Frustratingly Mediocre

well hello there! didn't think i was gonna continue doing this anymore if i were to be honest but wow look at me !! i'm doing it!! so after exchange and internship and the introduction of covid, it was time to go back to the school that i've not been in for the past year.  well- technically i wasn't going back physically  because, you know, covid (': but i was back to studying again! did i still know how to be a student? oh my gosh!  iykyk so it was finally time to take 4k mods!! something that i have been dreading because it just seems so hard and my grades are bad enough as it is to have something so significant drag it down even further. plsplsplspls let me keep my second upper plsplspls   aaannyyywwaaayy overloaded again (what's new, really) but like i always (was it always? or just recently) say, the module i overload with is usually and language and i don't really view language as another module so i don't feel like i'm overloading.  Year of St...

today is 27/4. i'm still in the midst of exams (today first day and i just took my first one today (':) but i guess i'll just start on this first LOL. knowing my lazy ass i'll probably finish this at the end of my exchange or something like that. [edit from 28/12/19: HAHAHAHA literally i'm going home soon and i just decided to look at this again. will i finish it? only time will tell]  yes!! imma be on exchange next sem! eggcites hehehhe although now dealing w all these exchange stuff is kind of difficult but oh wells once i finish dealing w it i can 安安心心的 spend my summer and then go on exchange! i'll try my best to write on exchange too! (although knowing me it's probably just gonna be one or two posts summing up my entire exchange LOL) so this sem i did the sane human thing and took 5 mods. ohkay lah actually i took 6 but i dropped 1 because.... i cannot do dis HAHAHHAHA like i went for 2 lectures and was like nOPE. so i dropped it :3 it was a philo mod ...

got my results yesterday (26 dec) and i'm really hoping it doesn't take me one entire damn semester to get this out again HAHAHAH but then again i have less mods this sem so hopefully all will be well? hahhaha i think this sem has been a lot of questioning myself and wondering why did i make such terrible decisions and just.. idk just trying to figure life out whilst worrying non-stop about my results hais ): but i think it taught me to plan ahead, to check and do my research properly and to really know that God has an ultimate plan in the end: that He won't do anything that will ultimately harm me. although it did take me a while to find that out.. hahha anyway i had 4 days of sch this sem, 3 of which started at 8am and knowing the night owl me, i basically killed myself la HAHAHAHAHHA i still thought i would get a better sleep schedule by doing this but NOPE it was just week after week of texting the cell grp for someone to call me at 7:30 to make sure that i was awak...