Frustratingly Mediocre

Ive been waiting for more than two hours already. No offence. but it's really chaotic and it somehow seems kindda not-well-planned: \ everything's everywhere and idek what's gg on rn.... their mics arent working so i can't hear them  just now, i have a feeling more than 60% of us have absolutely no idea what's gg on.... TO Add on, eyjj's sick so she couldnt join us sigh. we were really lookin forward to this!!!! PEa has resorted to 2048 and here i qm bloggin and ill prolly b reading my fanfics later..   If everything's gonna be so messy for the next 14½ hours,,, im getting kindda worried this aint worth joining. What good experience can i get from it man Are we even gonna have dinner at this rate? NO one's over here to direct us and we have absolutely no clue what to do sigh. Hope everything will be fineeeeee im boredddddd Hope™

ohkay i'm really damn pissed now and i'm sorry if i'm being rude to my parents but hear me out ohkay so i'm having my period now and i've been having crazy cramps. like to the extent that i can barely even move. it's gotten a little  better, but it's still really pain and i have nausea now. i was having diarrhea just now so today is really a shit day no pun intended. at first mum said to use a hotpack. but guess what? my house doesn't have a fucking hotpack. not in the freezer not in the cupboard not anywhere. ohkay fine whatever. we no hotpack bopian. then i asked mummy if she could help me go buy the panadol for cramps. i asked her that at 12 mind you. and then she was like aiyo, ohkay la, i go buy u pain until liddat. and guess fucking what. it's fucking 1:18 and both of them have vapourised. i mean what the fuck. she completely didn't even do anything after i told her that lor. just sat down there. told daddy to follow her and didn't even...

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yeah so dad just called just now asking if he needed to get me dinner. and then after that he was like "we need to have a talk tonight" of course, today was tpc so i didn't go to sch because i hate that place. anyways, they had to meet miss yeo and i 10000000000000000000000000000% alr knew it that she was gonna talk to my parents about me being booked cos she's been talking to me about that so lolololol i told kor about it last week and he was like "lol. you get good marks i tell you they won't care about you anymore" then i told what he said to eyjj and she was like "yep. get straight As and poof! your records are gone!" i really think this is kindda true tbh aside from the very very few teachers in school that actually care, i think most just want us to do well. i've heard from people (aka teachers) before that teachers actually get bonuses when their students do well. sooooo??? see the link here? yes, no matter how much schools try to em...

OMG GUYS OHKAY SO I JUST WATCHED ETERNITY MV AT MY NEIGHBOUR'S HOUSE WAITED SO LONG FOR IT OMG BUT APPARENTLY I ACCIDENTALLY WATCHED THE LEAKED VERSION??? OMG I'M SO SORRY BOYS!!! I DIDN'T KNOW!!! I KNEW IT WASN'T ON THE REALVIXX CHANNEL BUT I THOUGHT THAT OTHER MV WAS FROM THE OTHER WEBSITES WHERE IT WAS RELEASED AND EVERYTHING I'M SO SORRY!!! DDDDDDDD; SO DOWNLOADING THE MV ONCE IT COMES OUT APPARENTLY I HAVE TO WAIT 'TIL 12 NOW ROVIX YOU HAD ONE JOB TO DO JUST ONE OMGGG THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'M WATCHING LEAKED CONTENT WHAT THE SHIT VIXX WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME OMG I'M SO SORRY KAY DDDDDDD; SORRY SORRY SORRY I THINK NO MATTER HOW MANY TIMES I SAY SORRY I WILL STILL NOT BE ABLE TO SAY IT ENOUGH SORRY FOR BEING IMPATIENT PLEASE FORGIVE ME D; THE FIRST TIME I PREORDER AN ALBUM IS ETERNITY THE FIRST TIME I ACTUALLY ORDER AN ALBUM MYSELF IS ETERNITY THE FIRST TIME I WATCHED A LEAKED MV IS ETERNITY VIXX WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME GOING ON TUMBLR NOW HHAAHHA...

It's SHINee's debut day!!! it's been six years... six long years of.. well, many many many things. i  wasn't with there from the beginning, definitely not. i was there only in their third year. but even so, i don't think i celebrated their 4th year very well? i joined after their third anni. it feels as if it was yesterday that they held their 5th anniversary showcase (?) or something, and that i was looking at all those pictures posted on twitter. and now, here i am a year later on tumblr queuing posts cos i have a month-old celebration to go to tmr so i probably won't be able to go on tumblr much. i'm sorry that recently, i haven't been paying much attention to SHINee, i still love them, and they're still my favourite band and when they have a comeback i'll support them and i'll get their album. but recently they seem to be sharing the 'favourite band' spot with VIXX. even i'm starting to get confused by myself. i can't tell...

more VIXX stuff from today, even though i'm supposed to be blogging about SHINee now (: will blog about SHINee!! queued my posts on tumblr cos i'm out for the whole day or so tmr so.... guys i made this!!! hahaha xD kindda used a gif maker to take it from the vid but still >< VIXX'S TYPES OF LOVE superhero:  lemme take u on dates all over the world love  rock ur body:  video game metaphor love (idk how to summarize)  on and on:  sadomasochistic(?) love  hyde:  stay away from me i'm dangerous but i still love u or do i love  g.r.8.u:  crazy in love with u  voodoo doll:  let me protect u love  eternity:  ??? love  i wonder what kind of love eternity will bring to us credit ohkay so i realised that i don't have that much to post about whoops >< but yeah, today was a great day (: i listened to so so so many vixx songs, and rewatched beatles code 3d and eunhee counseling clinic! (: ballet was fun too ^~^ Instea...

when they played the instrumental of Superhero as each member was saying their message :')  time really flies. i can't believe it's already been two years! it's been two years. two. whole. years. i wasn't there to watch them in mydol, nor was i there to watch their debut, nor was i there to watch their first comeback. but, i'm happy that i'll be here to watch the rest. (: from when they were still trainees in Jellyfish Ent. to when they were selected to debut to now..... so many things have happened, both good and bad. i'm just. i have so many feelings now idek how to explain and everything. VIXX is such a big group of idiots and are so lovable, yet we know that they work so hard and there're probably sides to them that they've never showed us. we have a rough idea how hard trainee life can be, and how insane the waiting game to debut can be. their lives are definitely not a walk in the park and there must've been so many difficult times for ...

ohkay so cos there was detention today, i wore pe to sch and got caught for it and kena scolded. so all those that were wearing pe were called out of the hall to get scolded by the teacher. since he's a chinese teacher and chinese surnames are so ubiquitous, i'll just say his surname. he's mr. koh. don't get my wrong, even though i've never been taught by him, he seems like a really really friendly and nice teacher, but knows when to be serious and can become scary when serious. but what annoyed me the most was his insensitivity and how unreasonable he was. i usually don't get annoyed because who are you to stay on my mind for so long. but what he said really... it made me pity those students that aren't as lucky as i am and probably are constantly short of cash for their daily needs. you never know, cos a financially-challenged individual would not go around the school yelling that "I HAVE NO POCKET MONEY TODAY" "I HAVEN'T HAD POCKET MONE...

So im sittng on top of a toilet now, not because i need to use it but cos i want to use my phone xD SO apparently detention is just cleaning up the classroom which is pretty useless????? COs the classroom is barely used and it's really so clean i think i finished in 40mins or so. WE Cant use our phones, so im sitting here now to use it xD idek where mdm khoo is so im just waiting for her to check up on us?? HAHa. Whee 55 mins only!  Bye gonna go read fics and everything ^~^ maybe rewatch VIXX's teaser for the 130593759838202000673rd time cos it's amazing?????? The dance looks freaking amazing! ANd the song sound great! THe boys look damn hot and the mv looks so interesting i cant wait for next tues. yoU might think that im really calm but i kindda spazzed my heart out during recess xD Thank God this toilet doesnt stink ^~^ Hope™

Hm, was kindda surprised at my parents' reactions after learning that i had detention. I was expecting them to flip tables and go bonkers and yell at me and everythig but they were so chill?????? THEy were just like oh, ohkay . Lol my daughter got detention. something like that hahhaha I think they were quite annoyed at the fact that i got booked for the same thing again tho... but meh....mum was like "what will i say on tpc?" And i just replied "my tchr will cfm say a lot abt me being booked. jusT SAY that ive been reading a lot of books lately lol" Like seriously i dont get the booking system???? Actually it's funny how im totally not scared of the booking system at all, and it's ironic how i was a prefect in pri sch Truth be told, i have absolutely no idea why i feel so indifferent about the school and how i probably wouldnt bat an eyelash if it was up in flames or if the land opened up and swallowed it. The only thing id prolly be thinking would be: ...

GUys!  I got back my amath results today! AND guess what? im one mark away from b4 wtaf ._. I knew it. I knew luck wouldnt be on my side and i would be a mark away. it's always like that it"s always been like that it's not wven suprising anymore. anNOYIng yes but surprising no. KARen tried to get me to go to fullerton for starbucks but that's like so far away??????????? Fucking hell got a starbucks here you dont want. APPARENTLy cos "ambience is nice" even tried to bribe me by treating me to it but really la... im tired and i have piano and i dont have much of a mood so nvm la. Cant wait for Eternity to be out!!!!! ^~^ SHINee's having a japanese um... comeback (?) TOo! ANd shawolstarlights celebrate two consecutive debut days [; Hope™

ASSA!!! i've ordered from k-wavehouse already!! XDDD it was $13 (: meant to order from like kpop town or yesasia or kpopmart or something cos it was cheaper, but then i forgot that it was based in us or something so there were shipping fees and the shipping fees were like the same price as the product omg???? hahahha, so i decided that k-wavehouse was the best cos it was the cheapest and it is also based in sg! and also my friend has ordered from them before so i'm quite sure they're trustable. daddy and mummy seemed skeptical though, but i know that they're just being careful (: apparently miss yeo didn't call them about my detention? hm,,, would've thought that she'd call once she gets the chance cos she seems like someone who's really on and will do everything immediately. i will tell them that i have detention tmr, but i think miss yeo would call them alr. so let's just hope they don't have my head. in a way, i kindda feel bad that i haven...

Yknow now that i think about it, i think my parents alr know about me getting detention cos yknow i think my school has their numbers on speed dial and they kindda call them for everything? Even if they dont let me buy, ill be getting $25 at the end of the month so... i can still get it myself??? JUSt need to finally get my bank acc and card so that i can order it myself. Or borrow from my parents first. COS this is legit the money i earned myself! it was supposed to be cip but they decided to give us money too soooo ohkay....? MAYBE i should get myself a job. Hope™

Guess which girl just got 2 pink slips (detention), 3 yellow slips (3rd time offence) and prolly 4 green slips (1st & 2nd time offence)? XD I felt like i was doing a fansign HAHA. Sw theyall oso were laughinf like crazy cos miss yeo was passing me so many booking slips it was really funny. But omg do idols really feel like that in fansigns???? hahaaha. except that one i had to keep writing my name, the date and the offence i made hahaahaha. there're like so many! For everything too! And all by the same person HAHA Im hoping that i get to do gardening or paper mache in detention!!! I saw this tchr making it and it looks so cool!!! ANd also mrs thong said before that he used to make detention girls do it. hahhaa. EVEN washing tables are fine! My arms are damn flabby i need some training but i always like got nothing to motivate me to train hahaaha The only thing that im worried about now is the preorder for eternity. IM planning to ask daddy about i so it can be my birthday prese...

GUYS WAIT HOLD UP credit APPARENTLY VIXX'S COMEBACK IS ON MY BIRTHDAY!??!!!?!??! HOLY SHIT WHAT SO THEIR ALBUM IS RELEASED ON 27TH MAY BUT THEIR COMEBACK IS ON MY BIRTHDAY??!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!??!!? OMG SO IS THIS THEIR BIRTHDAY PRESENT TO ME?? HAHAHHA JKJKJK XDDDD WAH THANKS ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ REALLY HOPE I CAN GET THIS ALBUM!!! I HOPE TO PERSUADE DADDY TO LET ME PREORDER THE ALBUM FOR MY BIRTHDAY!! ^~^ credit so apparently hakyeon posted two videos on the fancafe (i'm planning to join yeah? hahahaha) and this is a screen cap of one of them i knew since ytd but i forgot to mention it just now whoops >< but anyways, do you see the book??? he wrote "6월(June)" beside the 3. and above the 3 is "일(day)". so is this a hint???? ^^ but then he was like " i just wanted to say hi. no assumptions allowed ^^ "  hahhahahha xD i actually didn't spot it at first since this video is really short, i've watched it many times. but they were all on my phone. so ...

just something random ^^ but omg i always knew that XXIV was 2014 but i just never made the connection of this and their debut date o.o just being random, but it should've been 24 June cos got six members HAHA JKJK which reminds me.................................................. VIXX'S DEBUT ANNIVERSARY IS IN 6 DAYS. THEY'RE TURNING 2. SHINee'S DEBUT ANNIVERSARY IS IN 7 DAYS. THEY'RE TURNING 6.  my two favourite bands...  ohkay bye~ Hope™

VIXX IS HAVING A COMEBACK!!!!!!!!!!! omg guys guys guys guys guys!!!!!! VIXX IS HAVING A COMEBACK OMG I CANNOT BE CALMED GUYS HOLY SHIT IT'S ON THE 27TH OF MAY AND THE ALBUM IS CALLED ETERNITY IN ENGLISH AND MIRACLE (기적) IN KOREAN HOLY SHIT OMG.  ZE DETAILS OF ZE ALBUM OMG AND THEIR FIRST SOLO CONCERT HOLY NUTS unfortunately i think it's only in Korea??? idk hahaha but omg please come to Singapore!! although please don't come during my O's ^^;; come after my O's, ohkay? xD  so anyways, i go on tumblr and this is the first thing i see: MR. CHA'S TWITTER UPDATE: 기적같은 만남.723일째..반갑고 반갑습니다! A miracle-like meeting. 723th day. I feel honoured to meet you. NO. THAT PICTURE. NO :< shit he looks damn good like that eh omg  i saw it and i was just like.......... idek have words to explain it.  is he in some hotel? ehehehe hotel king ehehehe he looks tired tho.. those eyebags o.o anywaysssss.... credits  YES ❥❤♡♥❦ <<it's been long since i've spammed and pl...

IDk if anyone feels like this too, (although i kindda think many people do) but when i receive messages like these, i really feel very happy (: Like idk!! 느낌이 너무 좋아요!!! I feel happy!!! Like.... HEh... idk how to explain but you get me right??? ^~^ I think i might have a slight fever so imma sleep soon. Bbaaaiiii ~~ Hope™

is this a joke have y'all been watching too much hotel king? huh? trying to create some sort of drama like it? i'm seriously so confused right now. this is reminding me so much about hotel king. because why? don't trust anyone is there even a person that we can trust now? first we think that we can believe them but then no, their phones are controlled by the staff. then we think that they're just rumours but no. apparently the court has confirmed it. then after that there're just so many things and everything like really who can we trust who can we believe or is everything just a lie? is you don't know what i'm talking about, it's about kris leaving exo. i'm not sure how true is this and i'm not sure who to trust. but the whole fandom's in chaos now and i'm confused as fuck. even non-kpoppers know about it. aka eyjj. aka pea. though pea doesn't really count. if you don't know, go google about it. anyways here are some pics that i ...

from cats to children to dogs. there was so much adorableness yesterday. firstly: cats i went over to lxbj's hse and her cats were there. her cats are so cute and so acquainted with living with humans. they don't mind being carried by me, they hide in the wardrobes it's cute. it's fun to play with them and pet them. secondly: children went to gandie's hse yesterday for andrew's 1st month celebration. played with calson, who is growing well (not to mention heavy lol). carried him around and he's really ohkay w anyone carrying him omg. now my hands ache from carrying him haha. but it's ohkay because he's so cute and i don't mind carrying children. then there was guixiang but i didn't really play/talk to him then there was obviously the star of the show, andrew, who was really cute and it was kindda funny cos he was always about to cry but then when i shook the thingy he was lying on a little, he stopped crying alr. he's such a tiny baby. ba...

haha ohkay the title's kindda rubbish. it just came to my mind when i wanted to write this blog post omg my internet is annoying the heck outta me now ohkay. idek why, but everytime yt plays in bg, IT'S SO FREAKING LAGGY I CANNOT. if i watch the video it's perfectly fine but the moment i open blogger or tumblr or really just anything, it just becomes so laggy alr. i've googled before and most say it has to do w the flash and i've alr disabled the flash and everything and it's not working. dad's oso having probs too i think it's my internet... AGAIN. like what is not lor pls. ever since i got it idk how many years ago it's been giving quite the bit of probs. to add on to that, aff doesn't seem to be working!!!! maybe there was some maintenance going on or something but i think they would've/should've told us first? cos i think everyone's affected by it? it's on twitter la haha. would check tumblr but. lazy :P ohkay so i will go fir...

omg omg omg omg omfg omfg omfg omfg ohkay so i told dad to print out some pix that my mum took like of the scenery cos i wanted to make a photo collage and give it to her for mothers' day but guess what? HE PRINTED THE DOUBLE SIDED ON THE SAME FREAKING PIECE OF PAPER  like wtaf. ohkay fine whatever i never said anything so fine. so next time i have to give CLEAR AND CONCISE instructions like when we do bio spa. step 1: download and open up the attachment. step 2: click print, and make sure that the sizes of the slides (or whatever medium it may have been saved in) are at 100%, nothing more nothing less. step 3: ensure that the printing options are on SINGLE AND INDIVIDUAL sheets and not double-sided. step 4: collect printed material from printer. step 5: place printed material in folder in bag to be brought back home. step 6: pass it to me (Lee Xian). do i really have to write it like that? cos if i have to i will. fine whatever this time miscommunication what the fuck how am i fuc...

SO IVE Kenaed RAin the Past Three Days WhiLe Gg HOME alr. i meant to post a pic like two days ago when it was like some freakin typhoon, but guess what? blogger on my phone aint working w me and i think that photo is gone forever whoop Ytd was normal rain, and currently it's a drizzle now... so im really really really hoping it doesnt escalate to a freaking monsoon. HAD math today! IT was ....... well...... i didnt know a few questions, but some i knew and others i at first didnt know but then later i found our the answer! had enough tune, thankfully. MY cover page dropped all the way to sophy's table but the teacher wasnt payin attnetion when i was tryng to call her so i just waited until she found out about it. she did in the end, and passed i to sophy and sophy was like "its's lee xian's " lolx. ALso, i was so not used to leavin two lines between all my part questions that i actualy forgot at first!! sO HENG i realised it at the first question so i just red...

so guys, i have geog paper later, but it's at 11:30 so now i'm still at home. i woke up at 8 because i just wanted to wake up early and see if i can study but i think i'll either do that on the bus or.. something la hahahahaha xD i'm not really confident for geog paper, cos i havent done plate tect in a long time and also the gi questions.. um... o.o tourism gi might be ohkay but coast gi??? maybe not >< hope for the best la~ and i'll be really happy after today cos i won't have to study anymore!!! all i have to do is just practice paper practice paper practice paper cos the rest will be math x) well, good luck to everyone taking their exams! (: Hope™