Frustratingly Mediocre

Sometimes, I feel like I have no story to share, no testimony to tell. I wasn't born into a Christian family, neither did I grow up in church. When I was 7, I was enrolled into a Methodist primary school near my grandparents' home. As all missionary schools do, we had chapel, morning devotions, and little preaching sessions by staff. I'm not sure when exactly it was; perhaps it was my first ever assembly in school when they shared Jesus Christ. I was but a 7-year-old, someone who didn't understand life or death, love or hate, much less death by crucifixion and Christ's love for us. Yet, when they told me that Jesus loved me, that he died for me, there was this unexplained faith in me that just went "Yes, I believe that You are real and You died for me." And it seems like that was just how my journey started. As a 7-year-old who didn't understand the concept of church, sermons, pastors, cell, etc., just bursting out in childlike faith and believin...

so a few days back (or more specifically a week and 2 days ago HHAHA) i was having a supremely bad day. like legit. it's the kind of bad days when you wake up feeling like death and actually wanting death to approach with 0 appetite and motivation to do ANYTHING. like i actually didn't have a proper meal or even food in general until like 7++ and even then i wasnt starving. i was just eating bc i knew my parents were definitely worried or something. it's only happened one other time and that time i didn't even drink water. at least this time i drank water i just didnt eat hahaha. and it's not even like those kind like hungry/thirsty but don't eat/drink kind it's like i literally have no desire for it??? hahhah  but so yeah. i'm quite sure what triggered it was just me being stressed and worried over laptop prices and plane ticket prices. bc there was sitex then and when i went on that thursday, the lapotp that i was eyeing was NOT ON SALE on sitex. or...