Frustratingly Mediocre

here is Hope the Great, it's time to celebrate! LOL XD anyways yeah. as you can see from the title, it's raining cats and dogs now... and fish. and frogs. and crabs. and rabbits. you get the point haha so yeah. supposed to go for ballet but um, when it rain until like that you tell me how to go? ._. and one really cool thing was cos i was dragging my bowling bag (obviously since i have training) and it rained and i couldn't cover it, so it was like drenched on the outside. but when i opened it, guess what? IT'S COMPLETELY DRY ON THE INSIDE :O like omg. i think it's designed like that cos bowling shoes cant get wet.. haha. ohkay bye~ xoxo Hope™

Haha it's 6:35 now... Like I'm waiting for the Mrt train. And just now something kindda embarrassing happened > Ohkay so in the bus, it was fucking crowded and I really had to leave. So I was kindda blocked, and couldn't go out. And the bus driver actually closed the door le. And cos I'm rushing, I just blindly shouted out "uncle!" to like tell the diver to ago the bus. Haha Haha then guess what? It turned out to be a lady > xoxo Hope™ Ps. Kindda wish that people would stop pushing me in the Mrt rn :\

FROM AH BOYS, TO MEN, SERVING TWO YEARRRSSSSSS. FOR OUR NATION, OUR COUNTRY, WITH BLOOD SWEAT AND TEARRSSSSSS haha i hope i got it correct xP anyways, went for abtm2 w celine and cammie :D and i called celine L.C. cos it's like an inside joke :P and it sounds like elsie too! xP we like gave that as her middle name. celine elsie lim :P we were discussing what to eat in the bus, and celine actually wanted to go to eat at ajisen, but then cammie couldn't eat it cos it wasn't halal ): then we in the end decided on long john silvers haha. and did you know gv change the tickets alr? it's like paper now! :O it used to be cardboard-ish. or construction paper-ish o.O hehe. got a discount cos i'm a safra member ^~^ the movie was great HEHE. not gonna give spoilers, but i cried. both from laughter and sadness :\ like there was one part i laughed until i cried xD oh, and i was telling celine and cammie to shut up cos it was their second time watching the movie :P then there was...

YAYYY~! WENT TO USS AGAIN YESTERDAY!! :DDD woke up like pretty late yesterday.. since we werent really in a rush to go uss or anything keke. then went to idk where for my brother to get a blood test or something. then after that went for lunch/breakfast hehe. bak kut teh~~~ :DDD but the soup was cold ): and then my mum and dad ordered ba chor mee and it took like freaking forever omg. xP then after that we went to sentosa. reached at like 1...? then from there we had lunch. like really? i just ate ._. ate at an italian restaurant. had a GIGANTIC pizza. like the whole family share. i didnt take pic though ): but i did take a pic of the dessert! (: HOW CUTE IS THIS OMG hehe isn't it cuteeeee? ^~^ except oscar has a smile on his face and not a frown lol. i ate the cheesecake :3 oh yeah, and my nephew was being so traumatised cos he was scared of the 'revenge of the mummy' ride xP then after that we went to play like mild games i think...? cos we just ate. i think we went for t...

.... I am so fucking screwed for geog. Like yeah, I've studied. Just finished studying btw. But there's a shitload to memorise and I really scared I forget something Ohkay. Shall restudy again tomorrow. Keke. Like before school (: you can do it leexian (: hehe. And I know i can do it cos God will help me (:

안녕하세요! 너 아라 나 왜 .... nevermind back to English haha. i'm sure that sentence made like no sense. anyways, i just wanted to say that i realised something - sometimes i burst out in korean. haha. like really. there was once where i was helping my grandma with something, and when she tried to take something that she shouldn't i unintentionally went 아! 안니! 안니! 안니! haha xD and then today.. when i didn't know what class to go for VIA, i was like telling alisa (or not really, i was more like talking to myself) 아! 몰라써! 진짜 몰라써! ㅋㅋ :P like yeah. i dont even know why i did that. lolx. and idk if the writing is correct. my korean ain't good yeah. and then i was teaching ravipha some korean. like i would give her a word and she'd have to tell me what it meant. it's quite fun actually, but my korean's not really good so i can't really teach her anything. i think my korean standard might be like chen and xiumin's chinese standard. MIGHT. like their chinese standard ...

'sup i'm watching uhhh... Idk what the show is called but it's the 9 o'clock show HAHA. Anyways, I just wanna voice out that I can't stand it when scriptwriters add Korean into Chinese shows omg. Oh! The show is calle Jin Ji tian shi I think haha cD it just started. like this show makes a calefare call this main character 'ajeosshi' or imo it's supposed to be spelt 'ahjussgi' since it's written as '아주씨' and not '아저씨' in hangul. But that's what I think hhaa. Cos I'm not Korean. But I'm pretty sure it's written like that (: And then there was a radio show that I watch, that's like tv for the blind. WAH SHIT. That one used so much Korean Ohkay. And in an awkward way s'more. Cos it was supposed to be like one of the main characters is part Korean, so she speaks a lot of Korean. I remember this is how one of the sentence went: 아빠! Xx 的아빠...m and I was like wtf. Haha :p I'm serious it sounds so weird Ohka...

HOLY SHIT GUYS IT'S OUT IT'S FINALLY OUT OMGGGG THE SECOND COMEBACK I'VE WAITED FORRRR!!! :DDDDD OMG THIS IS SO NAISE OMGOMG AND TAEMIN BEING A CUTIE XD some parts of him are quite unglam haha xP OMGOMGOMGOMG THE MIC STANDS SHIT HOW DO THEY EVEN DO THAT OMGOMGOMG I CAN'T DESCRIBE MY FEELS NOW IT'S JUST FLYING ALL OVER THE PLACE OMGOMGOMGOMG I BET THAT D.O. GIF WOULD COME IN SO HANDY NOW COS I'M SPAZZING LIKE SHIT RIGHT NOW AND I'M PRETTY SURE I LOOK LIKE D.O. LOL. hahahahhaha xD i may seem calm on the outside right now, but i'm spazzing like fuck inside :P omg i really can't believe ittttt!! the mic stands are so freaking cool ohkay! although they kindda remind me of nobody cos y'know, wondergirls danced with it too. but hey! no offence, but SHINee'S IS WAYYYYY BETTER :DDDDD OMGOMGOMG THEY WAY THEY DANCE WITH IT HOW DO THEY DO IT OMG. XD heheheh i hope Taeminnie doesn't destroy more mics when performing this xD and now we know that they c...

on 14th february what day is it????? no, it's not thursday.. IT'S VALENTINE'S DAYYYY!!! :DDDD haha xD went to school pretty early. and then there was a sweet on every table, from karen. haha. then i was tired so i fell asleep :P and when i woke up, it was yiwen trying to wake me up cos she wanted to give me her chocolate. haha. but then i still pretended to be asleep cos i was tired :\ haha but then when i actually woke up, WOAH there were alot of chocolates and sweets on my table :O then after that everyone was like giving the presents and everything, and i kindda felt bad that i didnt give them anything so i used my SHINee note pad and wrote a little note to everyone in class (: and signed it. like yeah. i didnt say it's me. just my signature. and apparently, with my messy signature, many people could still tell it was from me :O am i like... that obvious that i like SHINee? oh yeah, i probably am xD i even wrote to dina kays. haha and my class has this thing called s...

生日快乐！생일축하해! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!  yoz! let's cheer guys! xD today is ren ri, which is also the seventh day of cny, and it's the birthday of all humans, SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY :DDDD haha had dinner at tampines park (: the food was not bad and it was really fun (: anyways, i had ballet earlier and uncle william came cos he wanted to let us try our new character skirts, like get the size right and everything, then they can sew on the ribbons, but he ended up bringing the wrong batch or something. and i think he's a hongkonger/cantonese cos he was like going 'sorry ah,' in the hongkong accent :P  haha and when he was there, miss wah was like damn strict with us and everything o.o and the moment he left, she was like HENG AHHHH. haha xD damn funny omg xD then after that my cousin and my aunt came to my house!! (: hehe i was playing w my niece (: it was really nice~~ we played like the land battle game or something :P then after that we went down for dinner! at first it was pretty ...

hey! omg! first thing i wanna do is wish you all: 新年快乐！万事如意！身体健康！心想事成！步步高升！龙马精神！五福临门！ hehe :D anyways, so yeah. Chinese new yearrrrr!!! :D angbaos~~~~~ hehe. so we set a new record yesterday - first time leave house super late. like 1 pm :P normally we leave around 11-12 xP and so yeah. i wore my new year clothesss!! i really like them (:  my ootd for day 1~~~ ohkay i'm sorry you don't have a very pretty blogger LOL. but the shirt is nice right??? :DD i love it alot~ it's bought from harbin actually. AND THIS REMINDS ME I OWE YOU OBS AND HARBIN OMG D;  so yeah, went to my neighbour's house first (: then after that to my grandaunt and then my grandparents' (:  cutie cousin :3 sorry, i know my hair looks damn weird ): anyways, so yeah (: had a really fun time with her :D and then after that went to my other grand aunt's house (: it was really nice and the food was great :P then after that.. i think i went to my 5th aunt's house? stayed there pretty much the re...

Sorry i know this is late and it's past midnight.. but i'll wish you happy chinese new year first!! i'll see if i can blog properly tmr~ (: as well as wish Sooyoung a happy birthday (: i'm sorry it's belated though ): kindda busy today D: xoxo Hope™

Fuck you la. I wasnt fucking using my phone Ohkay. Why not next time you open your fucking eyes and see carefully that my phone was fucking beside me and I was holding on to something else that has nothing to do with a fucking phone. Dont think just because you're doing so much work now gives you the right to fucking yell shit at anyone and assume anything Ohkay. shut the fuck up and go die in a hole you ass. I would be so happy if you actually at the veges that I just washed as got food poisoning. I think I would fucking celebrate. Shut the fuck up and mind you own business. If you think other peope's children so nice want me to be like them then eh don't you fuckig go an adopt then?! Like bribe the guy with ten million dollars or some fuck. You tell me don't compare to with thee people's fathers right? THEN YOU FUCKING DONT COMPARE ME WITH OTHER PEOPLE'S CHILDREN OSO. I know you say like what you care and whatever shit but really la, you too over alr horh. Que...

Hey guys guess what? This year they're giving equal chance to all the SEC 3 students! Everyone has a chance to go to Germany! :o it's based on ur Geog/hist/ss results :o needs study damn hard >< hehe. But I really wanna go it seems fun :D xoxo Hope™

HEY GUESS WHAT GUISE? SHINee'S HAVING A COMEBACK ON 19 FEBRUARY WITH THEIR TITLE SONG DREAM GIRL! At least I hope I got it correct... Haha that's what Kakaotalk told me xD can't wait for their other teaser photos (: So far only key's is out. And even though I love him, can I just say one thing? KEY I FUCKING HATE YOUR HAIRSTYLE. Why does it have to be center parting???? D: I dislike hairstyles which show the guy's forehead and I oso hate center partings.... Hehehhehehhee ^^;; idek why either o.O just something I noticed... Like last year :p But one thing is that bap's having a comeback too... Not that I don't like bap, heck they're amazing (: and I'm starting to recognize members! Yay! But it's just that... I think there're more BABYs than Shawols... Idk... Bap has like a HIGE fanbase. Well, they did work for it... And Imma be a selfish bitch for once and say that I really want SHINee to win...... Hehe > Idk. Well, it's not the date ye...

Yo, I'm in the bus now haha . I'm like trying to blog every single  time I can..cos I really feel bad for not blogging): Urgh I wanted to sleep but my friends are making so much noise behind me.... haha . #nowplaying 1000 years ,always with you - SHINee I feel happy ^~^ Anyways ,so I brought the scores of stand up to school hehe. Like I printed it last year but I only bring it now haha. Got Karen to help me write the notes xD cos I'm a lazy girl and I suck at sight reading T.T Haha tried playing a little just now and um..... DAMN ITS HARD D: haha oso I was kindda confused :\ and the keys were not working on the piano lor..... haha. They really have to fix that piano >:( haha Sorry for the so many hahas :p ~my heart is my heart is my heart is my heart is yours~ i love this song hehehehehhehehe :D oh! Now it's playing my best friend by SNSD! ^~^ Ohkay I'm reaching le bye~! xoxo Hope™

This is the time where I think my blog title victim of conformity really applies to my life now. Like why the fuck you don't listen to my opinions at all. You just make sure I do what you say. Fuck you man. The queen's not visiting. Even if the people visit us, didn't you teach us it's rude to go into other's rooms without their permission? Are you implying that our visitors have no manners and will enter my room without even asking me? Or horrrrrrrr. You just insulted them :O Like really what the fuck Ohkay. You're like obsessed with keeping everything clean. Not even a dork of dust. I think need to send you to hospital LE. Cos you got OCD. OBSESSIVE CLEANLINESS DISORDER. Say I obsessed right? Well, guess what? You're fucking more obsessed than me Ohkay. You're freaking out over a damn speck of dust Ohkay. You're fucking obsessed with keeping the house clean. Think really need to send you go imh LE lor. I understand that you want the houseto be cle...

it's yunho and jongup's birthday.... and i'll wish them later when i type with my phone. i'm so sorry guys. i'm so sorry that i havent been blogging at all. if i were to still do what i used to do last time, which was to blog about each day one by one, i think there'd be a month's worth of unblogged days ): sec 3 now and everything's just at such a fast pace. i barely understand my maths and amath lessons. like wtf. and then with all this class shit going on and everything.. and my fucking procrastination.. i'll try my best to blog, but i'm really sorry if i dont blog much. i'm so sorry. please forgive me. i can't stand how tkg is making our recess so short. like wtf. there're so many people in the school, by the time you finish queuing for food you have to go back to class. and on friday. it's gonna by cny celebrations. while normal schools cancel the whole day's lessons and just does the cny celebrations (or give halfday), t...

Yay! It's jia and kyuhyunnie's birthday! (: hehe. Sorry for no pics again): can't really use the com these days... Like i mean I can, but when I use I use mozilla cos I don't want to open chrome since I have 88184952 tabs open and like I don't want to open chrome cos when I do that it will reopen everything and it will be so noisy cos I have a lot of YouTube tabs open :p not to mention a tab that plays music automatically so I have to always remember to off the music there it's so noisy haha. So yeah. Not gonna blog in Mozilla. Anyways, happy birthday to jia!!! (: I'll write the letter yeah? (: 亲爱的孟佳姐姐， 您还好吗？您和您的队员开心吗？一定要开开心心的哦！哈哈！我好像不知道该说什么耶•••••• 对不起啊，有时我就是这样的）：哈哈。希望您和您的队员会永远在一起，快快乐乐的，像姐妹一样~ 新年快到了，可惜你们不能和家人庆祝！但至少你们还有对方能一起庆祝。您和家人离得很远，会不会想念他们？我那逝去露营，只是五天当我第一天就想念父母了，想回家了。你们是不是也很想念家？我想像你们一样，当个KPOP歌手，但我又担心万一我一去到韩国很想念家，想回家怎么办？哈哈。我说成我已经被接受作TRAINEE了。哎，这好像是一个不能成真的梦•••••• 我唱歌不好听，跳舞也不好看•••••• 哎•••••• 好吧，不说了。是您的生日，当我为什么说这些东西呢？对不起啊•••••• 好吧，不写了，生日快乐！ Haha I'm so so...

OH CRAP. I knew it was Vic's birthday but not jia. Anyways, I forgot to blog for them her! Omg I'm so sorry! Don't hate me! D: anyways, let's make this quick cos I'm sleepy now :p And since they're both she's Chinese, I'll write my letter to them her in Chinese bah(: sorry but there're no pics): might find time to add them in some day o.O 亲爱的宋倩姐姐： 您还好吗？我第一次看到您是在您公司举办的在新加坡的演唱会。您和您的队员还好吗？没有人受伤或不舒服吧？如果有，我希望他们会早日康复哦！新年快到了，您期待着新的一年吗？今年是蛇年哦•••••• 哈哈祝您身体健康，万事如意，心想事成！希望您和队员们会永远在一起，有困难时，可以找对方~ 哈哈！对不起啊•••••• 我好像什么都不知道怎么说＞＜ 好吧，不说了！身日快乐！ Hehe that was fun:D now on to jia's. Btw I used nin cos she's older than me and stuff. Will use that for jia too (: Oh wait! Nevermind! Haha I'm so failed jia's birthday is tomorrow :O btw I'm using china's time (which is also Singapore time FYI) since they're from china haha. So see you again tomorrow? :p have a great day vic!!! :D gonna sing the birthday song ^~^ 祝你生日快乐！ 祝你生日快乐！ 祝你生日快乐！ 祝你生日快...

yay! it's my bias in SKarf's birthday!!! ^~^ hehe. i'm sorry but i actually didn't know it until quite late today... >< and did you know Natasha has the same birthday as JooA in SKarf? lucky girl ): haha yeah. anyways, you know where the confused face is from, isn't it? xD hehe from their debut stage when there were technical problems :P sad that Sol left SKarf, but it's her choice.. so i guess we can't really do anything >< although i kindda pity JooA and Hana cos people keep saying how they can't replace Sol and everything. like true, they can't replace her, but i dont really like it that everyone's not really liking them because they're like taking Sol's role since she left and stuff. but anyways, this is not a rant. haha. so on to her birthday letter! ^~^ Dear Ferlyn, Hi! omg you're one of the first Singaporeans to debut as the kpop idol!!! :DDD yay so happy i can speak to you in Singlish and you'll still understan...

so... boythunder is coming to tkgs today but i'm not in school cos i'm sick. well, i've gotten better (: like my temperature went down (prolly cos i took panadol in the morning lol) but i still have quite a bad sore throat.. ): so yeah. he's coming and i'm not in school today... i dont know why but like... i'm not really feeling anything. i'm not like... crying blood cos i'm not in school today.. i'm not like.... wanting to murder myself cos i'm sick and didnt go to school or anything. you know? maybe it's because i'm not his fan? haha like yeah, i follow him on insta but that's kindda like for fun and stuff i guess? o.O but i dont listen to his radio channel. how awkward would it be if he talked to be and i'll be like 'um,... i dont listen to your radio channel....?' LOL so yeah. i guess that's why i dont feel anything :\ man, if it was SHINee or something i would have thrown myself out of the window xP well, i hope m...