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Insomnia?
Do my eyes look very red? Because ive not slept for the past 32 hours. Ive always wonder what it was like when a person stayed up the whole night because of insomnia or to burn the midnight oil or whatever. Guess i found out. No matter what i did, i just wouldnt sleep. Thankful to have someone to talk to though, about my thoughts and like stuff and idek. Hahaha but yeah this morning kindda freaked out a little when kor woke up at freaking 4:50 and was trying to make it less obvious i was texting (i think it was freaking obvious ah) and then when i had to wake daddy up and everything apparently my whole family's alarm rings at 6:15 😂😂😂 And also because i look like shit from not sleeping, today marks the first day of my life where i wore makeup to sch. I had to look for my any cushion i won last time and use it and i would say that it kindda does cover up the dark eye circles well? It was too light tho so i think it looked kindda fake on me??? ...
Art
well, i'm stuck waiting for my turn of exco interviews in drama and unluckily i think i'm last hahahhaha so yeah i just decided to blog abt my art lesson from a few days back ah (: so we were starting on sova and omg it was so ki????? hahhahaha cos we were talking abt like what's considered as a line, a line is 1D and a shape is 2D and a form is 3D. then we started gg all like but when you draw a line, the width of the pen used to draw the line gives it another dimension. does it mean that it's a shape now??? and if you think about it, a thin layer of graphite is used to draw that line. so does that mean it has one more dimension now and it's a form??? what is a line??? hhahaha xD and then amelie was telling me how in her class there are ppl that take ki and in one of the exams, the qn was "does a chair exist" and this senior wrote two words and got an a: what chair? like OMG. hahaha xD and then after that in another lesson we were discussing about colours...
Alarm.
I dont even know why i bother w a fucking alarm clock when it never wakes me anyway. Like out of ten times it's rung i prolly only woke up 3. Idfgi And it's not like it's only on days i dont sleep enough or what it can be the fucking weekend when i sleep 99935029463 hours and i STILL dont wake up from it. Idg wtf is wrong w me. And like idk... i think mummy was busy doing thingbs so she didnt realise the time and she ended up waking me up at 7 and i need to be in sch at 7:40 and like cfm late liao la idek why i bother anymore. All im gonna do is stand outside anyway why am i even rushing for school? Why do i even bother??? Why do i even bother sleeping or waking up or whatever. Idk. Im so fucking annoyed. With myself. And it's like i think im treating the ppl arnd me (aka ppl that try to talk to me now) rly bad like cos im in a super bad mood cos im so fucking annoyed and like idk i guess im being quite rude or curt to them?!?!?!! Im so fucking done with this. Later ton...
Late start monday
So in my school every monday we start at 8:50 instead of 7:40. We call it late start mondays. So far, ive never really had a late start monday. like every monday i had to be in sch or woke up early to meet friends, have some sch meetings thing and shop. Today is the first day i actually fully utilised my late start monday HAHA. So i have shop today and i meant to like wake up at 7. But then i forgot that i didnt have another alarm at 6:30 when i woke up at 6:20 and i offed that alarm. Then i woke up again at 8 LOL thank God that my first lesson is nth hahahahha x) Hope™
我不知道
damn annoying omg 我跟你讲我去church你又不爽。then你一直问我我去哪里，做什么，和谁出去，等等。like你以前说过好像什么的，like我要当Christian就当Christian. then现在你就收什么为什么我的朋友叫我去church是我会去。then不要一直去。then好像什么的，哦，我可以去那边like experience还是什么的可是不可以baptised还是什么。like what lor. 我last week跟你讲了saturday after ballet我是回去church的。then你this week好像什么都忘了一干二净hor? 我不想和你撒谎。所以一我跟你说过了我会去church可是你又一直忘记then就一直问我我去哪里。like damn what lor. 我现在每个礼拜都会去的hor. then你又会一直问我。我跟你讲了你又忘记好像不用讲这样。then你就一直问为什么我和朋友出去为什么那么迟。真的很烦你知道吗？ 我想开开心心地跟你说我去church可是我跟你说了你又不高兴。你跟我说我该怎么做呢？ 你真的和以前不一样你知道吗？以前我想买cross necklace的时候你就会买给我。then现在我还想就不可以了lor. 我不知道是不是我变成好像很胆小所以对我来说你好像变了很unreceptive towards我being Christian ah. 还是你真的是变了很unreceptive. then你有一只confuse我你知道吗。好像以前vera表姐有church wedding是。他们叫我们pray的时候你就pray. like我真的感觉到很……很……好像不知道你真正的想法啦。like你是不是accept being Christian还是你是like just go with the flow 而已？ 你可以给我一个比较clear的答案吗？我是不是每个礼拜都要跟你说我去church呢？ 对我来说是真的很难跟你们讲啦。因为我也不知道啦可是可能我不知道怎么跟你们说。因为从小我都好像不不会和你们share我的personal life then现在我要去church then chuch end so late then你问我为什么这样迟回来then我真的不知道怎么跟你们说lor. like ...
태어나서 처음으로
right. i guess i might not have mentioned this before (or i could've like a really long time ago like in 2011 or something so like yeah lemme just say it again. so the thing is, to everyone i meet, i tell them i'm Christian. but in actual fact, i've never actually been to church for well, like service and stuff on a normal day. i've never been in a cell group, didn't understand the meaning of a cell group and everything. i've been to church for all those Good Friday things and ofc my primary school had all those worship sessions and everything but yeah i've never really just been to a church for service and everything. so like i met this friend in shop (school house on prayer, something like this gathering of Christians in vjc for us to have like worship or smth i guess every monday), klarisse, and like yeah told her abt it and she invited me to her church, fcbc! (: and it's rly such a great experience for me honestly. like i was supposed to go last wee...
Salicylic acid on raw skin
It's like a numbing, pulsating and spreading pain. Im hoping it works this time. Please do. And it's intensifying lol
What am i even doing. What was i even doing in gp. wah all the vixx songs are playing is my phone trying to cheer me up lol. How does one gp. How does one aq. How does one jc. How does one life. Why is it always monday. Why is it always like that. Actually now that i think about it, why is it only now? Only recently? Only this year? What does jc do to you sia. See you unaccepted into any sch next year hahhhhahahaha It's not good to cry on public transport. Thankfully the feeling left. Stupid wart is also freaking annoying. And pain. Is it bad that i actually like it when my wart hurts when i pick at it and when i put salicylic acid on it? Cos it's like at least hopefully maybe something is working? Did you know my skin was white hahaha it was damn cool. But it's pain when i touch it so that's not cool. And i couldnt pick at my wart. Haiz. When was the last time i went home when the sun is still up? I need to do work but i dont even know what im doing? Did math just n...
Sorry, random thoughts again but i was just thinking like... yknow how when we're young we all have this toy or smth that's usually called chouchou or smth? I was thinking like... my bro is 20 alr and he still has his. Then it hits me my bro is 20. I mean i rmb him being 10 like whaaat???? And then like...... i mean..... im 17 but tbh i dont feel like im 17 at all... like idk... i guess in my mind im rly still a kid? Woild it be bad if i told u im crying hahahhaa
Random thoughts
This is really random but i was just thinking. Yknow how now ppl my age are always gg to like scape, ion, 313, bugis+, jem and stuff like that? I was just wondering what it'd be like when we all grow up? Like when we all become adults and like yknow... when it's weird to see grown ppl at places like scape cos yknow you dont see ppl mummy's age at scape and stuff.. So yeah i guess i was just thinking abt it. I was thinking abt how mummy and daddy meet up w their friends and it's usually like at foodcourts and stuff. Will we end up like that too? Meeting at foodcourts cos everywhere else is too "young" for us? Or gg to each other's houses? Or will these places we frequent age with us? Daddy did say that katong shopping centre used to be super busy during his time and he'd always go there but now barely anyone is there. Will scape and all these places be like that too? Like next time the ppl u see there will be all old ppl? And like... yknow how teens lik...
April Fools'
hey first post of april!!! so yeah today's april fools! and like uh so yeah me and marcus kindda planned to like prank everyone into thinking we were tgt but guess who failed like during the whole day at sch ._. sharmaine tried to prank me too but what she said was like damn impossible so i was like whaaaat. and poor clara got pranked so many times and w the same thing abt her skirt being unbuckled smore HAHAHHAHAHHA and then our bio lecturer pranked us too HAHAHAHHAHA she's so funny!!! like she just suddenly went "yall know yall are gonna have a test after the long weekend right" and we were all like WHAT. and she went 'happy april fools' .... hahhahahha xD anyways so then after sch met up w marcus to go eat llaollao cos the girl hasn't eaten it before hahhahah. and like omg at the concourse table ms sharon walked pass and she rly scares me a lot???? and like yeah i kindda heard her gg "this two uh" or smth cos she saw us lol. we ended up decidi...