Frustratingly Mediocre

I think it's ironic how my dad was all kpop idols that look alike is because they plastic until look alike, but he (and mummy) agree that me and Val look alike and me a ding dong look alike (we don't Ohkay). So does that mean we all plastic oso???? LMAO.  Like I'm serious, some kidols really look alike I cannot. ESP Taeyeon and jisung(?), minhyuk and baekhyun, seo inguk, Sungjae and n, and maybe even Taemin and Kai!!!  I don't really think Taemin and Kai look alike, but there are times I see the similarities. As for seo inguk Sungjae and n... Sometimes I think that Sungjae and inguk look more alike. I think Hakyeon doesn't really look like seo inguk, but sometimes he does hehe Hope™

OHKAY GUISE SO NOW TIME FOR ME TO TALK. I DON'T HAVE ALL THE PICS YETS SO I'LL JUST EDIT THEM IN WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT. I JUST SAW A PIC OF ME RECEIVING MY PRIZE FROM TAEMIN SO NOW I'M ABIT HIGH YET SAD YET IDEK MIXED EMOTIONS FTW OHKAY. so yeah. took the bus home w natasha and then she offered me a ride to get the mbs convention centre yay! xP then she said that her mother had a friend that was selling tix and maybe can bargain. but meh. i think they're not really close or something? so i was told not to get my hopes up. i kept telling myself that ohkay xP so anyways, when i got there the queue was so long!!! omg it like when around the whole freaking building ohkay. then after that i just went to sit awkwardly there w natasha and her friends and like i was searching through twitter if anyone was selling it but nope ): so i just tweeted like if anyone had extra tix. and this person on twitter asked if i did and i was like nope. i don't have. so she asked if we could ...

ahem. not shipping myself w Ravi #justsayin. anyways so i just had the interview over phone.. like cos i won the prize and everything and whoops. she asked me how i got the ticket >< i just said someone gave it to me. i dont really know what to say >< and then she asked me how i felt and i was just idk! i was so dazed and happy and shocked omg. haha then she asked if i like Taem alot and i was like YES. and then she ask why la. like how can i explain why omg. because i just do. he stands out so much to me i cannot. i love him so much!!! <3 and she oso got ask like when i knew about SHINee and how. hehe. and then she asked me if Taemin smiled and if i looked at him and YES HE DID. or at least i think he did hehe. idk the image of Taemin is like mentally burned into my head and i'm never forgetting it <3 and yeah. she oso got ask if my friends were jealous and stuff and i said the story about natasha cheering for me and everything! (: and yeah omgomgomg. and then sh...

FUCK I DON'T BELIEVE MY LUCK RIGHT NOW FUCK DO YOU FUCKING KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!?!?!!! FUCK.  I will tell you more when I come down from my high but FUCK. FUCK FUCK FUCK MY LUCK TODAY IS SO FUCKING GOOD I CANNOT first of all, I want to thank God. For letting all of this happen <3  OHKAY SO FUCK. I GOT LIKE FOUR FUCKING VIP TICKETS FOR FREE FUCK AND THEN I PARTICIPATED IN THIS RANDOM COMPETITION LIKE JUST FOR FUN (I didn't even know the answer) AND I FUCKING WON IT TAEMIN FUCKING CAME ME MY PRIZE FUCK. YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH NOW FUCK like I was jus anyhow random sua drop it inside! Then after that the box that they were taking out (lucky draw) was the box I dropped in. But I kept telling myself "don't get your hopes high don't get your hopes high" AND FUCK. THE MC WAS LIKE "THE WINNER IS.... SIOW LEE XIAN" LIKE FUCK. MY FIRST REACTION WAS OH MY GOSH!!!!!!! AND NATASHA AND HER FRIENDS WERE SCREAMING THAT AT ME FUCK I CANNOT  THEN NA...

Yo guys! Im in the car now~ so i dont think you yet, so this is the situation xD there's etude house's pink play today and i dont have the ticket. YEt, im gg to the venue! HAha gonna loiter around there see if anyone selling the tickets really really cheap/free annot xP I know not to get my hopes up, so~ i'll wait until the thing starts then if i really cant go them nvm lor. I go home haha. Natasha's mum is sending the both of us there. Natasha has the ticket haha. Anyways, so im really thankful to God for letting me be able to just go there and loiter around. Of course, i really hope that i can go in luh... >< you have no idea how worried i was ytd when i was gonna ask mummy if i could go for pink play. BUT it turned out surprisingly easy??? :O LIKE THIS is what happened: Me: mummy i say something you cannot be angry at me ohkay? Mum: WHAT Me: no! You really cannot be angry at me ohkay? Im not saying that you die die must let me go. But... (insert long ass explan...

HAHa i know most of you will have no idea whar the tiTle means, eh? haha it's kindda like my way of saying "patience" it's pronounced pay-son-seu (패이손스) with an Accent xD so i was waiting for my parents, but im in the car now xD The shopping just now w xh was pretty ohkay i guess haha. A little bit awkward here and there but nevertheless, fun: D Went to etude! HAha and they were like having this sale on nailpolish. Two for $3.90 but i was broke LOL. The colours werent exacty nice anyways. >< then went to isetan ans lepaked for so long there haha xD SIgh. i wanna go to pink play, but i know i wont be able to ): then again, i should be thankful.  THat at least i went for loe. Now just waiting for vixx to announce their global showcase venues. idek if i want them to come to sg annot. IF they come, i have to make a decision between kmw, vixx or shinee. Actually idek if there will b swc this year. ALthough from the looks of it i dont think so. I Mean th...

Yo. IN the car now otw to nex for shopping haha. w cousins + niece! XD it's kindda an awkward yet comfortable silence now hhhhahahhhh. I think i know why im being brought to shopping....  but i shant say anything lol Hm....gonna go play the true or false game w my niece now~ annyeong~ Hope™

IKR LIKE WHY AM I BLOGGING ABOUT 3 JUNE BABIES IN AUGUST. haha ohkay so anyways, i found another 3 june baby!! yay~~ xDD turns out, it's Sehun's good friend, 2EYES' Daeun!!! xDDD like i was looking up 2EYES on how to write their name in Hangul cos i was doing that worksheet thing and i saw this: Birth Name: Jung Da Eun Stage Name: Daeun Birthday: June 3, 1994 Position: Main Vocalist -She is friends with Sehun from EXO-K whee~~ she's exactly 4 years older than me!! xDDD so now how many 3 June babies do i know? Rafael Nadal (1986) Park Hanbi (1990) Chi Chi's Peach (1991)  Heyne (1992) 2EYES' Daeun (1994) yayyy!!! xDDD  new bias in 2EYES = Daeun :P DON'T MESS WITH ME :D Hope™

wheee!!! nuest is back!!! xD hehe i just realised that i havent posted what i thought about SHINee bmu and VIXX gr8u and EXO growl hahahhahahah xD oops xD trust me, i'm almost done. just havent done growl yet cos not much to talk about >< but yay! this is cute! xD hahahhha i would've been amazed at how they were able to 'film upside down' if i didnt watch the bts of dream girl xD i was actually quite surprised how they did it yes i'm stupid i know  but then after i saw it i was like 'cheyy!!! so easy only!!' lol xD so yeah! it's nice! :D AND REN STOP BEING SO PRETTY DAMMIT. friggin hell how can a guy be so pretty you tell me. and then minhyun. sexy uh??? [[[; hahhahahha the shirt behind abit like ren in action except maybe this one more revealing? :P wah and then the part where they lift up their shirt reminds me of f(x)'s NU ABO xD speaking of which, gonna watch henry and amber!! :DD but woah woah woah!! daring liao hor??? last time in nuest d...

HAVe i ever mentioned how annoyingly crowded trains are? I dont think i have lol. ANyways, so omw home from training now, daddy didnt come and pick me up cos he isnt feeling well ): gws~ SO yeah. im stuck taking public transport cos im not some rich kid that can afford a taxi. Dont you find that it's sooooo crowded? esp during peak hrs. ive literally been pushed against the door before ohkay. Like completely flushed against it. somehow i dont understand why the government wants more children and wants the population to increase. like HELLO? 1000+ PEOPLE PER SQUARE FOOT(?) NOT ENOUGH FOR U IZZIT? lol. Ohkay i actually dk how they calculated population density cos i forgot what mrs tan taught last year >< MEh. i know it has to do w the declining birth rates and everything... aish im not in a comfy position to type now (like hello when will u b comfy in an mrt) so imma go. Seeya~ Oh nvm im sitting down now hahahhaha. totally being judged and criticised by the ppl around me. what...

OHkay so anyways, had chinese just now and got back my chinese results. Failed, like usual. ANyways, so lao shi was giving us this talk about pur exams and then he was saying how he wont be here w us when we take our o levels (sounded like he was gonna die lol) and i almost cried hahahhahhaha what is wrong w me . Idk, just that now i enjoy chinese lessons and then like when he goes back chinese lessons will become like in semester one and that time we didnt really like/looked forward to chinese kay. So like now it's hard to imagine how lessons will be like after lao shi leaves omg. HE was like "one te day i leave dont cry ohkay!" Meh. i cant promise anything, but i'll try my best not to i guess. I probably will be like want to ry yet wont cry hahahhahahahha idk. iVE never had a teacher like that. last time when we young that rime teacher come teacher leave we treat it like the norm one. just "oh cher left alr". Shouldnt think of such things eh? Afterall tmr ...

내, 지금은 비 있어... 애.... Hehe it's raining now~ well, not a downpour though. JUSt drizzling i think haha. Im on the bus now~~~ was supposed to study w karen for lit but then we got bored and everything ): seriously i think i would enjoy lit if we actually had a good teacher? Urgh. ANyways, we also went back cos it was beginnin to rain and i dowanna be caught in a freaking monsoon so i wanted to go back .so much for planning to be good girls and study the day before exams *ahem* so 乖 *ahem* lmao. Ohkay so anyways i guess today was pretty interesting? Im failing chem omg. Freaking hell it was so hard ): did mr ahmad set the paper again???? lol xD those percentage purity questions i was just kike screw it hahahhaah. ALmost had no time to finish!!!! :o And here's the catch (well maybe not really): MY BIO WORKBOOK WAS UNDER MY TABLE THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE EXAM LIKE WTH??????? i honestly had no idea abt it! COS i usually keep my things ...

Hahahhaahhahahahahahhahahahahahahh I am so screwed for both math and geog tmr hahahahhaahahahahhahahahahahhahaha Idk why I like so "rebellious" now (although not as bad as those real ones la). Like recently I like heck care all my subjects and everything hahhahhaha.  I change router alr btw HAHHAHAHAHA geog so fucking screwed idk where the fuck my notes went. Like I can only find KQ2. KQ1 and 3 just like fucking vapourised or something like that hhahahahahhahaah. So I'm borrowing Karen's notes to study tmr yay.  And math, HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHA I don't fucking understand fucking radians and still a little confused with further trigo hahhahahaha fuck exams. What are exams. What is school hahahhahahahaha Screwed like shit and I'm proud of it HAHAHAHHAHAHA (omg it rhymes). HAHAHAHHAHAHA idek why now I'm so indifferent to everything. Meh. The less you care the less you're affected.  FUCK A BEETLE FUCKING LANDED ON MY HEAD FUCK. Ohkay Nevermind daddy got rid of...

Annyeong guys!! xDD haha i'm so sorry that i'm procrasitnating again!! T.T i'm supposed to be studying for my exams tmr but i just got so bored and everything (it's math and geog can you believe it zz). so yeah, i was actually playing typeracer, but i kindda got bored cos there's only so much fun you can get from typing ._. then after that i was also making a Korean worksheet for my friends. IKR??? someone who cant speak Korean is here making a Korean worksheet for her friends what happened to this world.  but anyways, i'm just making those worksheets so that they'll be able to read Korean easily since they keep complaining how they didn't recognise Hangul letters. Might make one more soon, alr have two! ^^ i also kindda wanted to make them cos i got like these super cute Korean fonts online and i wanted to use them xD still waiting for celine to send me a pic of the notes i made for her about the Korean alphabet last time so i can make a softcopy zz. an...

Omg wow. Just watched turbulence (it happened to be on hbo signature, I only watched like abit) as downstairs is having national day dinner and there were fireworks!!! Haha xD  Except the fireworks were like either on top of my block or behind my block so I could only hear it but not see it ): I never knew that there are fireworks in my area!!! Hahahaha xD  Anyways so I looked out the window expecting to see fireworks but then I couldn't find anything. But if you look at the opposite block, it was showing the reflection of the fireworks. It couldn't have been beyond the blocks cos there are ppl living there, it's not transparent. The fireworks looked pretty pretty HAHA.  Omg I feel so detective now like all those detectives sometimes rely on reflections to be able to catch culprits and everything hehehehhehee xD omg what's wrong w me.  And now playing on kmtv is destiny and this reminds me of the VER A where there's a plane crashing Hahahahaha Btw y'know the tur...

You have no idea how much effort I put in to take a screenshot omg.  Anyways, while I was watching running man on channel one just now, there was this freaking mosquito that pretty much refused to leave me alone omg! Like I kept moving around to get it to get lost but IT FREAKING STAYED THERE. Like it'd fly away when I moved, but it always came back! Since when we're blood type A vulnerable to mozzies? I always thought it was blood type O haha Feeling exceptionally scared + paranoid now cos there have been many many dengue cases in my area and also it took me some time to realise that the mozzie was on me so who knows how much blood he could've sucked or how many antigens she could've injected into my body!!!! PHAGOCYTES AND LYMPHOCYTES I NEED U!!!!!!  So I kindda panicked and went all OBS on it. Cos during OBS we literally SPAMMED insect/mozzie repellent EVERYWHERE and ALL THE TIME. ESP in the tent, after we bathe, before we sleep, when GG out, etc. I freaking used one...

Sometimes the most obvious is also the most hidden. What's wrong w me today otl. Suddenly feel so.... quote-y XD although all these stuff are made by me HAHA. Or someone else could've said it but i don't know o.o Anyways, just being lame. Cos you know how no one knows about this blog right? Yet I write the phrase "Victim of Conformity" everywhere that I think all my friends know about it XP Although im not really trying to hide it or anything Lol I just really love it so much ^~^ BTW Action is playing now! XDD and it goes 1 2 3 action! this ain't a movie. i'm coming out a hundred percent raw the true the real me. victim of conformity, pressed down on all fours. stand up, fight back, the world it's yours!

I think I tend to be indifferent about everything. Everything I have no emotion one. You do anything bad to me, you say anything bad about me I'm just like ohkay whatever. Report me for all I care. I really don't care anymore. The more you care, the more you get affected . So I don't care.

Hehehehe from the title you cabbage guess who I'm talking about right? haha. So loads of things happened today and in a way I guess it's a little confidential? Call me crazy but I still want to blog. I'll just use codes I guess. Codes are: d t a h Ohkay so we had Chi just now, and I really didn't wanna go to H's class which is always after Chi so we always stay back like damn late to not go her class cos no off it's damn damn damn boring. h pretty much gave up on our whole class HAHA it's like she knows we all dl lit :P ohkay anways, so we decided to walk like a really really long distance to go back to class. we actually lepaked at the general office there and the teachers basically treated us like we were invisible???? not that i'm complaining though lol. so anyways, when we decided to go back to class, A was walking infront of all of us and D noticed that her skirt was stained. (awkward to write :O haha) and like we went to the toilet to wash it. so y...

OMG I'm I the bus now and got one young girl DAMN PRETTY SIA. Like she's prolly 5 or 6 and she's already so pretty damn..and she's Korean! Haha potential visual for a band, eh? ^^ she has dimples like Hongbin Hahahah. Cos I happened to look over when I thought I heard Korean/Japanese. And now I feel happy that i understand abit LOL. What's wrong w me suddenly so random hahahhahahaha BTW that girl looks quite mixed blood Cos her hair v brown Lol

Why does post concert depression (pcd) hit me like a truck at the randomest times????? Like I was just reading an angst fanfic and then suddenly all I can think of is when bap was singing goodbye and how i felt like crying cos it was over too quicklyyyy!!!!  PCD!!! Can you give me a schedule so I can prepare myself???? Lol  정말 왜 왜 왜?

W O W. like i've watched phone covers of many songs before but this... WOAH. LIKE FREAKING WOAH.

Aish... What am I thinking lately? I think i've gone crazy recently. Really. Recently I've been living in my own world and dreaming crazily and so many things. Like I keep daydreaming about stuff that will NEVER happen and i'm like so sure it'll never happen.  It'll b a little embarrassing to say what I've been daydreaming about (hint:WGM lol) but I can guarantee that it'll never happen.  Like i really need to stop dreaming. I really need to stop thinking that soon, I'll join some entertainment company and I'll debut. I need to stop thinking about this crap.  Stop. I really keep daydreaming too much. You have no idea Ohkay. No such thing will happen I need to stop thinking like that. But at the same time, this is something that makes me happy. Which is better? Living in reality and Realising tht you're not happy (probably wont ever be lol) or living in your dreams where you're the freaking happiest person on earth?  With exams now, everyone a...

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.... the post concert depression is hitting me like a truck after seeing a pic of himchan at the concert yesterday. i'll do my best to blog about it later, yeah? (:

grr... i still can't recognise all of bap's songs!! D: and i've pretty much listened to the for the whole day! lol. like since 11+?? i listened until 12.30 then stopped for lunch (i was watching taeun wgm) and like at 2+?? i continued until like 5 or smth. idek. omg i really listened to it for so long ohkay!!! i keep mixing punch and coma up idek why T.T and alot of other songs too.. meh. just wing it tmr haha. kindda excited actually ^^

hahahhha first things first, i'm happy that the Starlight fandom is growing and growing and growing!! ^^ from when barely anyone knew about VIXX (and when they had to endure performing for only one fan live once) to everyone crashing EYK's comments xDDD Simon and Martina  ‏ @ eatyourkimchi 1h Disqus can’t handle posts with over 9000 comments RT @ taekeygenes : what happened with the comments for VIXX on the chart? it disappeared woots~ starlights are amazing~~ haha comment until like that xD it was like 6k a day or two ago leh o.o now it's like 8k++ haha. i don't comment alot, but i read through the comments haha. http://www.eatyourkimchi.com/kpopcharts/vixx-gr8u/ pls vote!!! eyk has reviewed shadow, and i really hope that they review g.r.8.u even though they have growl and badman as competitors >< .... i never knew hair dye could run like that HAHA

i hope i got the above correct!^^ anyways, good news! my parents said yes!!!!! omg thank you so much mummy and daddy!!! <333333 they said that i can go for the bap concert!! :DDDDDD hehehhe. must really thank God too, because He was the one that helped them make their decision and because of Him, i'm able to go for the concert!! :DDD hehe omg what's wrong w me :P

hey~ so you know how bap's having a concert in singapore right??? i might be gg haha. cos val bought tix for her and another friend and like end up the other friend dowan go so now she's asking if i can go w her. and she got the tix cheap, so i'm trying to use that to convince my parents if i can go haha. rmb how last time i said that my parent would only let me go once a year? yeah. i'm trying to convince them not to count this as the 'once a year' thing cos i'm still saving up for SHINee World or SMTOWN. haha. so now my parents are gg for dinner and they'll be deciding it. i hope that i'll be able to go!! (: i know you know that i don't stan bap that much. like i dont stan them like how i stan SHINee and EXO and VIXX and NU'EST or idek. haha. but mostly SHINee la haha. cos they're my first priority. anyways, but i still like them. i may not call myself a Baby, but i really do like BAP :D so i'm kindda hoping that i can go and that i...

Yo~ im on the bus home now. so ohkay. Exam roday. had hunese crash course hahahahhahaha. Panicking like shit in the morning>< for eng, we had proposal and i forgot to add the link in one of them and i had no space left at the end of the para so i was just like happy happy put a carrot there and then write one whole sentence xP FOR chinese, it was like... discussin w ur friend about 感情烦恼 and i was just there like... im a fifteen year old girl in a girls school. you want me to write about love.....? LOL xD and it's like 举例&对比论证 and i had like nothing to 举例 about so i just wrote like 表姐所做的事 & 姐姐所做的事。lol xD BTw, pls forgive my phone for the random captilisations! It's gone crazy >.> im bringing it to fix tmr though~ Ohkay so then our buddieS came back! awww hahahha. AND We were havin legacy and my b...