Frustratingly Mediocre

Wah today has been such an amazing day for me la hahahha >< so firstly i got up pretty reasonably early? yyayyyy hehehe >< and then i was able to read and stuff and then i went to school to consult mr tan cos my math skillzxc be nonexistent HAHA but yeah i went a little early and bought myself an avocado milkshake and ba chor mee for lunch! wah kit saw me and lent me his parallel pen that he recently bought cos i kindda shared my love for callig w him and i guess he's a tad bit interested? hahha >< it was such an amazing experience tho! i've never written w a parallel pen before and i barely tried writing any gothic words so it was such an eye-opening experience to get used to the feel of a parallel pen and hm, i may end up getting myself those parallel callig markers in the future xP then it was consulting mr tan. i guess it went pretty ohkay? idk man hahah he just told me to do my work more and stuff and like i had a lot of things prepared for him so i clear...

hahahhhahahha geddit geddit pointe???? omg i'm so lame help me anyway today marks the first day i ever danced in demi pointe! and holy hell can i just say that it sucks )))): when i was a kid i used to look at all those pointe shoes with pretty ribbons and i really wanted them too. but now that i actually have pointe and demi pointe shoes i'm just a lazy ass to tie the ribbons and would rather just use elastics HAHHAHA but really though ^^;; anyway for rad, once youre in interfound and up, u have to use demi pointe shoes for exam. we just got ours last week and started trying them out this week. and omg. srsly why was demi pointe even invented?!?!?!?!??! :< i've read in places where people said demi pointe is kindda like the mini transition to pointe. but hello i got my pointe shoes way before i got my demi pointe shoes. and lemme tellya. IT'S NOTHING ALIKE. unless you count the hurting your feet part lol. like legit i would much rather do pointe than dance in demi p...

maybe it's my fault for wanting to only watch teen titans at home. maybe i'm just being insensitive that after my own grandmother passed away, i don't feel anything. but can i really be blamed? i never knew her. she had 45 grandchildren. i barely ever spoke to her. did she even know my name? did she even know how i look like? chances are? no. i never knew her. i barely ever talked to her. and now i'm made to stay until 12 in the hot crowded house just to pacify my mother? just because they have to follow some traditions crap that i don't believe in? i have to listen to my mum berating me for not sleeping early yet here she is keeping me past midnight in this house? idk. i guess i'm being unreasonable and angry rn. Lord please calm my heart down and let me not be angry. let me be understanding and let me be sensitive to put up with my mother's wants right now since this is her mother after all. Lord please give me Your heart and Your patience to deal with oth...

lmao soz for the lame title HAHHA idk what to name it and it's close to 3am ^^;; this post is mainly gonna be about me teaching pea callig but i just wanted to start off a little with today first. so i woke up super duper crazily late today (like lunchtime kind of late) and like idk today been such an unproductive day for me and it did make me feel quite down and stressed for a bit but oh wells yknow what? no point dwelling on the time ive wasted. instead i'll work even harder tomorrow (: today's pea's birthday!!! (or rather yesterday HAHA) and for her birthday me and eyjj decided to give her a cardigan, a pair of shorts and two brush pens! the cardigan because she kept saying that she wanted those really cool grey cardigans and the shorts because she was complaining about how her short were green and were difficult to match and the brush pens because she's been having some interest in callig lately and what better way to encourage a budding calligrapher by getting ...

alright so this happened on saturday but i procrastinated a little ^^;; (Some long self-reflection thingy read at your own risk)  So today in church, my cell sister wasn't feeling well so she was sitting down for worship. Just before worship started, my cell leader who was sitting next to me whispered, "during worship pray for (my cell sister) ohkay?" And to give a background I've only been in church for a year and a half so I'm like super unconfident about praying for people. Like it stresses me out ^^;; But my cell leader was really encouraging and telling me to do it. "Let the Holy Spirit speak through you." Or something along those lines.   I knew I had to agree, so I did. And in my mind this really whimsical thought came out. Like I just told God, I'll pray for her when a song I like plays. I spent the first song being quite anxious, but when the second song played, it just felt like God telling me "ohkay, I've done my part. Now do your...

sorry if i sound rly angry in the previous post. i guess i sort of am and i'm trying to control it. cos not sppd to be angry haha. well it's an improvement from when i used to curse and swear and everything haha. but srsly tho. what i said is true. i literally felt like i was talking to  a WALL

you ask me why can't i have patience and wait i ask you why can't you actually listen to me when i talk to u. cos you're the only one that knows how to operate this godforsaken printer and u can't be bothered to give two shits about me because apparently one piece is more impt

remember this  post where i was ranting and raving (no pun intended) about teen titans? and i dont think ive said it but recently ive gotten damn into teen titans?!?!!?! Like holy hell in 3 days ive watched 22 eps?!!!??! In 2 days i watched 17 holy hell. Wait i watched so many ytd meh. Huh confusion hahaha i know i watched 9 eps in one day ^^;; but so ya bottom line is ive gotten damn into teen titans maybe because i feel so damn attatched to raven!!!! D: and like the season focussing on her is season 4 so i have to wait cos im just abt to finsh season 2??? >< and like idk sia hahaha idk what im gonna do when i finish all 5 seasons sia hahaha >< and like it's alr confirmed that there wont be a season 6 and like im getting quite attatched to it so like idk whether i shld drag out watching the show or i shld just finish the show asap hahaha >< imma read the ttg comics tho but ttg the cartoon is honestly not that appealing to me :\ haha i decided to read down a littl...

(i know i said i'll sleep in my previous post but hey i just really wanted to get this up hahah it's a short one. hopefully) so yknow how yesterday was a bad day for me?  yeah. but i always rmb this verse:  "give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." - 1 Thessalonians 5:18 it's the first memory verse i ever read when i first got Living Life back in october and i guess it just stuck with me hahahha >< but yeah whenever i feel really down i get reminded of this verse that like no matter how bad the day is there's always something to thank God for. and for me, the biggest thing to always thank God for is for another day on this earth. that's why most, if not all, of my prayers start of with "thank You for giving us this day" because i really am (:  anyway, so yesterday we didn't know what ward xinhui was in. and we had to go to this counter to search. it was quite rigorous cos i think they were r...

Last year, we had Po10tial.  This year, we're on Cloud9! On Friday, VJART had our annual art exhibition!!! It was cloud9 for the j2s and co11age for the j1s ^^ and it was a really interesting and eye-opening experience for me (: so firstly we've been planning this for quite a long time now and it took quite sometime to decide on the name. it was initially ninefold but then i guess we didn't really like it? so then i think ys suggested the change to cloud9 and all of us loved it xD in case you didn't realise, the reason why it's called cloud9 is because there's 9 of us. it was po10tial last year because there were 10 of us before steven left ): speaking of which we were supposed to skype call him to show him our works but clearly everyone forgot HAHAHA in my defence i was not notified abt it ^^;; i was wondering why they suddenly sent his skype into the chat grp. a very side note but the juniors damn copy lor cos they got 11 ppl so that's why they called it c...

Sigh. Nothing's gg my way today. At all. First wanted to visit xinhui at sgh at 2 then go for church. Woke up so freaking late said nvm we go arnd 3 or 4. Then it turns out sgh has such strict visiting hrs only 12-2 or 5-8.30 then like by that time i found out i alr board the train cos guess which idiot's phone cant ring for nuts and for some reason hasnt been vibrating like a normal phone either despite being put on mute. Secondly had that etude hse life is sweet thing and then didnt check time properly couldnt go for the one i signed up for. So i fb msg them then i didnt realise my phone not connected to fb then i didnt realise that they replied said i could go for the 2 oclock one today. So anyway too late alr la wth 2 oclock i was still at home. Sigh. Thirdly idk la guess i kindda put marcus in a bad mood ytd and idk what to do now. My mum still wants to visit xinhui say we wait until 5 then go in since we were alr on the train. Idk what time we will finish and whether can ...

A photo posted by Hope Siow (@leexian3) on Oct 7, 2016 at 8:45am PDT (Bloody long novel up ahead. Brace yourself). — Well, there it is. The last time I'll wear a school uniform (excluding A's). JC... Has really taught me a lot of things and changed my life quite drastically. I remember adamantly telling everyone that I won't go to VJC when I was in TK for whatever reason and look where I am now - couldn't have chosen a better school to be in. — Yes, there was unhappiness and there were regrets. But let's not let them rule over the fun we had with our friends and this time of self-discovery. — I learnt a lot about myself and tried many new things, especially with challenging myself to take art for A's. It's scary how closely bonded the art class is; maybe it's from all those sleepless nights and all the literal blood, sweat and tears. — There are so many things I could've done in the two years I've been in JC but yknow what? I wouldn't trad...