Frustratingly Mediocre

omg so ohkay i got accepted into drama and rockclimbing and i'm a compulsory member of art club cos art student. the thing is that. rc and ac clash. tues. drama i cfm joining alr. rc fri and tue, need pay coaching and entrance fee the rest i think it's free? idk so at first i replied rc too late and they gave my slot to someone else. then i was like ohkay then thanks i dunnid decide anymore. now they tell me got slot again. so i'm really just damn confused cos i thought ohkay go at first. but then now i'm just here like... i really dk eh.. i really dk if i shld go or not. like i'm quite int in rc la but i v scared i no time for anything. cos now i'm alr having quite a lot of hw and stuff and like.. idk? like i just scared once it comes j2 and stuff i cannot cope anymore. esp cos i can't quit any cca. then i'm just here like... i really don't know eh. i thought of joining ytd and now today i'm not so sure anymore it's really bugging me a lot c...

so i didn't make it in i don't think i've ever cried like that in front of my friends (and strangers) in such along time since like p2. after that mini crying spree i used to have in p2, i guess i've pretty much stopped crying in front of ppl (ohkay except that one time in p3). i've broken my record today yvette and i were so nervous about it idek how to explain we were just so scared ohkay cos we both really wanted to be in dance. and the thing is freestyle is needed and i can't freestyle for nuts so. first up was contemp and it was really difficult but actually really fun as well hehe. and hiphop was really great. then for both there was freestyle and i think i crapped out a lot of things? proud of self lol. then after that there was this uh one more segment for those w dance background to dance and like the song just made me really happy when i danced to it??? i started smiling a lot. got in actually. but then there were too many girls and there had to be a r...