Frustratingly Mediocre

(((Sozz for the orientation of the pictures hahahah ><))) Anyways this is damn random but i think like the last time i wore my earrings was back in 2014 when i went for prom or something?!?!?!? I legit dont rmb wearing my earrings at all hahaha havent worn them in such a long long long long time. I was thinking abt it last night (when i was trying but failing to sleep :\) and jn i decided to try wearing them again. As expected the earhole kindda closed up. And i was using those kind of earrings yknow not the normal ones but those screw ones that ppl use on like helix piercings/second/third lobe piercings and stuff hahaha >< and ofc that one is kindda uh way too big? Esp for me since ive not worn earrings in so long. It kindda hurt actl so i took it out >< then i decided to search for my old earrings (ive prolly not bought any new ones since like 2013 or smth) and found these ribbon ones i rmb buying when i was either in lower sec or pri sch! Hahaha >< Also i was...

Random shit but like omg recently ive been picking up money on the floor quite a bit. Ohkay only twice but considering the fact that this doesnt rly ever happen??? And i know it's 7th month but by money i dont mean coins. I mean notes. NOTES. I legit picked up a $10 note a few days ago at my lift lobby and jn i picked up $2 under a block i was walking through to get home. O damn that's like $12 enough to last me one week HAHAHAHA But like idk what i shld do w the money??? Cos like in sch if that happens i'll just pass to go. But then in public places like this what am i sppd to do?? So i just kindda like thought hm why not i just tithe this money? Idk who dropped it, but then i'll just help them use this money for the furtherence of His kingdom ah (: sounds like a good idea right!! Hehe >< So yeah, maybe if i get to pick up more money i'll be able to help more people tithe and contribute (: praise God for letting me help others tithe hahahaha >< Hope™

Am i that easily read? Are my emotions so easily seen? Because my mum just came into the room to tell me that my dad says ive been looking v sad recently and she wanted to know if anything was wrong. Ive been so busy w school that the only time i see them is in the morning and at like 9+10 pm when i get home from sch (usually w daddy picking me up haha). But yeah really. Am i that obvious? I will say that everything hasnt been gg so good for me ah. ive been pretty stressed and down about school and art and life and future and all that and things are just bothering me quite a bit? I alr told them abt sch and stuff but like idk how to tell them abt future? Like i legit dk. How do i tell them that i wanna go to korea not only to have a solo holiday but to also go for auditions? How do i tell them that becoming a trainee is like a dream for me? Is this something i can even tell them? idk it sounds damn stupid and they'll prolly just laugh it off or think it's a phase? Idk. If it rl...