Frustratingly Mediocre

So i know im severely behind on my weeks (lmao it's probably gonna stop alr la zhen me ban HAHA) but i just really had to document this. So im in fcbc's women's encounter now and day 1 just ended.  And like the last session was about inner healing. Specifically rejection. Me amanda and liann couldnt make it for campus enc so we ended up having to go for women's enc and most of them there are maybe in their 40s like that? So the rejection was talking a lot about like rejection from the womb, how they were not planned or their parents wanted a son and not a daughter or that they faced abuse/neglect as a child and i'll be completely honest: i couldnt relate AT ALL. Ive been incredibly blessed by Him that i was born into such an amazing and loving family. I was planned, my parents were totally cool w me being a girl, i lived a sheltered, protected and loved life. Basically i didnt have any horrors of childhood. My childhood was really just blessing after blessing after ...

so i've been playing dots (the story version) on my phone since like early june and i managed to accumulate over 180 levels le. and like.. recently when i wanted to play it somehow i couldnt click the start game button for nuts??? and no matter what i did it didn't seem to work. and like it was once connected to my facebook and google play and everything so i was thinking, oh it would save my progress right? and so i deleted and reinstalled NO IT DID NOT well, it did a little bit. like until level 36 ._. turned out the prob was just bc i turned on the lock multitask key funciton in my game tools wtaf ._. sian la. i really feel damn sian and sad about it. this saddness is real. it's gonna be something i can channel into dance one day LMAO but really. i kept telling myself not to be so sad about it and that there was nothing to be so sad about. what's done is already done and no point crying over split milk but i can't help feeling really upset about it?? sianzz... re...

so the past week has just been a week of blessings and the opportunity to witness so many acts of a Father's love, from both my Heavenly Father and my earthly father. it's truly been such a blessed week and i cannot be more thankful for it. instead of starting off with a long intro like i normally do (or rather have done for the past two weeks HAHA) i'll just jump straight into the days since there's something to say about each day (: Monday 28 August 2017 i had to wake up damn early on monday because i had driving at 8:30 ._. it was my final lesson before my test on tuesday and honestly i was feeling a little scared la, bc i'm just not that confident in driving esp failing once already, i really didn't wanna fail it again because if i do then i'll have to renew pdl and everything and it's basically just really irritating lor hahaha cos there's so much to do and so much money to spend ;A; driving has legit sucked out almost all my earnings from worki...

So this is just gonna be a short post that i wanted to put up! Just now when i got home, i came across the scene of my dad discussing w my mum what performances to watch. It was based off the silver arts thingy and it was really heartening to see them so interested to take the time to attend all these performances. My dad, someone who fell asleep for a short while in nutcracker, and has probably fallen asleep in many other performances before, is over there asking my mum to hurry up decide so that he can get tickets for a performance. Makes me wonder how much they actually enjoy the arts? Growing up, i barely saw them go for anything to do with the arts apart from my dance concert (i emphasise conCERT without the the s because i only had one ._.) And all those secondary/primary school performances by cousins and everything. It makes me wonder, how much did they give up? Im sure they were both busy when we were kids. They probably didnt have the time to go for all these. And now that th...

Week 2 down! Officially done with 2 weeks of school and i dont know what to feel about it. next week is when all the tutorials start and even though i dont exactly have that many tutorials to slot into my time table (yeah i only have one HAHA), idk i think it'll take some getting use to? to know that my tuesdays no longer begin at 4pm but at 2pm instead. and idk how to feel about that. suddenly i have much less rest time but yet my workload is getting more and more hahha.. i guess i'm already a lucky person considering the fact that i have only 1 final and 1 tutorial to ballot for hahahha anyway, to get on with the title. i'm sure if you read a few posts back, there'd be a post about me feeling left out in rag. i wrote about how i was a bit sad that i joined late and thus couldn't really connect with everyone so i felt really left out because everyone already had their own stories to share and here i was... having nothing to be in on. i thought that it was just gonn...