Frustratingly Mediocre

can i just say that i don't really know what to feel about my prelims??? ohkay so for compo i kindda knew that it was gonna be report or proposal cos mdm haryati was so adamant about us doing practices on it. and it really turned out to be a report haha. forgot a little of my format and everything but meh. it shouldn't be that bad... right??? oh i cry. and then compo was kindda funny hahaha. the question is: what is your idea of happiness? who are the people that make you happy and what events make you happy? or smth like that la can you guess what i did? YES HAHA. I USED RV'S HAPPINESS IN IT HAHAHAHHAHAHA. but i didn't really know the lyrics so i kindda just made up my own. i have a feeling that i wrote it a little out of point tho ): the paper 2 omg i don't know what to feel about it lor do you want to know what happened? i'm sure you do huh. ohkay so i kindda finished it like super super quickly???? i don't even know omg i need to slow down my speed of do...

sorry that i'm suddenly blogging so much about kpop now but i'm so happy that taeminnie managed to win when he just debuted solo!!!!!! i didn't really expect much because i know it's natural for someone to not win when they've just debuted but i voted anyway and he looked like he had a really high chance of winning and i'm really really happy that he won omg like seriously the moment he won i just couldn't stop myself from smiling and feeling so happy for him even though i already knew that he would've won since that was the title of the video. like his expression and everything just made me smile so much <3 even now, when i'm typing this, i still can't stop smiling. well yeah, i can, but the moment i relax my lips into a neutral expression, i will immediately feel the need to smile again omg he looked really touched and everything like he was about to cry and awwwww super junior and taemin <333 there were so many hugs going around awwwwwww...

GUYS I FREAKING LOVE MAMACITA OHKAY. LIKE I JUST HEARD IT AND I LOVE IT ALREADY. IT'S SO AMAZING OMG THE DANCE IS REALLY REALLY REALLY COOL AND I REALLY REALLY WANNA BE ABLE TO LEARN IT BUT GIVEN MY SKILLS AND THE FACT THAT I HAVE O'S IN A MONTH OR SO I CANT DO IT ANYTIME SOON BUT HOLY SHIT. THE SONG'S AMAZING TOO OMG. I LOVE THE CHORUS HAHAHHA. IT'S SOOOO NICEEEE :DDDD although there was one part where shindong was like "so shut your tongue" i'm pretty sure it's mouth. just sayin' AND OMG THE MV HAHAHHA IT'S HILARIOUS. IT'S LIKE A BIT CRACK??? I THINK I SOUND LIKE I'M ON CRACK SORRY I NEARLY HEAVED UP MY LUNCH IN BALLET JUST NOW. FRUIT SELLER KANGIN IS FREAKING HILARIOUS. WHEN LEETEUK (?) HIT INTO HIM AND HE DROPPED HIS WATERMELON, HIS EXPRESSION WAS AS IF HE JUST DROPPED A NEWBORN HAHAHAHAHAHA. and when they showed bounty hunter donghae, he was scratching his head w his gun and i'm just like can you imagine if someone decided to s...

Yknow how everyone's discussing about where they'll go for their tertiary education? Somehow it seems like im the only person that's so confused and im like 徘徊-ing at the crossroad of poly, jc and and arts school. Not kidding. At the start i always thought of going to a jc. Or rather i used to think about going to sota but then didnt get accepted so whoop. Dont think i'll want to apply for it for jc too... Then after that i was brought to so many different open houses. First was mj and they had such a fun school culture and everything it seemed really great. There was tj too and it was really nice! And it's also daddy's alma mater so.... but then after that i see eyjj and her work and im just like.... Then i think of poly. Cos i get to take the course i want, which will probably have something to do with the media. But then later i have a teacher telling me that in order to get into a uni after i graduate, i have to score consistently well for 6 exams while in j...

Wah shit the weather so good to sleep and yet here i am getting ready for school (－－〆)

made by me, and only me. mummy helped in the end to tie the ribbons and gave some ideas on whether i should get the excess paper. bought the paper from popular, wire came with it and ribbons are from daiso that i bought prolly last year when making the hairband for mummy. so idk if i heard this right, but today is apparently the last day of the seventh month i think??? visited yeye today (: also went to go see some of my other family members (: gave yeye food and i really hope he liked it x) also made him roses!!! we've been talking about me making roses for yeye so that we can display it there for him but unfortunately i've never been able to find rainbow foam to make nice ones. i've been putting this off since december last year (sorry yeye) so i really wanted to make it asap. and then i just decided to buy rose paper. it's not that i don't like rose paper or anything, but i think it's easier to make with thicker material like foam. so yeah. bought the paper o...

happy 1000 posts guys! my thousandth was apparently the bitch one but then again it counts my drafts and everything so technically my thousandth post will be 11 more after this :P correction: 10

Yknow i dontnknow if it's because of my previous experience with such a lousy phone or anything, but i realised that i seem to be really paranoid about this phone going crazy on me....... ive had this phone for maybe a month? And everytime something remotely similar to my old phone happens, i start getting scared that this phone's gonna spiral downhill really quickly... i really like this phone, so im really kindda worried of it becoming like my old one. I really dont want to be stuck w some lousy phone for another two years again..... ): Like once in a loooooong while, there will be this problem where i cannot open any of my folders as it would lead me to another app (it happened today and it was my music player app. Idk what happened last time) im really scared that this is a sign that my phone is going crazy cos PLS PLS PLS DONT. And then just now cytus hung on me and i had to force restart my phone.......... i couldnt even exit it or off my screen ohkay. So im just being a ...

Like he can totally see me and he could have just simply stoppe but he blatantly just continued driving like wtf?????? Walao this kind of ppl damn annoying. I hope dont have a lot of these bastards.... got so nice bus driver then why hire someone like this?? YEah, your job is to drive buses but that doesnt mean you literally only open ur doors for a few mins then drive off regardless of how many ppl are waving for ur bus to stop right. Luckily the next bus is coming in 8 mins so ohkay la... anyways no much rush cos im just gonna go to tamp lib to study again... and also maybe go buy some stuff hahaahahahahahaha. Urgh annoying Hope™

So im on the bus now and there're a lot of tkgians cos we all just end sch and everything. So im taking bus 43 now, and it's freaking crowded. So just now when i had just entered, there were A LOT of unfilled seats at the back of the bus. But no one was willing to sit in them. Yes sure our journey to the mrt station is quite short but i guess if we were in civillian clothes we wouldve just sat down, right? This leads me to think about stomp. Had the practice of stomping students who did not give up their seats been too common in the past that now all students are actually paranoid to sit in mrts and buses when we are in our school uniform? it sure seems like it to me In fact, the only time my schoolmates actually moved to sit down is when the bus driver stood up and scolded them for not sitting when there were so many empty seats at the back. Even though the practice of stomping students not giving up their seats on public transport has long been abolished - most probably from ...

Omg idek what to feel now ohkay. It's getting really really annoying for me and idk izzit because my computer is going crazy and my phone can't access the page but i cant seem to get my smtown.com password!!! When i tried it on the computer,  every freaking thing i did led to an error. So fine ohkay whatever i think ive gotten over my annoyance for it already. But now the problem is, i can actually get through on my phone! Oh yeah~ But now the problem is that i cant choose the option where they'd email me to change my password and everything!!! The only thing that i can do is to go to this page where they'd ask me my security question. Im quite sure my answer is correct and ive tried so many different answers that are remotely similar to my answer but nothing seems to be working!!!!!!! Omg.... I wanna log in to my accounts on my phone and maybe register for exo-l but most importantly i just want my account back!!!! ): Maybe i'll ask natasha if hers works and if she ...

kindda like the first time i've listened to music from my phone while on the computer and i feel so amazed that i don't have to stop my song before i walk away from my computer yeeeee~~~ xDDD although now the thing is i'll prolly HAVE to listen to music later when i go to sleep because i've been listening to it for at least two hours HAHA

so! after that ordeal for the first half of today, the good times finally came!!! decided to go back to turf city cos korkor wanted to good food so.... hahhahahhaa. first thing we saw was dancing crab and daddy also saw it just now when he was waiting for us and i think it seemed like not a bad choice? idk i'm not really too familiar w all these eateries so i just go w what ppl tell me hahahhaha. and apparently it looks really popular too??? there was such a long queue wow and such a long waiting list wow even more. lolx. we had 8 ppl so i was expecting that it'd take 10 years before we were served. asked the person there and he said that it would take at least one and a half hours but it was ohkay la, since ahyongbiaoge wasn't here yet so no biggie~ and then we just decided to walk around cos we really had nothing to do la. and then oso maybe just see what would be around??? cos maybe a one and a half hour wait might not be worth it o.o but the funny thing is that the mome...

ayo! ohkay so i know i still owe you ocs family day and op yeah don't worry about that (hopefully) i really wanna blog about it so i will try my best to blog abt it asap but as you can see in the previous post, dad's been breathing down my neck about not studying so.... so today we went all the way to the others side of singapore! to nanyang girls' high school hahaha. cos it's their homecoming fair or something??? idk xinhui told us to go and stuff and so we already bought the coupons for the event and everything lol. i didn't really know much about it, i just knew that we had somewhere to go lol at first it was discussed that siyi and lxbj would come along but then i think siyi said she wanted to do housework and lxbj had to study for her exams so..... we had so many coupons and so much money lol. then we were kindda late cos mummy came back late and then yeah.. rushing a little cos i still had to go for my ballet >< daddy decided not to go into the funfair s...

you don't have to say anything i don't need you to say anything. i know what's going on i know what i'm doing i know when everything's gonna happen. trust me, i'm the one taking this exam, not you. just because you don't see it doesn't mean it's not there. just because you don't see it doesn't mean i didn't do it. many things happen without your knowledge. i don't need to report everything i do to you yes thanks for your concern but i know too ohkay.

yep. on 1 aug, there was speech day. but it became ditch (hence deech) day for me!!! xDDD ohkay honestly i was really upset about having to go for it because HELLO waste time only pls. tchrs were all so serious abt it like "there'll be teachers stationed at all the exits, and if you decide not to come, it can be considered as truancy." like wtaf pls. i alr know what's gonna happen. why? it's always the same: performances to show off to guests, prize giving that only 5% of ppl get, guest of honour prolly an alumus and goes on and on about "i'm happy that tkg still retains it's blablabla... compliments school compliments school compliments school abcdefg", and then after a million years mdm khoo goes "is there anyone who's physically unfit? if not can you please be gracious girls and help keep the chairs?" you tell me is this not what that had happened? so when i was having lunch, i was talking to crystal and she was saying that can j...

S unny Island I love Singapore N ext year you'll be fifty G oing strong as you can be A s always, can't wait for the parade P latform decorated to commemorate O ver head the fireworks are alight R aising our heads to see such a sight E very year I can't wait for this, to celebrate my nation's birthday with my family -Acrostic Poem by Siow Lee Xian (ohkay the above was to participate in this Line competition and the first two lines were already given. but i liked the poem that i made so i decided to post it here too :3) guys! it's national day today!!!!! do you know what other day it is today??? yes, Victim of Conformity turns 2!!!! i can still remember sitting at this same computer two years ago as my mother watched the ndp parade on tv to create this blog (:  i think it's an accomplishment for me to have had this blog for two years now, albeit recently i haven't been posting much. because i've never been able to keep a blog/diary for such a long time. ...

do ya see me here??? xD haha ohkay i didn't really appear much here o.o  ayo!!! hahaha omg this happened on 12 july but i'm blogging about this now sigh. i'm so sorry it's a good thing that i rmb more or less what had happened tho! xD ohkay so this year mp3 experiment is held at gardens by the bay! had to miss ballet because of it... awww ): i'm so sorry for missing so many lessons already!!!! ): i really really hope that i'm not missing too much of anything. so anyways i went over pretty early and was talking and prolly doing some work w them. uncle was gonna send us cos he sun bian had to go attend the ndp rehearsal and stuff but then i think he didn't really know the way and he was gonna be late alr so we had to use google maps. used my phones! haha then when we entered the tunnel, i think it was kpe, they were like "eh, can still receive signal in tunnel annot?" and i was like "of course! my signal v. strong!!!" but then after driving...