Frustratingly Mediocre

i think this phrase has been used so much it actually sounds really cliché and annoying already. but it's true. you only live once. the recent events that happened really makes me think a lot of our lives. we spend our youth studying, our youth which is when we have the energy to enjoy life and celebrate but here we are stuck in school mugging away. maybe it's not the case in other countries, but i noticed that Singapore really focuses a lot on academics, even if you're not in any year where your grades will affect you greatly. you know? ohkay nevermind. maybe ignore that. idk how to explain o.o but mon pointed this out to me today when we were going to tjc. then after that remember last year i talked about how my senior who lived in the block opposite mine was murdered? it was a really sad case because she spent so much time studying for her o'levels only to end up not being able to complete it. recently, there has been another case, my bro's ex-classmate. it was a...

Guys! My chem tchr is standing diagonally infront of me rn this is really weird >< I know tkgians always see him at bus stops and stuff but this is the first time im experiencing it by myself heh ^^;;

Ayyyy whaddup. Im gonna be late for sch today~ left house like really late then after that actually got bus but wayyyyyy too many ppl so i couldn't get on meh. WHATever So! My second booking of the year, but it's the first one im booked for being late!.at least i think so lol There were some of my schoolmates who missed the bus too but then they cabbed there. Lol cant be bothered. For one, i didnt bring alot of my money and second, im gonna be late anyway so why spend more money on a cab when i can spend just a few cents on bus? TOld mummy and she tot i took bus lolx. Getting back amath today. SIgh.  Have pe as first period double sigh EHEHe BYe~ Hope™

would you believe if i told you that i came home not too long ago from standing outside my neighbours' house and chatting to them for more than an hour? xD i think it's amazing how we forever have things to talk about even though we see each other pretty much everyday xD

hey guys! i'm really sorry about the fact that i haven't really properly blogged recently ): i'm not gonna say that school's been hectic and stuff, cos really, it hasn't. well, there have been times where i got irritated at the amount of work we had and stuff but that was kindda just last week and ytd heh ^^;; so anyways, what took up a lot of my time last week would be studying. i guess i didn't tell you, but i had CAs last week so i was kindda chionging all my studies whoops. nvm, it just meas that i have to study really hard now! (: but other than that, i have also been going on tumblr really really often and that i decided to stupidly  learn html coding! :D it's basic html coding that you can learn at www.codeacademy.com ! ^~^ i heard about it on the radio like a really really long time ago, and since i like editing html on AFF, i decided to give it a try. i mean, it's always good to learn new things, right? (: it's really understandable and i th...

Idk why but today seems to be like a really bad day for me. I miss him so much. Yeye....  Today I actually cried on the bus on the way home ohkay. Nothing to trigger it. I was just thinking and thinking and the next thing I knew I was about to cry alr.  Then just now I was reading a fic and I started crying again. Then I decided to look through a photo album. The moment I came across his picture, I cried again.  And then I went to talk to him. After I finished talking, I thought I wouldve stopped crying. But then I returned to the photo album that I stopped for a while becuase of too much crying and then I see a pic of me as a two-year-old trying to get off a beach chair and he's there watching me.  His hair was so black then. Tbh I don't remember his hair being this black. He looked so young. Well, he was. He was only 55 years young. His skin wasn't so wrinkled, he looked so healthy and he didn't have that little black thing on his nose. His calves actually had musc...

Wow It went from my bro asking me what I learn in school to an impromptu tutor session! LOLX  No really.  He's gonna tutor sec 4s and he wants to know what we learn so he was asking me about math and stuff. And then that went from him just asking me what I learn to teaching me bits and pieces of concepts that I actually didn't know!!! WOW And he explained how some formulae are derived and everything it's Kindda cool ^~^  Except there are some times I don't really understand but I think if I think abt it enough I will know cos he explained it really really clearly. Gave me tips too!!!  I more or less understand now HURRAY Can you believe it my bro can help me understand so much in prolly like 15mins!! He's a really good teacher ^~^ but I don't think he'll be taking teaching as his profession lol. He has other stuff he likes :p Even though I always complained about having an older brother when I was young, and saying that I wanted to be an only child or to hav...

ohkay this is just something random and short but omg today's ballet lesson! it was both fun and so tiring omg! we had to do exercises that would train like the very basics for us and it was really really tiring but fun too! and my face was so red hahhaha. studied bio b4 ballet and couldn't stop thinking about my blood vessels dilating to let more blood flow to the surface of my skin HAHA had such a bad blocked nose in the morning it's like there were plugs omg. i sneezed, but then nothing came out!! yknow how usually we have mucus right? NOTHING. NOTHING CAME OUT. managed to blow the gunk outta my nose a little later tho lolx had ajisen ramen for dinner!!^^ omg instead of this being like for dance it's something diff otl. sorry, idrk how to explain what i did for dance today ): have a nice day! :D Hope™

hello! hope everyone had a good vday ytd!! ^^ i had a really fun one! :D  ohkay so this year i can't give presents, so i felt a little bad when quite a number of ppl gave me presents ): but it's ohkay la, you don't need presents to feel my love radiating out towards you right? xP  so we started school kindda,,,, boringly??? cos the next day was tdd and then this hist tchr said he was gna talk to us abt smth and we were just like siala it will b some boring talk about tdd but omg it was so fun!!!! ohkay so it started out w this skit by the tchrs. they were like "72 years ago, 15 feb. FIRST DAY OF CNY!!!" and then blah blah blah, visiting. then i think suddenly BOMB or something. then after that all the NS ppl were activated to go serve the country la, then the tchr who was acting was like "darling~~~ please give me my bag and helmet~~~" LOL  and then after that the lights dimmed and ppl dressed in the army outfit w guns and everything and ski mask popped ...

김원식, 생일축하합니다! 사랑한다! ♥ 김원식, 생일축하합니다! 사랑한다! ♥ HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIM WONSIK AKA VIXX'S RAVI AKA LAVA!!!!! XDDDD wow, i never knew that he was born a day after Valentine's >< (which reminds me i haven't blogged for that yet otl). like i always knew when his bday was but i just forgot when vday was LOL. and then i realised that tdd (total defence day) is a day after valentine's and wonsik's born on that day too!!! hahahaha xD i won't write letters anymore, i guess. kindda gotten over that phase where i'd write as if they are reading it ._. even though the day is alr over in Korea, hope that he had an amazing day!! ^^ and that VIXX will always stay tgt and they'll always be happy and healthy :D xoxo Hope™

Bullshit. All that you fucking say is bullshit total bullshit. The bullshit that you'd give sec 4s a chance. What rubbish. I told myself i wouldnt get angry over it but i cant help but feel that all you spew is bullshit. Fucking hell reserve 3 sec 3s and 1 sec 4. RESERVES DONT EVEN FUCKING PLAY WOULD IT HAVE KILLED YOU TO PUT IN SEC FOURS?!?!?!?! i understand that you didnt put it some sec 4s cos our skills suck but not even fucking reserve? Are you fucking kidding me?! is it just me or is my batch of bowlers the unluckiest? First day of training was hell for us but then the previous and next batches didnt do this shit. Said that you want to give sec fours the chance? My ass. IDk about last year's sec fours, but i know some that not so good one also got in????? IDek. I hope youre happy that my friend was about to cry. I guess what you want is to win. This is why i dont like sports. yOU focus your mind mostly on winning. Don't bullshit w me about teamwork or sportsmanship. T...

ohkay this is kindda random but omg i have this one teacher she's so dedicated to teaching eh!! like really she will pay attention to what you write, will look until very 仔细 and check through your work everything one leh! even if i don't like the subject i think the teacher is damn nice la. so i don't think i've told you before but apparently my amath sucked so badly that i had to go to another class for lessons cos there they teach you simpler and stuff la. so glad i went there lor. my teacher's mdm ho (i honestly thought she was called mdm koh until today otl) but she's really really nice. she's v friendly to me, even though i'm like a v antisocial and quiet person in her class >< anyways, so she went through the amath test w us and then there were some parts i didn't understand and wrote there like "why like that" and "why, idgi" and stuff. tbh i don't even rmb writing it anymore lor. but then she told me i think on m...

CHINGAY CHINGAY WE ARE ONE PEOPLE PEOPLE WE ARE ONE PARADE PARADE WE ARE ONE SINGAPORE SINGAPORE WE ARE ONE i would go all EXO on that but let's not do that now, yeah? xD so guys! i haven't been blogging much, and i'm really sorry about that! since i have the time now, i just decided to blog before i forgot this hehe. i guess i haven't y'all yet, but i volunteered in Chingay 2014 and i have absolutely no regrets! it was so much fun! met new friends, even though i'm not too sure if i'll still be keeping in touch and stuff but yeah, it was fun knowing them and chatting with them!! ^^ so the day (or the previous?) kindda starting out w me thinking if i should just wear my sport shoes to sch. they're not really white, more pinkish and greyish so it's not allowed in sch but fuck it i really didn't wanna bring extra shoes along. nope, definitely not wearing sch shoes to chingay cos my sch shoes suck like hell ):  kindda had like a bickering session w m...

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ayo gaiz! it's 人日 today! so happy birthday to everyone! :D had a great dinner today! it was a little quiet and stuff, but well, it was nice! (: had crab, and mongolian fried chicken and veg and soup and a lot of things la. oso got yusheng! :D yusheng i only eat the fish and crackers lor hahahha. the person that helped us w the yusheng like so unenthu tho ._. have Chingay tmr! hope it'll be fun! ^^ Hope™

WOAHHHHHH guess what guys!  Training ended not too long ago, and I asked Val to buy food for me. AND WE MET ADRIAN PANG WOW XDDDD  Omg it was really cool and he was really friendly hehe xD shook hands and wished him a happy new year, and then one of our juniors took a pic for us :3 It's cool, haha. Didn't really wanna take pic w him at first cos I didn't wanna disturb him but everyone else wanted to so I couldn't stop them and stuff, haha Sometimes I'm curious whether actors/actresses/idols want to just lay in the low when they go out, or have fans coming up to them for a pic? Sometimes I see some getting irritated, but others are usually really happy when they meet a fan???  I'm curious hehe Hope™

sigh i guess i can't do the SG Starlights thing anymore ): i wanted to, but i can't seem to get my damn timing right for the song!!!! )))): i would listen to the orignial audio and sing, BUT I CAN'T. i seriously can't. somehow it just doesn't work omg kill me now. it gets damn out of tune lor. aiya, nvm la. ):

OMG I JUST FOUND OUT THAT MY KEY WAS IN MY BAG ALL ALONG LOL i don't regret it tho xD it was fun today :3

ohkay wow. my respect and admiration for choreographers has probably increased by tenfold. so let's start from the beginning. i was locked outta house today, and i couldn't go to my neighbour's cos apparently i carry the mark of death and i bring bad luck to everyone and anyone meh. so yeah. what was i saying? ah, yes. i was stuck outside my house for lke 2 and a half hours. reaching 3. THANK GOD FOR NEIGHBOURS OMG. so thankful that i actually have neighbours that i'm close to hahhaha xD so i chit-chatted w pea and eyjj for like a damn long time about everything and anything :3 and then pea was saying how she was the only one in her group to have a dance background and hence she was pushed to be the choreographer for her team and she had to choreograph a dance to Defying Gravity. so i helped her. OMG YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH TIME WE SPENT. AND I DON'T THINK WE'RE EVEN 1/4 OF THE DANCE. it was damn hard omg. we couldn't think of proper dance moves to fit thi...

idk why but these gifs somehow get to me??? idk if i'm just going crazy again (it seems like the excuse that i always use. i'm sorry) but seeing these gifs... really.....  in the first one i think he was waiting for his scores? since you can see that the nine is still up there.  but then in the second one he finds out his score and it's only a 7. and he's bowing his head in maybe disappointment? because he did really well in the training (just watch VIXX TV omg he looked like some pro lor. all shoot bulls' eye de) but then he ended up not doing so well in the actual rounds. if i'm not wrong, his scores are 9 7 10 7.... as someone who's in sports (shut up about me being in aircon room lol) i know how it feels if you scored really well for the previous um... i'll just say frame cos i'm a bowler kay? i know how it feels if you got like a strike or nine for the previous frame but then you kindda screw it up for the next frame. for bowling, if you get a s...