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Woah. Like seriously woah right now. Just by looking through the tags of #jumpshot, I find my senior on instagram. LOL at least I think she's my senior...? Haha Cos a friend of mine, Angelica, posted a pic of her jumpshot. And from there I just decided to look through photos tagged with jumpshot. And then I saw this photo of three girls jumping by the beach. And I was thinking that it looked a lot like the east coast park beach. And so I went to look through her photos to find out if she really was from Singapore. But I found out even more. I found a pic of her and her friend in the tkg pe uni and I was damn shocked Ohkay. Haha Her name's dopeypotatoo by the way... Haha. Just saying. But it's cool :p and just incase I saw it wrongly, she posted another photo of her friend with a braid in her hair saying she braided it and everything. And the friend was wearing a tkg uni and the background was the sac ☺ Haha yup Ohkay random. Byezzz xoxo Hope™

i'm sad because THIS happened in SMTOWN SG and yet i failed to notice it T.T i'm really upset about this ohkay. in SMTOWN SG during Hope i saw Taemin alr, so i was kindda looking for Yixing. and i was telling Eva to find him for me. but i really couldn't find him T.T I'm sorry my baby boy T-T heh.. well, at least there's this nice gif here. keke. it's sulay. lol. still a little confused at the couple but wtv. :P YIXING IS SO CUTE THAT TRALLALALLALALLALLA i remember when i saw this gif i was still like WHICH SMTOWN DID THIS COME FROM. then after a while i realised it was SMTOWN SG ._. -gross sobbing-

SHIT I'M SORRY I DIDNT POST EARLIER. IT'S LIKE I KNEW IT WAS CHANNIE AND HYESUNG'S BIRTHDAY BUT I JUST FORGOT TO BLOG ABOUT IT TTTTATTTT haha ohkay so on to topic. who should i wish first? i guess Chanyeol haha because me likey Chanyeollie's hair in SMTOWN SG xD idk. i think it suits him well ^~^ ohkay on to the letter :P AYO WHADDUP CHANYEEEEOOOOLL!! xD haha happy birthday our dear happy virus!! you're really cute and you're a bias list wrecker. like seriously. my first two biases will always be Lay and Luhan but after that it's just a blur. everyone's one par. and you're cute. hehe. and idk if this is supposed to be an insult or compliment to you, but you make a pretty girl. LOL. anyways, seeing you in SMTOWN was really fun (: hope to see you again soon hehe :D and i'm sorry we didnt sing you a birthday song in SMTOWN T.T i was getting ready to sing and everything but it seemed like everyone just forgot about it and went to Kris D: oh, and like...

I'M BACK 'SUP GUYS. MISSED ME?! XD no? fine :< -pouts- and honestly i was pouting when typing that xD my dad's like sitting at the sofa now... hope he didnt see me xP well, one thing i wanna tell you first is, BE PREPARED. I DIDNT TAKE ANY PICS THAT DAY IDEK WHY HEHE ANOTHER WARNING. I'LL BE TALKING ABOUT AH BOYS TO MEN. SO DONT READ IF YOU DONT WANT SPOILERS :P ohkay so yeah. what happened? so i think like just the day before we planned it. haha. cos there was this student's special thing... hang on. i think i can send that to my email... ohkay nehmind i cant find it. anyways it's at this karaoke called suites at Bugis+. like for 3 hours only $10, got free drink oso. then if you bring 5 or more friends got free food. haha but i only went with serene luh :P ohkay so yeah... my alarm clock didnt really work on me that morning >< or rather it did, but um, let's just say i turned it off and fell back asleep xD anyways, i wasnt late or anything. in fact...

just watched SHINee's 1000 years ^~^ took me long enough to watch it... lol. anyways, it's really sweet, i guess. i understand a little of what they're saying. i think it's like some young boy? who's suffering. like from a terminal sickness or something. and he reminisces about the times before he fell sick, like when he and his parents would go out, and i think because his father is a clown/mime, they'd always play around with the red nose. and then he has to go into operation and i think like before that his father tries to cheer him up by doing the mime thing again, but it fails. and then some thingy happens and what not, and i think the father sacrifices himself to save the boy... like yeah. i dont really get the releasing of balloons part, but yeah. i kindda guess the father going instead of the son because they're all looking at their clocks, and then the bus he boards goes into the sky. so yeahhh... one part i dont really get is why Taemin raised his ...

i happened to be on tumblr... so.. :D my brother's going out later in the evening, so i guess that's when i'll do the vlog kays? (: sorry if it's like really delayed or anything.... but yeah.hope i dont forget anything :P how taemin attacks kai LOL Taemin and Kai are so close :P and it's cute ^~^ SHIT WAS THIS IN SINGAPORE?! or maybe not haha. cos Jjong and Taem seem to be wearing the same clothes. either that or i never see properly. haha. but. i dont really see when Taemin's sunglasses fall though... BECAUSE WE LISTEN TO OUR BABY TAEM AND NOT THE AJUSSIS XD ❤❤❤ ❥❥❥ ♡♡♡ ♥♥♥ xoxo Hope™

my heart hurts to see you like that. i cried. if it hurts, dont do it. i'm ohkay. it's ohkay. even if you didnt appear on that day, but they told me you were resting, i'm ohkay. please rest and i want you to get better. i'm a little disappointed in myself that i didnt notice this that day... probably because i was too busy screaming my heart out when i saw you guys. and probably because i was way too far and the big screens didnt focus on you. i think you slipped, did you? and some said that you almost fainted. please. rest. honesty idgaf if i dont see you when i go to concerts. if you're fine, then i'm happy. i will post a vlog of SMTOWN because there is just too much to type. please. please. please. idk what i'm feeling now. but you... seeing you like this... please. just please. idek what to say now. and i'm tearing up again. wow great job lee xian. just how many times have you made yourself tear up today?

i'm leaving house soon, but i just wanna say this first. i know i should be thankful that i can go to smtown, but fml. everything is sold out. i cant even get a lightstick.

MENTAL.BREAKDOWN.

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG OHKAY I KNOW YOU THINK I'M EXCITED NOW RIGHT? WELL, YOU'RE SOMEWHAT TRUE BUT I'M ALSO REALLY REALLY WORRIED OHKAY. CLARISSE IS QUEUING UP NOW AND THE QUEUE IS REALLY LONG OHKAY. SHE'S NOT SURE IF SHE CAN GET WHAT SHE WANTS OMG. I REALLY SCARED I CANNOT GET LIGHTSTICK. NOW REALLY ALL I WANT IS THE LIGHTSTICK. I'M OHKAY IF I DONT GET OTHERS BUT THE LIGHTSTICK IS REALLY IMPORTANT TO ME OMG. PLEASE LET HER BE ABLE TO BUY IT!! T.T either that or later when i go, which is really late, i hope can buy. please. omg. i'm feeling so panicky now.  but i know being panicky at home does no help. so imma pray to God and also watch Boyfriend's W Academy to calm myself down. i have to pray to God now. for a miracle i have to pray to a miracle worker and that miracle worker is God (: btw, did i mention that SHINee is rehearsing now? Clarisse can see them (: i hope the pics come up soon (: i'm trying to calm myself down now. ohkay gotta go pray. bye! xox...

LOOK AT THIS. JUST LOOK AT THIS. LOOK AT THE SECOND AND SIXTH WISH ON MY WISHLIST. this feels so unreal. it's like i'm in a dream. when i had written those wishes down (the sixth one, not the second one. the second one could only be fulfilled if i did well in school, which i somewhat did), i had never thought it would happen. i wrote it down there cos it was like a dream of mine. and now it's happening. it's really happening i dont believe this. in less than 24 hours i'll be seeing these stars. if you're asking me if i'm excited, my answer to you is HELL NO. EXCITED IS AN UNDERSTATEMENT OF WHAT I'M FEELING NOW. IDEK WHAT I'M FEELING NOW OHKAY. I JUST FEEL SO HAPPY AND EVERYTHING OMG.... i cant believe my wishlist is really gonna be fulfilled. i havent said this anywhere before, or have i? , but God really works wonders. i'm telling you it's the truth. from last year, i prayed to God to let me be able to meet SHINee by the end of this year, a...

I'm proud to say i'm proud of my niece ^~^ hehe the girl did so well omg. she cried out of happiness ohkay :'D hehe. according to my mu, she asked my cousin (her father) "how come when people happy will cry one?" she freaking got ALL A* OHKAY. AND DISTINCTION FOR HCL :O i got like... much lower :B at first when i heard that she cried, i tot she was expecting higher. haha end up it was she happy :P and pea got her results back too! she did really well too! ^~^ heh. ohkay yeah/ byez xoxo Hope™

did you notice the date today? haha anyways, i feel really bad for procrastinating and not updating my blog >< but then again, i think i've found a new style in blogging. haha instead of blogging like one day one day, i've become like. everytime something outta the ordinary happens i'll blog about it. i think this is better no? better than me writing down the dates then going "nothing happened today. sorry ><" or "i really forgot what happened today" right? haha. ohkay not the point. ohkay so like what i usually say, the past week's been nothing much. my parents came home though ^~^ and recently i've been watching Hawaii Five-0 with my brother and father (: it's actually my brother first. but he was watching season 2. so some parts i was a little confused. then after that because my dad didnt watch, he decided to watch from season 1 and so now i'm watching with him (: although i've alr watched some episodes.. so... haha.. ...

Ohkay so I found this picture while reading a sulay fic. I'm not a shipper, since I don't see the connection between them. I have a feeling they're just like the left out ones so people decided to pair them together :p Anyways, so yeah, and I found this pic. One thing I must say is that this person is a good photo editor ^~^ but I figured out it was fake easily. How? It's really simple (: One. I've seen this photo before. It's actually a pic of Yixing and Baekhyun. So wont it be weird that Yixing's in tw EXACT same position? Two. Suho's head is too big, haha xD I'm not sure if it really is, but I just think it is :p Three. Suho's the same height/taller than Yixing. Now how can that happen when our dear angel here is a shorty? XP even though i'm shorter than him but that's Ohkay cos I'm a girl xD he's I think 172 right? And Yixing is I think 177 haha. And yeah. Keke. But I must say, I really thought it was real for a second there...

shit this is so damn cute omg xD thirteen seconds of pure cuteness :DDDDDD

Haha I'm at my cousin's now and there was a snail on their window. So her brother threw a piece of salt at it, and it shriveled up back into its shell. And fell off the window :p I know this is mean but this is our experiment haha. Although her brother, who is also my cousin lol, sucks at throwing Keke. He had to throw the salt a lot of times :p ohkies annyeong haha xoxo Hope™ Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.9

do you see that little gadget i added at the bottom? ^~^ hehe sorry for not updating about my life for a week. your author is seriously a lazy bitch lol. k bye xoxo Hope™

Fucking thing. Fucking uncontactable. So u can call me but I can't fucking call you? Just what the fuck is your problem man. Walao. What the fuck la can. Make me spend 2hrs traveling back and forth for a damn fucking form. Why can't we fucking mail the thing?! Mum asked me to go now but you know what? FUCK IT. I will go when I feel like it. Now my mood is damn bad so 0 chance of me gg now. Fuck my phone's autocorrect man. Some words anyhow correct de lor. Byez. See when I fucking feel like it then I shall fucking go

omg. just omg ohkay. i'm feeling really frustrated right now. before i joined the kpop fandom, did these fanwars happen everytime there was MAMA? like seriously on like every video i see now, there are bashing comments. every little thing. every scolds everyone ohkay. and now i'm having a little trouble with the ELFs. ohkay for one, i dont think all ELFs are like that. heck, i think majority are nice and understanding people. there are just this small handful that makes everyone think badly of them. two, i know you love your band ttvm, but i find you're being a little selfish here. Suju's winning alot already. there're top for so many things. would it kill you to just let like Shinhwa or SHINee or whoever win just ONE prize? we all know they worked hard, and we as fans should acknowledge their hardwork. who knows how many sleepless nights they've suffered while preparing the comebacks. who knows how many injuries they might've incurred, be it minor or major ...

Pic's at the bottom. I think. Ohkay. So I was reading the Maknae's tears and then I came across the a/n at the bottom of chapter 5. And I'm no detective here, but doesn't it sound like this girl is in depression? Dude. I've read The Cuts Underneath before Ohkay. Like a really long time back. Never knew it was the same person writing these two stories but don't you think that this girl might be trying to attempt self harm or suicide? Another thing that shocked me was that when I looked in the comments, NO ONE TALKED ABOUT HER CONFESSION OF WANTING TO HARM HERSELF WITH A ROD OR WHATEVER IT SAYS. NO ONE TALKED ABOUT HER MENTIONING SHE'S DOING WHAT TO THE IDOLS WHAT SHE WISHES SHE CAN DO TO HERSELF. Dude. Does this not sound like a depressed girl? HOW DOES THIS NOT SOUND LIKE A DEPRESSED GIRL TO A PERSON WITH A RIGHT FRAME OF MIND?! Ohkay maybe they were a little awkward or scared and didn't know how to comfort her. But no one said anything. I kindda think t...

just got the news for the class posting! i'm now a proud 3e2-ian. lol. but i'm a little confused. cos jolynn, say she in 3e5 but she got same combi as me. prolly they changed it from last year? haha i think last year all G is go 3e4 or 5. haha oh ya. i think jolynn in 3e4 :P sigh... was so hoping that i'd be in the same class as eva. end up she in 3e3 T-T well, there's gabrielle... and i just found out that en yu will be there too.. but i'm not close! ): nehmind, i shall just be a loner there then ^~^

ohkay first imma put a huge ass picture here which i think is gonna cover bits of stuff on this blog but i'm sorry. i just HAVE to do it. maybe you can click the pic to see it better. haha like open it in a new tab or something. there. are. just. so. many. things. i. want. to. say. of. this. photo. ohkay so as you can see, i highlighted some with diff colours so it'd be easier and less confusing for me to talk about them (: so anything with the usual colour is just my thoughts and has nothing to do with the comments kay? first things first. THIS IS A DAMN LONG COMMENT OHKAY. i had to click the 'show the comment' thing how many times ohkay :O ohkay and i really wanna get this off my chest. i'm partially offended and irritated by this here. i know i shouldnt be but i cant help it. ohkay dude, you're at wrong here. you cant say who looked better in the shirt. personal preference. some may think Lay looked great in the shirt, others may think Jonghyun was awesome in...

ohkay i honestly would've just ignored mr/miss yutalex8 there. although i dont think it's wrong for babydenden81 and SuperDarkGuardian to argue with him/her. because they're standing up for our fandom. they feel wronged and they want to clear their name,. that is a good trait. but another trait can be completely ignoring them. why? because if our conscience is clear, what do we have to be scared about? if our conscience is clear, there's nothing to be worried about. i'm serious. i've done this trick before. i posted an irritated status on fb on this girl, but i didnt state her name. and she saw it. and because her conscience wasnt clear, she replied to me saying that it wasnt her fault. this proves she did it. i didnt say a name. this is why i dont bother replying to stuff like that. i dont bother replying to people that try to bash SNSD. i dont reply to people that try to bash SONES. because my conscience is clear. but you also cant really blame them for this. ...

IT'S BEEN EXACTLY A YEAR SINCE 11/11/11 OMG. IT'S LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY. I CANT BELIEVE IT'S ALREADY BEEN A YEAR :O speaking of which, i just realised that i'll be spending 12/12/12 in China! :O ohkay i probably should talk about my other days too. haha. so yeah. what happened? oh um, on wednesday well, that day i honestly didnt do anything. like i really just sat at home and rotted xP packed the house a little though xD hehe then on thursday i woke up a little earlier cos i wanted to leave house earlier and buy lunch then go for training. so like, i'll eat lunch there and everything ^~^ initially, i had wanted to buy chicken porridge for lunch, but the stall i went to was out of chicken porridge ): so i bought mayonnaise chicken. then after that i went to ssc. it was pretty quiet there... aqilah and blythe alr came, but they left somewhere again. it's a normal thing. haha. so i was just sitting there like a loner :P and then nikhil came. haha. he said he just c...

ohkay i mightve gotten the number wrong. but hehe. it was fun just now. i mean. me and my brother were thinking of what to have for dinner. and i actually wanted subway cos got some promotion. but then the promotion one person can only redeem once so cannot. then kor was saying that he wanted to buy hokkien mee. but we alr had hokkien mee for lunch so i was like hokkien mee again? then he suggested pizza xD like delivery. and he looked into the box my mum puts our money in, and he was like, we can use the $50  here ^~^ and i was like, what if mummy comes home and goes 'where did the $50 go?' and he was just shrugging and i was like IT VAPOURISED :O haha. this is pretty irrelevant but i thought it'd be nice to share since i actually dont get along with my brother that well (: now deciding whether to order pizza hut or domino's. hehe. i'm gonna get so fat. omg. haha. time for excercise. i say that all the time but so far i havent excercised :P ohkay yeah. imma go now ...

haha yup, i'm doing the 30 day challenge thing again xD it's fun ohkay~! so day one is my favourite kpop boy band. and you know who it is right? xD so yeah, i'm putting the pics here: link to story: http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/310726

TMC❤  ^~^ this is gonna be fast k? haha. cos i was packing and forgot the time >< so Dear Serene, happy birthday my dear daughter! i'm sorry i have to rush this,  but i think  i pretty much said everything to you in the letter i wrote to you so i actually dk why i'm doing this.. but um, wish you luck with your darling boy yeah? haha and your whale sound xD forever rememebering that :DD ohkay i think i dont have much to say lol. i think this is so redundant >< xoxo Hope™ Ps. i forgot to say one thing: HER BIRTHDATE THIS YEAR IS 10-11-12 XD [edited; 111112]

hehe sorry for being a lazy ass and not updating >< but wow. this week actually passed kindda slow.. i think.. haha i keep thinking today is sunday and stuff >< anyways.. so yeah. Serene's birthday celebration! we couldn't do it today (it's her actual bdae today) because Sarah's not free ): so yeah. met up at like 10:30 with rene, chan and eva cos we wanted to have time without lim. i'm sorry, but it's like everyone hates you. i had a bitching session with bowling girls before and yeah. everyone doesnt like you. sorry. i know there could be more that meets the eye... but what you're doing really seems unreasonable >_< so yeah. met at dhoby ghaut. actually i met serene at kallang first. we decided to be like, pretty girly. hehe. :D like i was wearing a crop tee (i know this is not girly) and skorts :P and serene actually wore a dress and eyeliner haha. we actually wanted to like all wear eyeliner, but then i dont have eyeliner haha. and i...