Frustratingly Mediocre

Hey, I'm in school rn and I feel damn feverish omg. Like it's so cold and I have a sore throat and I'm tired even when I slept at 10:45 yesterday... My friends say I look pale. And I have cold and sweaty palms. And they say I feel feverish. But I took my temperature and it's 37. So idk . Don't think I can miss training today cos got roll off yeah. xoxo Hope™

Sitting in the cab now... rushing for ballet . It started like... 32 mins ago but I really have to go today cos they say that tailor coming. Then must go cos she's measuring for the exam leotard. Omg really hope that I can make it on time >

Happy birthday Natasha!! :DD hehe i wrapped her present alr~! and posted a fanfic for her too! a special one-shot birthday present ^~^ hope she likes it (: haha i'm sorry for not blogging in such a long time... will you ever forgive me?? DDD: i'll try my best (: anyways, i dont really have much to say since yeah, i know Natasha personally and i dont have to write in blogger like how i do for so many other people... haha. but yeah. anyways, do you want the link to the story? it's pretty stupid imo ): it's here . i'm a writer but i'm a terrible writer T.T anyways so yeah, i'll try to get back asap? haha. and it's pretty late so i have to leave soon (: annyeong~ i'll just sing a birthday song yeah? 생일축하합니다! 생일축하합니다! 사랑하는 나타샤 , 생일축하합니다!!! heh e, God bless (: oh, and i dk why but i never really had the habit to give Natasha a nickname. like i dont call her Nat or Sasha or Tas ha or anything really idek why. i've kn own her since i was eight yet i don...

HOLY SHIT GUYS! I SURVIVED OBS OMG!!!! :DDDDDDD hehe will blog about it moreeeee later~~~ (: time to check aff~ first civilization food i ate was twister fries :D

HOLY SHIT GUYS! I SURVIVED OBS OMG!!!! :DDDDDDD hehe will blog about it moreeeee later~~~ (: time to check aff~ first civilization food i ate was twister fries :D

I just suddenly thought of it haha... but you know how in the past (and now still) girls (like performers) had to wear all those revealing clothes... low cut.. etc? and men could be casually dressed up in a shirt and jeans? I just realised that nowadays, men have to do it too .so many guys going shirtless on stage... etc.. haha. Just saying .and yeah, it just came to my mind now :p I think I gave indigestion BTW ): I feel bloated too ): xoxo Hope™

Watch "130119 Special Stage B1A4 BTOB EXO GDA in KL" on YouTube Ohkay u go see around the time of 3:59 there (I think )where they zoom in on Yixing dancing ?you see his face. He's like grimacing in pain.... is it because of his back? Or is that just one of the natural faces you have when you dance? I'm hoping it's the latter omg :\ And did u notice all those singing were wearing white? Haha. Yay (: Xiumin got to sing(: to me, everyone's a good singer unless they make my ears bleed. Haha xD hope he'll have more singing lines yeah (: Bacon's an emotional singer.... maybe? Haha. Sigh. Gg obs tmr. Gonna miss out on so many SHINee stuff .or kpop rather .I think when I come back I'll be like completely blur about what they're talking about... lol I'll TRY to write my diary so I can transfer it over here... haha I know I still owe you the harbin trip one :o Well, wish me luck (: first time I'm away from my family w my friends for more than 2/3...

i know we fans get super excited when we see our idols. like what the hell if i wasnt excited there would be a problem with me ohkay. i screamed so fucking much in smtown omg. didnt even need to be SHINee. anyone come out oso scream like fuck. but one thing i wont do is to be a sasaeng. never. i promise myself to never become that. because why? that's really obsession. what i have is not obsession. it's like i care about them so much... idek how to explain i'm not that free. i'm sure our idols would want us to spend some time on our studies and everyday life, not every waking moment on them i find that sasaengs rob idols of whatever little ounce of personal life that they still have. yes. they knew fame and recognition came with the contract, but dont you think we should at least let them have SOME privacy?  especially in airports, they sometimes make life difficult for them. why? too many people. human jam.  they hurt them. this is the main point i'm writing about ...

hai! omg sorry for not blogging in such a long time! D: been busy yeah. idk why but school's just so hectic now omg. anyways, yeah. ohkay so i have this classmate called dina and she's a fucking bitch ohkay. i'm sorry if dina/dina's friends read this or what but dont deny it. dina is a bitch. first of, when we were thinking what class motto we should have, she changes all our suggestions to her own! like wtf?! she doesnt write what we tell her! then you ask us suggest for what? like we said "Nobody is perfect, but us" and then she ended up writing "No1 is perfect, but WeR" and we were like wth?! the on we said was a thousand times better lor. luckily dion helped us rewrite it and stuff (: she's nice :D and secondly. cos i'm class treasurer (yes, be shocked), i have to go around collecting class funds. then most people passed to me alr. just left like a few. and dina is one of them. and you know how when you ask NORMAL people they will be  lik...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR DEAR DANCING MACHINE OF EXO!!!! XD hehe they should be in malaysia now, right? for gda... and they're having a mini holiday too! for five days (: anyways,,, dont exactly know what to say :O haha hope they will have a great time in malaysia!!! sigh, so close yet so far ): hope SHINee's doing well~ i'm so sorry but i'm talking about SHINee even when this is supposed to be about Kai >< anyways, i saw on twitter that they'll be singing happy birthday once EXO arrives in malaysia (: how nice (: kay on to my letter ^^ Dear Jongin, First of all, a very happy 19th birthday!!! (((: hope you're doing well and you're not hurt haha. ohkay second, i seriously dont see how you look like Taemin.... haha no offense >< but i just dont really see how you two look alike :O and i dont see how you're tan either.... prolly cos i'm tanner than you xP  anyways, hope that you'll be happy and healthy... hope that you wont get any injuries...