Frustratingly Mediocre

yes, this is by me. i've drawn this many times. but i cant find the actual sketch so i made another one on the computer. i know it's not that nice but i'm kindda using this for Ayise, my character's formal dress. ONE OF THEM. haha xD mm ohkay i guess that's all bye!

i'll use code cos i dont want to expose who she is. code: NAHCHARAS girl. i dont give a fuck what your mother told you. YOU ARE IMPORTANT TO US. i dont care what the fuck she said to you. i dont care what the fuck you are to her. you are important to me and WELENERES and you know it. about MILASILSA, i guess so too (: ohkay. you dont need her if she really hates you so much. you have God, you have me, you have WELENERES, you have MILASILSA. what she said to you is really hurtful, even if it's just a in-the-moment word. WELL YOU DON'T FUCKING SAY anyways, just know that you're not useless, you're not pathetic, you're not stupid. you're awesome, you're loved. ohkay. you're important. without you we won't be ~~~ (i seriously want to keep the confidentiality here) well, i guess i've already said what i want to say on whatsapp so i'll just end of with a bible verse (since we're all Christians :D) ❝ Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe ...

hehe yeah. on 11 october i went over to natasha's house to just chit chat and everything (: we talked a little, about i think everything really (: and i gave her some sticky too. :P had planned to go to tampines mall first to get natasha's charger or smth, but it was raining so i went over first (: then yeah. we went to happy haeyo, a korean mart and natasha bought 10 banana milk cos it was on offer xD one for one dollar. :D and she had to carry that around LOL she was like 'it looks like i have some sort of banana milk fetish or something' xD you know, until now, i still dont know what fetish means. natasha tried explaining it to me once. but i still dont get it. prolly will look up later xD haha then after that she had to like awkwardly wait there while she wanted to claim warranty and stuff hehe xD i went into the room to wait with her. i was watching the mr bean holiday on the tv behind the counter xD except there was no sound so i had to read the chinese subtitles ...

ohkay haha i kindda forgot what happened on tuesday >< sorry! ): but i think it was nothing since exams were alr over :P oh, i think there was some math test... -.- exam over liao still give test -.- ohkay so wednesday and thursday were marking days, so we were home! yay! haha so TMC❤ decided to go to bugis!! yay!!! i reached super early ohkay... like i had to wait for 20 minutes or so for them -.- we were supposed to meet at 11 and i reached around 10:55 and the other girls reached at like 11:09 -.- and when i reached, serene was still at home. STILL FREAKING AT HOME OMG -.- haha but when i typed 친구들, 빠리 주새요! (hope i got that correct) on twitter, they came! yay! haha. sarah got iPhone 5 OMG. and the first thing we did was to buy a matte screen protector for her phone. haha. she was like being angry at me that i called her because she didnt wanna remove the protective film, so whenever someone called her, she had to remove the protective film, if not she cannot hear them. haha ...

(i couldn't find one of Taem that i liked. i'm sorry ><) ohkay one thing i wanna say first. i'm really really really not faking ohkay. i'm not saying this to get attention (if i wanted i'd have told everyone about this blog alr -.-) but just now during ballet. it was like hell for me ohkay. my head hurt so badly, my throat hurt so badly and somehow my nostrils hurt badly too ._. and my legs and hands were like jelly. whenever i took a break, blood rushed up to my head and i felt really really giddy. i dont even know what happened to me. this has never, and i repeat, NEVER, happened to me in my 6 years of learning ballet ohkay. idk what happened to me omg. so it started out with i think we were doing petite allegro. then after dancing once, i felt really tired and giddy (i used to be able to do it many times). and then my throat started hurting really badly. idek why. when i drank water, it 'cured' it a little, but the moment i started again, it hurt so...

yes, i know i havent blogged about my wednesday two weeks ago and i'm blogging about this (kindda thinking of just giving up about blogging about that day lol. just go visit my fb to see the pics :P). but your dear blogger here is a lazy ass. i'm sorry. anyways, me and Natasha started an apply fic! called Ayise: A new SM Entertainment girl group ^^ i was checking up on it in class and alisa really thought there was a new girl group ._. so yeah. did promotions yesterday and it paid off pretty well ^^ it's a good choice to look through apply blog posts and find the writers of them and promote it to them xD there's one that really irritates the hell outta me though. WTS. SO YOU'RE ONE FIFTH ITALIAN, ONE FIFTH FRENCH, ONE FIFTH CANADIAN, ONE FIFTH SPANISH AND ONE FIFTH KOREAN?! WHAT ARE YOU MAN. ROJAK?! haha i'm sorry but this girl's application is really screwed up. idk who promoted to her (or if we did promote lol) but omggggggg. walao, then um, abit... um.......

ohkay i know i'm really slow but this time i think i just beat myself. Jjong just tweeted this pic: and i just found out that it's not pronounced Key-yan-du, but key-and-you omg. haha. i'm sorry :P

actually, i edited this photo for my aff dp, but then i grew to love it so much, IT'S MINEEEE!! XDDDD please no editing out of my name and stuff. hehe. i know some parts of the background dont look realistic, but hey! i only have paint ohkay! yes, i really did this completely out of paint. no adobe photoshop cos it's freaking ex and i'm not a professional editor anyways. anyways, i do not own the two photos used. namely: and and i do not own the actual photos. probably only the edited one? haha. there're no credits here anyways. i know Onew looks pretty awkward.. but meh. :P xoxo Hope™ Ps. I chose this photo also because it really fits the rainbow background since the actual photo's background is the sky :P

hehe i need to put my top 6 pics of yixing. and they're in my com so i have to post it here first -.- ohkay i know it's more than what i need but i just decided to put them here :P

I think I'm finally being able to fall asleep now. Nights

"...I like to make myself believe, planet earth turns, slowly..." Sure, and I'd like to make myself believe that i'll debut as a kpop idol "...it's hard to say that I'd rather stay, awake when I'm asleep, cos everything is different as it seems, when I fall asleep..." Because when we sleep, we dream, and when we dream, we become too unrealistic "...think of it as a thousand hugs, from ten million lightning bugs, as they teach me how to dance..." Ohkay I know I've said about this line before, but I didn't include the ending. Yeah sure. Please I need dance lessons. "...til I fall asleep..." And I can start my stupid, crazy, unrealistic dreams again. Ps, the lyrics might be wrong cos I'm going by pure memory now. And by what I remember Pps. I do not hate/dislike Owl City as his song Fireflies. I love it. Idk why but I kindda find it somewhat fits this situation, Hope™

"...tired from counting sheep, but not too tired to fall asleep..." - Fireflies by Owl City It's somewhat stuck in my head now and it kindda relates to my situation now I guess. Idk Ohkay. But it's 1am, so idk of this is the lack of sleep talking. But then again, I've been sleeping so much I doubt I'm that tired Keke This is again one of those times where I really don't know what I'm doing, who I am, everything Ohkay. I know most people are gonna say it's pms and stuff, but this is not Ohkay. Sure, most of the time i post these rants I'm on my period. But now I'm not Ohkay (kindda awkward to say this lol) Idk Ohkay. Just that I live in Singapore, and I don't mean any offense to my country, but Singapore is just like a fail in entertainment Ohkay. Like some Singapore show even had to invite a taiwanese actor/host (nono). I just find that Singapore really has little opportunity for entertainment, media, all these things. I'm not being...

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haha was looking through this did you know thing on fb: ohkay i definitely did not know this xD THIS IS DAMN COOL OMG. WHICH COMPANY IS IT?! I WANT!! heheheheh :O they will still be shorter than me, but only by like a few inches? haha i think i'm like 5'6" or 5'7"? lemme go check. 169cm= 1.69m = 5ft 6 35 ⁄ 64 in ohkay actually i'm not sure if i grew taller. haha cos my cousin's 169 and i'm quite significantly taller than her. YIXING HAS A FACIAL MUSCLE DEFORMITY?! :O I.WANT.THIS. OMG. kindda looks like a treehouse in Kenya to me o.O like i've stayed in it before... :OOOOOOOOOOOO THIS ARTIST IS SO FREAKING AWESOME OMG. SMORE NEVER USE PAINT. IT'S BALL-POINT PENS. I CAN EVEN DRAW A FREAKING PICTURE RIGHT WITH A BALL POINT PEN. oo ohkay, good to know xD shall try it next time i see a human maze :DDDD oo ohkay now this is really cool hehe UWAHHHH!!!!!! so does it mean they're like the same person? or they're not cousins but instead siblings...