Just saw a fanacc of a fan telling vixx it was her birthday and they wished her and talked to her and everything My birthday is in four days I will not regret not being able to talk to them. I WONT. I am thankful. I am thankful that i got that chance not many had and i didnt blow it that bad. I am thankful i will be thankful and i will not regret. I need to make myself believe this please make me believe this. Nothing came to my mind i wanted to tell them it will be my birthday in four days. I will be ohkay. Please give me a hug i need it. Yes i will be fine because someone is gonna celebrate my birthday for me. SOmeone planned an amazing surprise for me. Someone got scolded for me. Just for my birthday i will be happy i will be contented. Yes i will. I will the thankful and count my blessings rather than be jealous of what others have. It's ohkay if we're fated we will meet again. I can do this. I am ohkay. I will be ohkay. Every mistake teaches us a new lesson i'll be ohk...
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Fetching vixx
So like.. ive never done this before. Ive never gone to the airport to pick an idol up and i never really believed in doing it. I cant believe im here now HAHA But rly. Vixx was just confirmed to be at belt 47 and landed in 2 hr's time so yay!!! I feel bad for telling mummy and daddy that im gg band concert (technically im supposed to ah oops) but i rly dw them to worry ah... Anyways, feel kindda excited now cos im rly close to where they would be walking out PLS FILM VIXX TV AND GET MY FACE IN IT hahahaha jkjk This whole week is gonna be such a good week for me. X) today i see vixx, tomorrow string and harmonc, friday utopia, sat ndp volunteer training, sun dinner w fam, mon vesak day (maybe gg msia if a certain pig can make it and a certain piglet's parents allow her to go hehehe x)), tue outing w the girls and wed the grand finale w an outing planned by piggy that i have no clue abt cos no one's telling me anything hehehe x) like im rly excited for this week ah ohkay? Su...
The time is (not) right
Omg everything is clashing w everything now??!?!?! Like dont get me wrong im writing this on a positive note. But like... so vixx is coming to sg IN A WEEKS TIME SCREAMS and their plane lands at 9:30 on 27 may in t3. And like... i wanted to go but then i have band concert. anD Now im like rly thinking so hard abt it omg yknow ppl are all speculating that they may be filming vixxtv omg if i see myself in their vixxtv i will lose it. BUT OMGGGGG i rly rly wanna goooo i mean jelpi was the one that told tap to release their flight info?!?!????? SOMETHING IS PLANNED I SAY. SOMETHING IS PLANNED. and like the fact that they wanna meet sg starlights?!???! Awwwwww And im just like rly so excited abt this yet there's this dreading feeling cos i somehow think that the band concert will end damn late and i wont be able to go and something good's gonna happen when i'm not there and like... idk ah.... >< Somehow i have a really good feeling abt this concert w the whole lucky draw t...
I cannot poem. Lol
I'm lost. What do I do? There's no map in this place, Only quicksand and volcanoes. There's no leader to follow, No stars as a guide. Nothing. I was thrown here unwillingly, And am forced to walk through it. Sometimes I think of leaving. But then I realise who am I to decide my depature, If I wasn't the one to decide my entrance? I'm confused, I'm frustrated, I'm angry. But most of all, I'm tired. I've been walking for so long. Were they in circles? I would never know. Sometimes I wish I had someone with me. But then I realise it was a selfish thought. Because they'd have to walk this never-ending road with me. Who am I to force them into this? I'm hungry, I'm thirsty, I'm sleepy. But most of all, I'm lost. Help. Save me. Ps. Look i fixed the formatting cos idk why everything got lumped tgt ):
A 14 year old Christian who's ultimate bias is Lee Taemin (my dp). and no, for the millionth time, he's not a girl. when he dresses up as a girl now he looks awkward. lolx. omg my skype profile from 2012. why was i such an embarrassment hhhahhaa Shawol SONE EXOtic aff(x)tion L.O./\.E nice to meet you. i'm a kpopper pt. 2
Haiz
Idek. I want to cry but i cant. Because im surrounded by seniors the either dont know me, hate me or judge me. Idk. Like.. so i found my 'artwork' i wont even call it one cos it just sucks that bad. But yeah i found it. And like i stuck the last thing i need on it and like the art club pres doesnt like it ah. Haha. Like.... can tell he thinks it isnt good at all really. It's ohkay i think it sucks too if you ask me. Cos tbvh i did it just for the sake of doing it. I have absolutely no interest in this exhibition shit. Heck i didnt even want to be in art club. But like yeah... idk dont you hate me hahahahhhha but anyways i really cant think of anything to do for this stupid exhibition thing that's why i stuck to my original idea of the flower thing but like yeah it failed on me ah and i kindda need it by today so i dont think it's gonna be displayed anymore? idk. I really just want to leave the room like that but it's kindda irresponsible to do so if you ask me s...
Haiz.. idk i just feel so guilty. Like idk... Like so many things happened and like... idk ah i feel bad ah. Now like... i left my artwork (which i did against my will) in the artroom last week and like now it's gone and my senior wants it today so i have to print it again and stuff i guess? I think he hates me ah hahaha but then again doesnt everyone. I guess im slightly annoyed how yesterday was such a good day and now today's like that. Huh. I guess that's how rollercoasters work. And im sorry friend. Really. You might say it's not my fault but it really is ah... i really think im the root cause of it. Im sorry. Hope™