and talk and chat and spazz and everything. then suddenly last friday she just like suddenly change and completely ignore me like that. then i was thinking oh maybe just not in the mood or smth la. but then today oso same thing! like wth didn't even bother starting any convos w me or anything! completely acted i wasn't even there lor. i'm not upset because she's no longer talking to me, i'm just confused cos I ...

it's one of those days again. do you know what kind of days? those days where i would start thinking really deeply and possibly overthink? or do i just start to think really realistically? or it's pms really idk. but it's one of those days again i know i should be doing my homework now, i should be making notes on ecology cos mdm aishah's gonna check it tmr but idk i just really wanted to blog. i really felt like blogging. i just really want to talk but i don't exactly have/want anyone to talk to so... i turn to here. about an hour ago, i was watching this video on jewelery making, about using metal blanks (?) to personalise little tags to put on jewelery that we make ourselves. as i watch it, i can't help but think that hey, maybe this is a path that i can go on? like i can make jewelery? maybe? maybe not? i know i like making those simple ones where we can buy the items from small art shops, but what about those really hardcore ones where we have like a thousa...

AYO WHASSUP GUYS GUESS WHAT I GOT MY O LEVEL CHINESE RESULTS BACK TODAY GUESS MY MARKS i guess by me talking like this you alr know hahahhahahhahaa. so i expected a C6 or something cos my chinese really cmi. BUT I FREAKING GOT AN A2!!!! AN A2 OHKAYYYYYYY!!!! my heart was pounding so much when i found out omg. and i maybe teared a bit hahhahhaha.. so before we got our results, this teacher just kept nagging and nagging there it was really really annoying like WOMAN I WANT MY RESULTS. and i was getting really demoralised by her nagging cos she was saying how many people failed and everything that i teared up too ohkay ): then i just rested on my bag and tried to sleep cos i really didn't wanna listen and start crying...... and then she finally shut up LOL. no offence to the teacher kay!!! >< we received our results one by one according to register number. so what we have to do is to sign on a piece of paper that has our name and grade on it. so technically you can alr know your...

Ohkay I know this is really random. And it's really late rn. But I just wanna take some time to thank the Lord. No motives or anything. Just the thing that've happened throughout the day, I've been thinking through it just as I'm about to go to sleep and I guess I just wanna blog about it before I have to wake up again in the morning.  So I really really want to thank God today. He helped me find many things that I was missing.  Firstly, I Kindda lost one of my bracelets ytd. If you don't know, I wear three glow-in-the-dark bracelets 24/7 and they're purple pink and blue. I got them end 2011 and I haven't taken them off since. So ytd when I was preparing to go for ballet, I noticed that I only had to bracelets and the purple one (which as pretty much faded to white lmao) was missing. I spent some time searching for it, but I couldn't find it at all. Just now, when I was searching for something else (that will be mentioned after this) I managed to find it...

yeheeee i just watched this and i feel happy that i understood abit of it xD LOL at Leo telling N to talk less (?) play less (?) and actually idk the second one otl. smth about time lolx. and then N just repeating the same thing to Leo except changing it to more xD and then Leo going "YOU WORKED HARRDDD" like telling them to end it or something ehehhe and then ravi talking about their ages or something??? but i think the funniest was Hyukkie at the end. "돼지띠 짱!" xDDDD 아니에요, 호랑이띠 짱!!! ^^ Hope™

have i mentioned how irritated at (and prolly how much i fucking hate) my iPhone? fucking hell every damn fucking thing crashed on that fucking phone i get that you're old but if you're old prolly the only thing that happens is v slow right? WRONG ABSOLUTELY FUCKING WRONG damn thing crashes like every fucking app in the phone and sometimes refuses to update what the actual fuck ohkay. like i had five mins to upload on insta the pic of mum's pressie but then instagram (and my phone in general) was being a bitch and kept crashing fuck this shit.

ohkay tbh i don't have much time since i leagued a lot just now and i really wanna post this on mum's bday so i'll edit it later yeah? HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY I LOVE YOU :D Hope™

omg hahhahahahhaha kor is leaguing now and it's funny xDDDD cos idk what game he's playing la, whether izzit pvp or against computer, but he was telling this to his friend "what do you do when you give birth?" "huh?" "do you know how a baby is given birth?" "yes, why are you asking me that?" "you just have to push. and likewise, we have to push now." OMG LOL XD for non-leaguers or those that don't play similar games i guess you won't get it. but to 'push' basically means to like... how to say. get close to the enemies homebase?? there're three lanes, so if they say push mid, most (or everyone?) will go to the middle lane to attack the champions and destroy the turrets to get to the homebase of the enemy. i would say nexus but i think that would need even more explanation otl. ohkay so i'm not that good at this game, and i might not know proper terms and stuff but this is how i understand it~ mummy's b...

ayo whaddup guys. sorry for not blogging in quite a long time... i'm sick today....... so imma take the chance and blog before things start piling up on me ._. so on sat, i went to eat dimsum w my family!! omg it was so nice!!! it's a star vista, canton paradise!! :D daddy guesses that the chef is from hk, so the food he makes are really authentic???? idk but it's really delicious hehehhe. btw, do i walk v quietly? cos either stella or sandra are often shocked that i'm there o.O like i'll stand behind them and say hi, and they'll be like "OMG WHEN WERE YOU HERE" lol. after eating, went to arch angel to buy shoes cos mummy has a 20% discount since it's her bday. I HAVE BUNIONS FML. or it's forming la haha. and my arch is so high it scare me LOL. so i bought a pair of home slippers! it feels weird that now the outer part of my leg touches the floor LOL. spent like idek how much money there. each shoe's like 300???? then had dessert at papa ri...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o22rxs8W01c  above is VIXX, below is SHINee cos i haven't seen recent photos of SHINee in hanbok. WHATS UPPPPP it's the new year!!! :DD 1 January 2014!!! i don't really have much to say lol.  i finally woke up on time today!! and i had an amazing dinner :3 currently craving for the salted egg fried chicken that i had omg TT.TT  and i finally cut my fringe!! my long fringe!! haha xD i cut it myself ^~^ and i think i cut it too short otl. btw yknow exactly one year ago SNSD's IGAB came out? and now on this day, TVXQ!'s Something came out!! xDD  sigh. school starts tmr. and guess what? i have fucking amath remedial on the first day of sch. well looks like i have an extra 2 hours to draw :D  i know i sound like a bitch and a rebellious student, but in the end, why do tchrs even care about me? you have so many other students who care about you, why do you always have to bother about me. just don't care if i'm dead or alive la. i don...