Frustratingly Mediocre

AYO WHADDUP GUYS it's new years' eve! aka last day of 2013!!! o.o wow, can't believe the whole year has alr passed!! imagine this time last yr i was over at wuyi's playing bridge and pick w my bro and cousins. or maybe having dinner/supper of milk prata, lemon ice and beef stew xD this year's been both a good and bad year for me, idk how to classify this year... should i do this whole reflection of the year thing? i won't do resolutions cos i know i won't follow the whoops >< btw i'm listening to mbc's gayo daejejun now!! i streamed it but then i'm just waiting for ppl i want to come out xD i've alr watched VIXX's and BToB's stage. YAY APINK AND SISTAR ARE NEXT :D AND TEEN TOP AND 4MINUTE AND B1A4 AND ZE:A AND IU AND F(X) and are they just announcing everyone???? cos i heard k.will and 2pm HAHA. and SNSD! and B2ST! waiting for more!!! EXO, KARA, SHINee!!! is this alr the second part of the show? i missed the first hour cos i was...

omg guys! i'm so used to korean shows that now whenever i search for a show i almost automatically put in 'eng subs' after it!! OTL like it's really late now, but kor forgot to bring his keys so i have to stay up until around 4 to wait for him to come home. and i was thinking of watch liv and maddie (i saw the first ep it's quite interesting haha) and i typed it in google and almost put 'eng sub' LOL

ehehheheheh guess what??? xD for fun, i just decided to look at my gayo daejun streams again. and it was working!!! it was smooth for a while, but then there were a few pauses here and there but that's not the best part. JUST when i tuned in, IT WAS SHINee'S TURN!!! XDDD it's fate~ xD but then after that there's a lot of skips and stops. like it's taeyang now and the thing's skipping and lagging damn badly otl DID ANYONE SEE INFINITE'S STAGE OMG cel sent it to me! hahha myungsoo and his translucent shirt *^* what were the stylist noonas/unnies thinking LOL i wonder if he has abs o.o he must've been so shy. and the members must've teased him so much xD i think it's gdragon now but it lags so badly so meh. i don't really listen to them newayz. Hope™

So in the end I gave up watching too cos the thing suddenly went haywire in the second half whee I alr made a list on who to search up!!!  I'm quite sure it'll all be out by tmr. Or maybe even tonight cos y'know, I've alr watched VIXX and Crayon Pop. Damn those uploaders are fast! Too bad my com Oso got problem so v slow meh.  Hope™

OMG SBS OFFICIAL STREAM FUCKING DIDN'T WORK AND THE USTREAM ONE WAS SUPER SLOW FOR THE FIRST THIRTY MINS I MISSED VIXX FUCK THIS SHIT But i'm thankful it's working now lol  Hope™

stop it. stop telling me to go to sleep stop telling me it's late stop trying to look at what "Chinese thing" i'm typing on com (cos that's for yeye) stop telling me to do my work stop telling me that school's starting i know you care about me. thanks. really. but i know what to do. i'm 15, i may not seem very grown up, but i know how to manage my own body clock. worse come to worse i just fall asleep in assembly lor. like what do they even say that's important to use anyway ._. kay sry i know when i should sleep. i read somewhere on tumblr: 'i sometimes stay up so late that i feel the need to sleep immediately so that i can just sleep, without having to lay in bed and let my thoughts wonder.' and it's true. sometimes i really want to do that. cos when i let my thoughts wonder.... umm... i think you've seen it far too many times on my blog. sorry. i know it's late. there's a clock on the computer and a watch on my wrist. i can...

hey guys!! it's 12 am where i am, so merry Christmas!!! (: although i can't give any presents this year, i still wanna wish everyone! (: i think i'll feel kindda bad if someone gave me a present but i couldn't give them anything back >< Singapore doesn't snow so i can't go out to play OTL but hey! i'm finishing my new fic and i think i can get it up by tmr!! (or today, rather) it's not Neo tho. it's about Ken. hehe. maybe if i can i'll write a Neo one? i don't really know what to write tho otl did i mention that i didn't do any single piece of my homework today? ha. haha. fuck my life. Hope™

i needed somewhere to put this cos it's cool hehe. credits to owner!! (:

btw just something short but i don't read through any of my depressing posts lol maybe i will someday and cry over it again hahahha

ohkay i know it's really cliché to use Ken's catchphrase here. but hey, he's trying to popularise it, right? ohkay i'm sorry that i'm gg off topic now. tbvh, i'm supposed to be studying now and i really wanna study now too. to do some work. but i can't. i can't seem to have to motivation to do it and it sucks. i've talked about this in my letter to my grandpa (see the link at the side for the blog >>>>) but i guess i wanted to talk about it here too? sigh. did you know that dream station has this foundation module thing for us to sign up and every week for three hours we learn dance and vocals??? DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW MUCH I WANT TO JOIN IT?!??!??! BUT I HAVE FUCKING O LEVEL'S NEXT YEAR SO I DON'T THINK I CAN GO FML. i was thinking that i can still go for it, cos y'know, it's just a short time of every week and stuff, and that i can still study on the other days but then i don't want to go alone. i hate the fact how...

'sup guys! i know i havent blogged in a really long time... like i blog in by writing a letter to my grandpa but i oso wanna blog by writing in eng too??? like cos this is how i originally started so i'm really planning to create a separate blog. but somehow i'll be somewhat blogging similar things so i'm not so sure just yet. sigh ): ohkay so i woke up today thinking that i have smth on from 1-3 at lavender. like i seriously rmb telling that to mummy and mummy says it rings a bell BUT I CAN'T RMB WHAT IT IS. so i ended up just not going otl. then i went ice skating w kor + cousins!!! at first i thought it'd just be me kor phen and sean but nope! sandra and stella came too!! xD it was really fun, but my leg kindda hurts now ): stella skates so well i jealous ): hahhahaha i fell twice and... i really can't skate fast sigh. but you never know cos there were a lot of ppl there oso so cannot skate too quickly. there were a few ppl that skated into me ._. then th...

亲爱的爷爷， 今天，我们一大早就起床了！原因是因为我们去了万礼骨灰龛来选您壁龛的位置。我们选的是K-1 13，0330！您喜欢吗？哈哈。我们也选了您的骨坛。开始是选了一个青色的，因为那个骨坛有两种颜色然后爸爸说以后奶奶过世后就能买另一个颜色。可是最后我们决定不想买青色的，就买了简简单单的大理石骨坛。爸爸和二叔都说您是比较看重传统的蓑衣最后就选了大理石骨坛。选后我们就把您的骨灰放进去。您听到爸爸、二叔、叔叔和哥哥说的话吗？本来我以为我们不会看到您的骨灰的……看到您的骨灰后有点惊讶吧？因为我以为被火化后就是那样了。我们只是买骨坛然后让别人把您的骨灰放在里头。我烦您的骨灰在骨坛里时……我不知道怎么写出我的想法。就好像有点伤心吧？因为这真的不是梦，您真的不在我身边了。 啊！对了，刚才我们差点儿忘了把那个……那个……福寿被（？）放进您的骨坛啊！哇！爸爸一看见那个被在我们的纸袋时又惊讶又生气！然后回到哪儿（我不知道华文名字是什么）时，那些人好像不在乎我们那样，让爸爸更生气！幸好有另一个人来帮帮我们。 爷爷，今天我们买了些食物给您吃。因为妈妈说她的朋友说在第七天，您会回来，所以要买您喜欢吃的食物，放在您每次坐的地方，等您回来。哥哥说您没有最喜欢吃的食物，说您什么都喜欢。所以我们买了老黄瓜汤、面包、包、菜头糕和泡了一杯咖啡给您！会不会太多？哈哈。刚才买的汤时现在我们最喜欢吃的！哈哈！因为那个人煮得非常好吃！肉嫩嫩的，汤也不是太咸或太甜，饭也很好吃！今天好像买完了，可是每天他们都有不同的饭。有时十余头饭，有时是菜头饭，都很好吃！ 爷爷，我爱您！我想念您！ 您的孙女， 丽贤™

亲爱的爷爷， 今天您被火化了，我们都不停地哭。爷爷，不要担心！您喜欢我和君羽在您棺材上贴的花朵吗？对不起啊，不能弄得漂漂亮亮，只是简简单单的。但简单就是美，对吧？哈哈。君羽镇的花了很多时间折那些没鬼啊！我最喜欢的就是在您棺材上的“萧”字！哈哈，我这样说不会好像在自夸吧？您知道为什么我会用玫瑰朵弄成“萧”字吗？一个原因是因为我真的很喜欢我的姓！我的姓狠特别！另一个理由是因为您的孩子都姓萧孙子每个都姓萧！我觉得我们的家庭好特别！别人的表哥表姐堂哥堂姐通常都会有不同的姓。可是我们家庭我叫做的“第三代”全都姓“萧”啊！我们都比其他家庭更特别！哈哈！ 好了，我这样说好像很自豪……哎哟……哈哈哈哈哈 听妈妈说明天您会回到您的家？妈妈已经要求叔叔去买您喜欢的食物了！妈妈又问我您最喜欢吃什么，但我好像不能回答……对不起啊，陪您那么多年了，还不知道您喜欢吃什么食物。因为您没牙齿，煮饭时都是煮比较容易要的食物。我知道您喜欢喝咖啡！记得以前您从学校到我回家时都会拿着一包咖啡！可是我不知道是什么种咖啡……我自己觉得失败咖啡吧……我说您可能喜欢吃云吞。但我不知道以前您每次煮云吞是不是因为您喜欢吃还是我喜欢吃……我知道您在持托福园（这是不是它的名字？）时我们会买叉烧包给您。您喜不喜欢吃叉烧包啊？ 对了，我想起在持托福园的那位义工。您有没有和她聊天？她看起来是一位善良有耐心的人！爷爷，把爸爸您的照片放在我的钢琴上。以后我弹钢琴时就好像在弹给您听！哈哈！可惜您还在世时我没机会弹钢琴给您听、没机会跳舞给您看。好像也没唱歌给您听哦！但我不能唱歌！哈哈。我不知道为什么，但这几天《三只老虎》那首歌一直在我脑海里！是不是因为我小时候您有唱那首歌给我听？记得我喜欢那首歌是因为很有趣和因为我是在虎年出生的！ 爷爷，君羽今天好像很伤心……虽然您和她的时间不会很长，但她很像您。这说明了您对我们的重要性吧！哈哈！记得以前您好像每次都贬低自己……爷爷！您对我们都很重要！我们都带您！您不会让我们烦恼或讨厌的！ 对了，您知道我不懂哪一天说过我想制作性的博克每当我想和您说话时都会写在博克上，对吗？我希望我能很快就制造好那个博克！但我有点怕。我怕以后我不会进场谐星给您……我不知道那时好或坏，但如果真的有一次我没进场写信给您，我希望年您不会伤心！ 哎……我说这些话干吗？都不知道您有没有读我写的这些信…… 我爱您！我想念您！ 您的...

亲爱的爷爷， 您还好吗？今天是哥哥的生日，可惜不能快快乐乐地庆祝。但没关系！今天整天，哥哥能和您一起！ 现在我正在躺在您旁边，等下会在这儿睡觉。您明天就要离开了，我想最后一次睡在您的旁边。还记得小时候，我、哥哥和奶奶会在床上睡觉。然后您就会在旁边睡在dilam上。dilam应该不会那么好睡吧？对不起啊，为了我们您得睡在地上......  您喜欢我、君羽和二婶为您做的玫瑰花吗？哈哈，今天刚刚教君羽怎么折他就一整天都在折。 对不起啊，刚才因为太饿所以先吃了一点点的食物。忘了给您吃先...... 希望您不会生气......  明天爸爸一大早就要起床载妈妈和哥哥到这儿，我希望他不会太累...... 他好像刚睡了，我希望他不会被别人叫醒...... 爷爷， 我真想念您啊！）： 当您知道吗？我好想念天都没哭得太多了！我不会一直哭，因为我知道您不要我们哭。可是明天我们一定会哭的吧......  今天奶奶来看您！感谢上帝今天她的心情比较好。虽然很难哄她上车，但幸亏他在这儿是不会给我们太多麻烦。 爷爷，我们会在梦里见吗？我知道有些人可能蛮怕在梦里见到已过世的人，但我期待见到您，和您说说话！我好像没跟您说过，但好像一个多月或几个礼拜前我梦见了您可是那个是噩梦啊！在里面，我梦见您过世的情景真的好可怕哦！我醒来时枕头湿湿的、眼睛有泪水心也一直扑通扑通地打...... 这几天都不是梦...... 开次我一直哭时，我一直希望这只是多一个噩梦但我们都知道这是事实。 爸爸刚睡着！正在打鼾声！哈哈！ 现在我在等二叔二婶和君羽回来。我希望他们不会太累。尤其是君羽。她还小，比较早睡觉。现在已经凌晨一点了，他能还没回来怕明天睡不醒......  我希望明天我们能很早睡醒！能帮您把棺材弄得漂漂亮亮的！ 对了，您会觉得冷吗？我现在有点冷哦！我穿了哥哥的外套，先在不会太冷。如果我没穿外套好像会很冷啊！我已经穿了长袖的衣但我一踏进来是立刻觉得很冷了。哈哈！ 哎哟，爸爸不知道为什么干起来，好像要再睡着了。 爷爷，我就写到这好吗？再见爷爷！ 我爱您，我怀念您。 您的孙女， 丽贤™

亲爱的爷爷，  您还好吗？对不起啊，今天那么迟才给您写信....... 我本来是要很早给您写信的，但我在电脑上画了很多时间看看我以前小时候拍的照片。很多照片都有您啊！尤其是我庆祝生日时的照片！爷爷，我好想您哦...... 以后我的生日那天，没有您在我旁边给我唱生日歌，对我说：＂要懂事、要努力学习。＂当您不用担心！我会努力的！ 今天很多人来看您啊！幸好房子是比较大的，不让我们肯定没有位子给别人做。哈哈！很多都是我的姨姨或舅舅，也有很多是君羽的亲戚。有些也是爸爸和妈妈的同事！把把有一位同时我和哥哥比较熟的。但刚才我和他们说说话是好尴尬哦！哈哈！ 还有，我和君羽和我的表哥和他的女朋友聊了聊天，玩了玩些游戏。真好玩啊！哈哈。我本来不会和这个表哥很亲的，但可能是因为别人都比我们大好几岁，所以我们就一块聊聊！可是，我和君羽和表哥玩乐「猜君羽的名字」的游戏，我的舅舅就给了表哥君羽的名字使君羽不太喜欢他。我希望君羽不会因为这个小事而放不开...... 明天晚上是我和爸爸回陪您啊！说实话，我想拍您的照片。当那样不太好吧...... 所以不用吧！我自己的脑海里记得就行了！ 明天也是哥哥的生日。好可惜不能快快乐乐地庆祝。但能和您庆祝庆祝一点也好吧！哈哈。  对了，我打算开个新的博客，在那个博客里我就会写信给您！不能答应每天一定会写信给您当我想跟您说话时我会在博客上写，或看着天空直接对您说！（： 如果您想对我说什么话，就在我的梦里见吧！希望能梦见您啊！ 爷爷， 我会永远爱您，永远会怀念您。 您的孙女， 丽贤™

Call me crazy but I just talked to my grandpa for half an hour straight. Like no stopping for water break or anything. Like the only time I stopped was to take my breath or to think what to say cos my Chinese is just that bad whoops. ><  I Kindda stood at the balcony to talk to him. Yeah. I faced the sky cos yeye is in heaven (:  I teally just talked to him about anything that came to my mind. Omg I Kindda hope no one heard me otl. Sekali they think that my unit got crazy person o.o Oso I noticed that my dad who was sleeping on the recliner is there anymore, and went back to his room...? Kindda really hope that he didn't hear me. Or he can hear me la... I guess. But don't talk to me about it o.o  You know, talking to my grandpa for half an hour didn't feel like half an hour at all. Felt like only five minutes hehe. Maybe I'll spend more time talking to him next time!!  Honestly now, almost every time I speak in Chinese I feel like crying omg what's wrong w me....

i hope you don't find me like a psychopath when i talk to my grandfather here. because i don't have the strength to say it out loud without my voice cracking from me crying. tears are always threatening to spill when i type to him. all the more when i speak. maybe i'll get used to it when time passes. because time heals all wounds, right? no? i don't know. only time will tell. what is time anymore? i spent two hours crying but it felt like two minutes i spent probably 16 hours or so with my family, just talking, walking around, playing some games but it felt like a few hours does time really matter? wow. i finally understand that when people write in fics that they can't tell the difference between an hour and five hours anymore. but is this a good realisation? lee xian™ ps. i might be signing off with my actual name for some posts. mostly when it comes to my grandpa. cos this is the name he gave me, this is the name that i love so much. it carries so much meaning t...

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=401640976605951 爷爷！！！ 您看！！！好可爱哦！那只猴子！哈哈！我想见见象这样的猴子！！哈哈。猴子们很聪明啊！

you know i still remember when i was a really little girl. a really little and immature girl. one that wasn't understanding enough, one that only saw the outside of people and not what their true heart was. i remember that i didn't really like my grandfather at that time. i remember it was because he always made me do a lot of work, he'd hit me if i did something wrong. i remember thinking that when he passes on, everyone would be sad and i'd be the only one that was celebrating. oh boy was i wrong back then. so so so wrong. i'm really really really really thankful that i was able to grow up fast enough to be able to appreciate my grandfather for..... almost a decade, i guess? so thankful. thankful that i was able to spend so much time with him, and learn so much about him. i don't want to brag or anything, or sound like i'm superior to any of my family members, but i think i'm the one that knows him the best. i'm sorry if this sounds like i'm so...

亲爱的爷爷， 您还好吗？今天是第二天，但我们算成第一天，因为昨天他们很晚才把事办好…… 您知道吗？他们做了这个……网页，很像“面簿”那样，别人能写些信给您。您看了我和君羽的信吗？对不起啊，不能用华语写，因为那里他们给我们用的只有英文。您有没有看到二叔给您点的蜡烛？我们都好想念您哦…… 如果您想看看那个网页，就按这个吧： http://www.heavenaddress.com/MR-SIOW-AH-KOW/460037/  爸爸说他不知道您的朋友的联络号码，也不知道您亲戚的。我们把您的照片放在报纸里了，希望您的朋友回来看您哦！我不知道您的家人还在世，或在新加坡，但如果他们在新加坡，我也希望他们或来看您！我也希望奶奶能来见您最后一面。虽然它的乐老人痴呆症，即不得我们了，但我还是希望他能来看您！您们都是一辈子的夫妇啊！已经白头偕老了（但奶奶的白头发比您少！哈哈！），现在希望您们可以见多一面，以后在天堂见！ 对不起啊，今天哭了很多次。我知道您不要我们一直哭，要我们开开心心的……但……也难免不哭啊…… 刚才哥哥被爸爸嘛了一下。我希望哥哥不会太生气，或伤心。我知道哥哥是不会和别人说他的苦恼，但我们都是人，一定会有苦恼的…… 我好像不知道要说什么，我也觉得好像快要哭了…… 爷爷，明天爸爸会买早餐给您吃哦！对了，今天的晚餐好吃吗？我喜欢吃睡觉！和那个……那个人……里面有马铃薯的。我觉得咖喱菜有点太辣了……我还记得您以前都会做云吞给我吃。爷爷做的云吞是最好吃的！因为虽然别的地方可能会有更好的料，但爷爷做得有爷爷的爱心！还记得以前我也会和您一起包云吞！好玩是好玩，但抱了抱一下，就会觉得不耐烦了……真的很佩服您，有那么多耐心。也记得有一次因为吃了太多炸云吞，第二天就喉咙痛也发烧……那时候您一边煮饭一边照顾奶奶也照顾我。真的，谢谢啊！！！ 唉……想吃您做的云吞啊…… 我会永远怀念您，也会永远爱您！ 您的孙女， 丽贤™

I know it's Onew's birthday, but I'm in Kindda no mood to celebrate it. You know why, right? I'm sorry, but anyways,  Happy birthday Lee Jinki!! (:

you know how people always write that "i didn't even feel that so many hours have passed" in stories and everything? i always thought that they were fake and it was just for the sake of the story to show the character's feelings. i found out today, that it really is real. when they said that "i cried for two hours" they literally mean two hours. i didn't even feel it, but when i saw the time it really was two hours. this whole day, since like two (reach three). i know i cried for two hours, still crying now. holding back tears cos i don't want to cry when mummy is there. i think i've worried enough people with me crying like a newborn baby just now. but i honestly didn't feel the time passing by. seriously. i love my grandfather forever <3 Hope™

亲爱的爷爷， 您知道吗？今天是星期五，也是这个月的十三号。可能您不知道，但西方的人认为如果那天是星期五然后也是那个月的十三号，那天就会有不好运。我市不相信这些的啦…… 爷爷，我希望您在天堂要开心哦！不要担心我们！！！我们会高高兴兴的！我的华语虽然不太好，但我还希望您能读得懂我在写什么。哈哈！ 我会好好地读书，做个成熟、董事的人！一定！我不能答应您我一定会得到全班或全校第一名，但我会努力读书的！我不会一直哭！我希望我不会一直哭……哈哈。如果我哭，您不要太伤心哦！ 我希望您会保佑我们全家，照顾爸爸，让他有足够的睡眠。不要一直忙着做工。照顾妈妈，让他不要有那么多病痛。照顾哥哥，他明年就当兵的，希望在当兵时不会太痛苦，不会受到太多的伤。照顾二叔和二婶，我虽然不会和他们很熟，但他们还是我的家人！照顾君羽，她还小，可惜陪您的时间不长。但我希望她会得到她想得到的东西，生活的开开心心！！ 谢谢啊，爷爷。以前我小时候您照顾了我。我虽然每次都好像很讨厌您那样，不听您的话，不做您要我做的功课。但很感谢您还一直地照顾我！您知道我爱您，对吗？ 也想对您说对不起……因为我知道以前我是个很调皮的女孩。对不起呀，现在我一边写信一边好像要哭要哭那样的…… 希望您在天堂没有痛苦，能和天使们一起玩耍！ 虽然您已经不在人世了，但您永远都会在我心目中的！ 爷爷，我永远都爱您！我有很多东西想跟您说，但又不知道怎么说…… 您记得吗？君羽小时候，您不知为什么叫她丽贤。对我说了：“拿丽贤的帽子！”然后我就在那儿问您为什么我需要带帽子。哈哈！你那时候大笑了起来！！！也记得那时候您代我上学时，下着蛮大的雨。您带了一把很大的雨伞但您的半个身体都被雨淋湿了。那时因为您怕我被淋湿，就宁愿您淋湿而不让一滴雨滴到我身上。谢谢啊……也记得您跟我说过您以前卖鱼的工作！说过您买的最大的鱼、最小的鱼、最受欢迎的鱼等……你对我说过了好多好多东西！如果要我写的话，我认为我写来写去，几个月后也不能写完……哈哈。所以对不起啊，只能写一点点而已。 对了，您看到我帮您弄得照片吗？我辛辛苦苦地帮您弄得美美哦！哈哈！不啦，是因为那些棺材的人说要有个跟好的照片。我想帮您弄个很漂亮的！您在照片里好帅好酷哦！哈哈！背景我也放了您最喜欢的颜色！蓝色！！！ 耶~~~ 您喜欢我帮您弄得照片吗？ 好了，时间不早了，明天我还要早起去看您哦！哈哈。 明天见！ 我会永远爱...

YO~~~~~~ TODAY IS 11 12 13!! XDDDD AND IT'S ALSO DADDY'S BIRTHDAYYYY!!! XDDDDDDD watched VIXX ASC today, but that's not the important thing rn xp so! for daddy's birthday, we went to sushi tei!!! omg i love sushi xDD it was really really really nice!! ^^ Sashimi Salad California Roll  xDD omg the sashimi salad is jjang!! xDDd and the california roll is great too!!! tried this spider roll thing (it's not real spider, it's soft shell crab) but i didn't really like it o.o too lazy to take pics of all the food xP too bad mummy could only sit there and watch us eat cos currently she can't have seafood other than fish. sigh >< hahhaha XD there was this hokkaido special and they served this.. uh.... squid w rice inside? i rmb making it in cooking mama xDD ahhhh the good ol' days of nintendo ds xP i ate sea urchin today!! it's not bad! :D but i would've purposely go out of my way to eat it luh. i think i still like salmon sashimi best :3 after ...

ohkay so ever since 6dec when vixx got their first win, i've opened like 658646815 tabs of VIXX stuffies so i'm just gonna spam everything here whee it will be in absolutely no order (or maybe in the order of how my tabs are. yup. it will be) so it can go from some random pic to a pic of their win to something else and stuff like that kayz? SO LETS START XD dear boys, I am still completely overwhelmed by the emotions that welled up when they announced you to be the winners of today’s MuBank. I couldn’t believe it, your dream, the one you waited 562 days for, has come true. I still feel pained that the first words to come out of your mouth were an apology, to be honest we should be the ones to apologize for demanding so much of you all the time and for not giving you this trophy sooner. but as the saying goes, better late than never, and let’s face it, this is going to be the start of many many more to come. our six lovely boys, VIXX, our idiots… we love you. we’re not going to ...

미노야! 생일축하해!!! ^^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINHO!! :DDD i know, i'm late >< i was leaguing and stuff (don't judge that game is addictive kayzxc <<omg why so gay TT.TT) well, like usual, i guess i don't really have much to say??? i feel like we've seen more of the real minho this year o.o like yeah, we see him all the time but i think like this year we see how he's actually like w ppl he's close to, being friendly and teasing and everything haha i mean just watch wgm xD ^haven't been watching it recently tho. sigh. some parts just make me really bored idek why. either that or my attention span problem is getting from bad to worse (which i think it is). last time we see him as a cold guy(?) but then in wgm i think it's damn cute hahahhahah seems like minho has alot of schedule recently. or maybe that's just my mind thinking back but i rmb that um,,,, what show is that? barefoot friends right? he had filming. idk la lol ohkay ignore me watching how min...

look at my twitter gaiz i spent like 10 minutes on that hahhahahaha #VIXX1STWIN and #저주인형 trended in SG!! :DD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=isD7NQArDo8 HONGBIN'S FACE WAS SO SHOCK I'M SURE HE WAS TELLING HIMSELF THAT THEY WOULDN'T WIN OMG AND THEN THERE'S HYUKKIE TOO AND N'S BUSY CRYING WHILE TRYING TO SAY SOMETHING AND LEO'S JUST SO TOUCHED THAT HE SQUATTED DOWN AND CRIED OMG HELP AND RAVI AT THE BACK CRYING I'M NOT THAT AN EMOTIONAL PERSON, SO I'M NOT REALLY CRYING BUT MY HEART IS REALLY EXPLODING FROM MY FEELINGS RN IT'S LITERALLY BEATING SO QUICKLY IDEK. "OUR STARLIGHTS THIS HAS BEEN LONG AWAITED, RIGHT? YOU'VE BEEN WAITING REALLY LONG (?) AND WE'RE REALLY SORRY (?) THANK YOU SO MUCH. -PROCEEDS TO THANK EVERY FREAKING BODY-" <<I CRY. THEY'RE SERIOUSLY CRYING SO MUCH THEY CAN'T EVEN SING RAVI COULDN'T RAP N AND LEO COULDN'T SING ONLY KEN COULD SING HIS LINE LEO WHY YOU HIDE YOUR FACE? IT'S OHKAY TO CRY!! I'M REALLY SO PROUD OF THEM MY HEART IS SWELLING RN I CANNOT. HOPE™

FUCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK VIXX ACTUALLY WON VIXX FUCKING WON FUCK YEAH OMG I HAVE NEVER BEEN SO HAPPY BEFORE I FUCKING JUMPED ON MY BED WHEN THE SCORES INCREASED FOR VIXX OHKAY LIKE I WAS LOOKING AT THE DIFFERENT SEGMENTS AND SO MUCH HOPE WAS IN MY HEART BECAUSE SO MANY OF THEM WERE HIGHER THAN HYORIN'S AND THEY REALLY FUCKING WON I CANNOT CONTAIN MY FEELS RN I WANT TO CRY AND I AM SHAKING WHAT IS THIS BABY N LEO AND RAVI WERE INCONSOLABLE AWWWWWWW I WANT TO GIVE THEM A HUG TOO I ALR KNEW THAT N WOULD CRY, AND I WAS GUESSING THAT LEO WOULD TOO BUT I DIDN'T EXPECT RAVI TO CRY. GUESS I FORGOT THAT HE'S REALLY EMOTIONAL (?) TOO. ARULGIVUNERUN IRBIOR AR MY HEART I CANNOT TAKE IT VIXX ACTUALLY WON I'M WAITING FOR THEIR TWEETS HEHE HAKYEON CAN FINALLY TREAT STARLIGHTS TO CHICKEN -VIRTUALLY EATS CHICKEN THAT HAKYEON BOUGHT- I FEEL SO HAPPY RN I CAN'T EVEN WHY AM I LIKE THIS TUMBLR'S GONNA BE SPAMMED I AM STALKING THE VIXX TAG RN I WON'T DO ANYTHING ELSE BUT THAT FOR TODAY...