Frustratingly Mediocre

ohkay so i just wanna say a few things first, sorry for not updating, it's exam week guise ): then, i wanna say that on thursday we had homeecon outing and it wasnt bad (: bought soya bean drink and curry puff. hehe. and linnett was being a loner and playing with a cat that we saw :\ and valerie (not my sister) and stuff were just being mean ohkaii. ): then yeah. we climbed an overhead bridge because mdm yante forgot that aqilah's leg hasnt recovered LOL. and on friday we had art lesson and it was really really fun xD i was sitting w eva and serene. hehe and miss farahana was letting us use our phones to go internet to search for pics for our art exam so i was lending serene my hotspot. but we had to keep our hotspot by 12 and we didnt really care so we were still using it. (i mean phones) and then suddenly miss farahana just goes "whose hotspot is... shine.. world...?" and i was like SHINee WORLD BITCH. haha. then obviously i was like OH SHIT. and alisa was like it...

왜요? 진짜, 왜요? Why can't I study. I'm pressuring myself with SMTOWN and everything. I keep thinking of studying. BUT WHY CAN'T I FREAKING BRING MYSELF TO STUDY?! Idek why ohkay. Somehow it's like.... I don't know. I seem to get really restless when I study... I guess that's normal? What I really cant stand now is the people around me telling me that iMm not studying. I FREAKING AM OHKAY. Just because you don't see my studying doesn't mean I didn't study. So you don't see brain no brain la! Like what Einstein(I think) said when his teacher said that there was no God. I somehow prefer to study when no one is around. Like, I know how we all like to act guai and study like shit when our parents are around right? But somehow when my parents are around, the less I can concentrate. I seem to be able to concentrate well when it's only just me at home... So I kindda need help? Sigh... I guess I'll go study now yeah? xoxo Hope™

Hai~ i just woke up haha. Ohkay so I had a dream about Yixing last night XD ohkay let's see how much I can remember... Well, i remembered that somehow I  was staying at my 4th aunt's house, and I thought that I was gonna stay in her guest room. But instead, u was led To my cousin's room. So I was wondering why la. Then later I think I saw Yixing come into the house or something and I was like OMG YIXING?! but u didn't manage to talk to him since he went straight to his room): then after that I guess I kindda found out why I wasn't staying at the guest room. And idk why, but no one wanted to tell me that Yixing was there. ): Then after that I think I decided to pretend I didn't know, and I went to knock on his door. And then somehow I guess I kindda imagined that when I did that and opened the door, he would be like shirtless or something. I DONT EVEN KNOW WHT I IMAGINED OF THAT OHKAY OMG >/////< But unfortunately I woke up alr :\ haha ohkay annyeong! (: xo...

My grandpa is awesome omg We've been taking really good care of him and I must thank him. Because of him, we're now having dinners together :D and mum's cooking awesome food now cos I think she knows yeye doesnt like outside food. Haha. He's a really knowledgable guy (: and he's full of wisdom. Which is why I respect him so much. Although I did use to detest him as a kid for making me do all those work like learning various words, reading books and stuff. You must know that I was introduced to technology at a really young age Ohkay. I played command and conquer when I was like 5 lol. Ohkay so anyways, we've been wanting him to rest lately and everytime I'm searching for something ( which is very common ), he wants to help (: but it's Ohkay, he should rest :D And then just now I was talking to him. It's rare that we get to have all these kinds of talks (: so I was telling him about how I'm learning history and stuff.. I guess that kindda led from ...

Lol just now in the bus something uh... interesting happened. Haha So I was playing some game like bejeweled (since I already finish reading my fanfics) and then suddenly some girl behind goes "eh! Taemin leh! 是你喜欢的 leh!" Lol cos I have this 'Lee Taemin' name tag that I made on my bag. Then the person was like (I think) "我现在不喜欢了啦, 丑的要死。" lol and I was there like ohkayyyy. I guess the only reason why the girl talked was because she's still young and stuff. Haha then when I was getting off the bus, I like look at the girl la. And she gave me some sort of death stare... lol . Oh. And otw the other girl oso quite cute. She v young only. I think primary sch? She got off much earlier. Anyways, she was just there going "I'm lee lee lee lee taemin~" or smth like that lol Ohkay bye. Need my lunch. Haha xoxox Hope™ Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.9

Ohkay so just now I was reading this fanfic about a boy who could do time leaps or something. The boy is Baekhyun. Anyways, it's called The Boy Who Leapt Through Time. I think haha, and I just wanna put some of my thoughts into this. I loved the story that's for sure. But I just wanna say some things. As you read through the story, you really find how fragile time is. That's why now that I think back to when I was a kid, I used to always wish to be able to travel back in time. But now being older and more mature, I realised that it's not that easy and that time is so fragile, I don't wanna risk it. Afterall, things happen for a reason, right? So anyways, it's kindda sad, cos it's a baekyeol story and inside Chanyeol's a time leaper too. From the future. And at first I was wondering why he had told Baekhyun that he needed to protect himself even when he had left in the first chapter, but I get it now. He knew he had to leave. He knew he could not be there...

Haha Ohkay I know Chen's birthday was on 21 sept. but I couldnt blog that day so sorry Chen! > To Chen:- Annyeonghasaeyo Chen-oppa (: it's nice to see you in EXO haha. You have really cute puppy eyes and yes, you ARE a bias list wrecker lol. I almost chose you as a third bias haha. Anyways, hope you have fun in EXO. Remember to take good care of yourself kays? And if you don't mind, help me take care of Yixing too. Haha xD sorry, he's still my bias. Hope that you EXO boys will have sufficient rest and I want all of you to be happy and healthy arasso? Don't listen to people constantly telling you to release new albums and everything. Cos people that truly care will wait. (i think I'm gonna get murdered by saying this haha) So I hope you had a happy day and here's my birthday song to you: 생일축하합니다, 생일축하합니다, 사랑하는첸오빠, 생일축하합니다!!! To Key:- 'Sup my friend's bias! Haha well, can't wait for Dazzling Girl to come out. I read that someone think that you d...

watch EXO-M's Total Entertainment just now and quoting some comment, it really lives up to it's name haha xD YIXING WAS BEING SO CUTE INSIDE OMG I WILL SMILING LIKE SOME FREAKING IDIOT AT THE COMPUTER XD AND I STILL DO NOW WHENEVER I WATCH THAT SCENE OMG XD got it from a fanfic which gives TaoRis facts. i dont really ship them, i just follow these stuff to get facts. haha since i really dont research (unless this is counted as research) anyways, if you just watch Yixing's part, basically it's a King Game, where you draw poker cards and the person with the King card calls out 2 numbers and rolls a die to find get the punishment. so the people with the two numbers called out must do it. in Tao's case (i think) Yixing and Luhan got called out xD and the punishment was to blow air into each other's ears for 10secs. Luhan's one was pretty cute.. Yixings...SDBAGLGHSDKJF I REALLY CAIN EXPLAIN WHAD I FEAL. XD NA;IOFGNJKLDNGKLJ WAHHHH CUTE TTM OMG MY YIXING!!!!! -SPA...

ohkay heys, so you know that now i'm studying for my exams right? i'll see what i can do for blogging ohkay? well... last saturday... last saturday wasnt much i guess. i pretty much just went for ballet and stuff. idk but my saturdays are so boring ): last sunday.. what did i do? oh yeah. freaking scolded like shit haha. xD cos i really HONESTLY forgot to give my parents my report book and when they saw it they were pretty angry. or rather, dad was. haha. kena scolded la.. then say what too much kpop and all these kinds of stuff. then say whether should he lock the computer and stuff. i think he found out i knew the password for the computer thing so he changed it alr ): then yeah. to escape i just pretended to go to sleep (even though it was like only 10 plus) then there i was reading fanfics :D and i got caught by mum -.- but lucky she never say anything.. haha (: thankfully luh (: then on monday. first day of school... sigh ): chiong copied english from josephine xP there wa...

arasso, i know i havent blogged in a while because i've been studying really hard ohkay/ so i just wanted to say some things (: haha i just came back from natasha's house from 'studying'. well, we did study but we side tracked ALOT. haha xD ohkay so at one point we were talking about if we were to debut in a band. natasha says that she wants to be the second youngest and i was saying that i wanna be the maknae. and she was like maknae always get bullied! haha like i care :P and then i was saying i cannot take it if they ask me to do aegyo, cos you know, maknaes are always thought to be good at aegyo. so i was saying that i cant do bbuing bbuing. i guess if they were to ask me i'd be like ❝huh what? how am i supposed to do that?❞ haha then natasha was like yeah! that will be your own aegyo! aiyah, your fans will find everything cute one la! they will be like ❝OHMYGAD LEE XIAN SO CUTEE!❞ LOL. hahah then we were talking about how we would deal with haters. and i was li...

Omg.... It's morning now so I don't have Internet and I'm typing this in note but I'm copying it over to blogger later. But meiqi just told me that when EXO-M won some award, Yixing cried!!! It's not that I like to see him cry, but I kindda wanna see what happened and what led to him crying . Did he cry during the award speech? Or did he cry when he found out he won? Haha Ohkay I know it's weird for me to think like that but I still kindda wanna noe! I'm sorry, he's my bias so I care about him Ohkay! He may not be my ultimate bias but he's still my bias (: since apparently my ultimate bias is an 'emotionless kid' according to his dear Umma xP so he doesn't cry often. So far I've only seen him cry when they just debuted and he was asked about his brother. But there could be more. I'm not sure. I haven't been online. BUT WHY DO I WANT TO SEE THEM CRY?! Haha unless it's tears of happiness (: Be happy! Don't be sad (: Ohka...

OMFG OMFG OMFG MY PARENTS JUST SAID I CAN GO SMTOWN SG. IF I GET THESE MARKS: ENGLISH B3 CHINESE B4 MATHS A2/B3 SCIENCE A1 GEOG A2 LIT B4 HISTORY A2/B3 MSP C6 ART B4 OMG OMG I HAVE TO STUDY. AND I HAVE TO PRAY. THIS WILL BE SO FREAKNG HARD AND I KNOW IT. GOD, PLEASE HELP ME? I WILL HELP MYSELF, REST ASSURED THANK YOU GOD FOR LETTING MY PARENTS AGREE XOXO HOPE™ Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.9

oh my goshhhh.. why is it that it's the holidays and i'm STILL not updating?? :\ ohkay so yeah on monday... let's see. hm,. well, i guess i woke up rather late? haha xD oh WAITTT. I WANNA SAY A FEW THINGS FIRST on 1sept, i got a new phone! LG Optimus L7. and on 31 august, i just realised how slow i am LOL. i finally know the meaning of 干杯/bottoms up. i never knew what it was LOL. and i found out in the 我们等你，in the songs that's always sung in the chorus, there's a " 我们等你 把爱散发" LOL. I NEVER NOTICED THAT. and when i was watching crime watch, the incidents that happened there all happened on my birthday! i was so happy LOL. even though i shouldnt be. :P ohkay sorry. i just felt that i had to write it down (: ohkay back on topic. what did i do on monday? i probably just did some homework (YES I'M A GOOD GIRL) and played com :D oh yeah. i remember that the pupil climate survey rite? we were told it'd be closed on monday morning 8am. and i woke up at lik ...

$179.65 that's how much i've saved. i dont know if i should be angry or happy at myself. happy because if the ticket prices are the same as SWC (which i kindda doubt), i'd at least be able to afford the cheapest one, with a dollar left over. angry because i've calculated. over three months, (i started saving in June, i think) i've only saved $59+ per month. i get a $100 per month. it's bad. but then again. i started saving in the end of June so i dont know. anyways, i have really only 2 weeks left until the tickets are on sale. so the max is $50 that i can save. $179.65+$50=$229.65 that's the max i can save. then hopefully the ticket prices won't be too expensive, and then i just need to borrow little money from my parents. that is IF they allow me to go. and to do that. i MUST study. i MUST study hard. really hard. i can do it. Siow Lee Xian you can do it. you've never put your heart and mind into something before. now's the time. hwaiting Lee X...

Date City Country Venue May 20, 2012 Anaheim United States Honda Center [7] June 9, 2012 Hsinchu Taiwan Hsinchu County Stadium [8] August 4, 2012 Tokyo Japan Tokyo Dome [9] August 5, 2012 August 18, 2012 Seoul South Korea Seoul Olympic Stadium September 22, 2012 Jakarta Indonesia Gelora Bung Karno Stadium November 23, 2012 Singapore Singapore Marina Bay Floating Platform November 25, 2012 Bangkok Thailand I DONT LIKE YOU. :< YESTERDAY PEOPLE SAY IT'S 2013. AND IT WAS SHOWN 2013 NOW IT'S FREAKING NOVEMBER 23RD. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!  D; it's at marina bay floating platform. wow. i guess that's the only stage big enough for the big big big SMTOWN family that i hope to join one day. hehe. ^^;; sorry. an insignificant girl with a big dream. sigh. will i even get in? will i even get what i want in life? OHKAY NOT MY POINT. and there i was yesterday happily spazzing that maybe i can save up enough money and that i can do well in my FYEs so that i can go next year. but NO. y...

Ohkay, just a quick post (: today when cikgu went SUPER 离题 again, he talked about 911 bombing. And I was like. TODAY IS 11 SEPTEMBER OMG. Haha I told Sharon and she was like damn shocked lolx. xoxo Hope™ Ps. Sorry, I havent been updating >

Ohkay first, this has nothing to do with the title but, I tell you I scratched the screen on my phone. You heard it as I murdered someone ._. Ohkay. I'm serious. I tell you I scratched my phone BY ACCIDENT and then you go ranting on me here an there as if I commited a crime. OH YES I DID MAN. I FUCKING DID. I SCRATCHED MY PHONE. IS THAT LIABLE FOR HANGING?! Dude just fucking chill man. And I said I wanted to fix my phone for a reason. Ohkay. Cos I don't think I'll take much care of it anymore now that it has an ugly scratch. I'm really sorry phone > Ohkay now on the point on the title. DUDE. YOU SERIOUS-FUCKING-LY DON'T OWN THIS FUCKING HOUSE OHKAY. SO WHAT IF I ACCIDENTALLY CLOSED MY PIANO WITH A LOUD BANG? Oh wow, did I again murder a person? If you can't stand noise so much, WHY DON'T UOU JUST FUCKING BE DEAF. JUST GO FUCKING BE DEAF OHKAY. I've said this before. Yes. I'm really damn irritated Ohkay. He acts like this house is his. Look bastard...

Shit la. Daddy say what my phone wont scratch... now look what happened! I accidentally dropp ed it and now it'scratched!!! ;___; I told daddy to buy me a screen protector already! And he was like "your screen won't scratch la!" YES. WONT SCRATCH. MY FOOT. sorry I'm like damn pissed now cos my freaking new phone has freaking scratches ohkay!!! ): although the scratches are not obvious, BUT THEYRE STILL SCRATCHES AND I FEEL DAMN BAD NOW OHKAY. I COULD CRY. NOW I NO MOOD TK STUDY LIAO LA. FUCK IT. daddy! My phone must be fixed ohkay! M.U.S.T. I'm sorry but I don't care. I cannot stand that it has scratches ohkay. I really wish I had a screen protector now. But wait! I have warranty right? (: hopefully they can fix it for free? Omg please? Sigh. I think today go home I will 被骂得狗血临头 :\ Sigh. Ohkay it's history now and I wonder how the teacher doesn't know I'm not laying attention. LOL xoxo Hope™ Published with Blogger-droid v2.0.9

Haha Ohkay I just wanna share with you this joke I just told mummy xD so daddy just installed this um... Water thingy at the toilet bowl and I accidentally set it off, causing water to splash everywhere. And mummy was like "you very 马虎 leh!" and I was like " I want rabbit." then I changed to "but I want deer!" And mum was like whutt. Haha I then I explained: Because 马虎 is horse and tiger mah. Then I say I dont want, I want deer and tiger. HAHA XD Yeah. I like tigers cos I'm born in the year of the tiger (: anyways, 马虎 kindda means like... Wishy washy? Haha idk. But yeah. XD and mum was like 你这个是冷笑话 eh! Haha xD You know why I said I wanted deer right? Our beloved 鹿晗!!! XD haha but my bias is Yixing Ohkay! 张艺兴 FOREVER~ haha xD I wanted to say Taemin but Taem's a mushroom xP Ohkay annyeong :D xoxo Hope™

Hey, (: it's 2.26 am now. And. I just thought of something so I decided to blog about it. Ohkay as you can see in the title, it's about glow in the dark. Now if u didn't know, I for some reason love glow in the dark things. I like them because like the word says. They glow in the dark (: so I like it. I'm kindda scared of the dark so they kindda comfort me (: it actually does help tmr see in the dark at times (: Ohkay so yeah. I was thinking. Maybe I like glow in the dark stuff, because year things don't leave you at your darkest hour? They're there during the day, which kindda represents when you're successful/shining.And they glow when you're in dark places, kindda representing how it stays with you even in your darkest times, the times when you're failing and it even shines (: so yeah It's just some awkward and crazy symbolism I just thought of about glow in the dark. It's 2:31 in the morning so I'm probably not making any sense. I sho...

ohkay now i know how the person found my blog and yes i know who the person is LOL. according to Val she searched her name DAMMIT. WHY MUST THIS APPEAR OMGGGG.... sigh. ohkay then, HOW THE HELL DO YOU KNOW ME. i mean i got talk to you and everything BUT HOW DO YOU KNOW ME. OH CRAP LA. ohkay bye

ohkay hi (: Valerie iMessaged me saying someone from TK found my blog. and i wanna say some stuff to you even though i'm sure you're not gonna read it (: firstly: Val told me you didnt read my blog. thank you (: thanks for respecting what i put up there. it's much appreciated (: secondly: Val told me it's from her class. well, i only know Camellia Nabilah and Valerie that's from 2E1. but since Val said it's not them, and the person called me Leexian. only people that are um.. well, close to me call me Hope? haha no actually, tokki chan eva natasha (LOL eva natasha. no not just eva. i meant eva AND someone else called natasha keke) isasa... and my pri sch friends call me leexian. ohkay NOT. the point. thridly. WHICH BLOG DID SHE VISIT. I HAVE THREE  FOUR BLOG OHKAY. WHICH ONE ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT. my first one is a lame blog that i dont use anymore no i wont tell you the address. the second one is hidemytearsss the third one is itsablogproductions. but i didnt p...

HELLO. YES I'M BACK FOR ALL MY OTHER DAYS. MMHMM. Monday 27 August 2012 well, let's just say... coach is a little irresponsible even though he didnt mean it. ohkay so you know how i blogged on monday right? lemme give you the link. blog 1 blog 2 ohkay yeah. so then after that we waited for really long and coach still wasnt here yet. then after that idk who was like THERE'S NO TRAINING TODAY. and we were damn pissed ohkay. we were like what.the.fuck. no training?! then we came here for nothing?! and as you can see in blog post 2, it was raining heavily. like REALLY heavily ohkay. so yeah... and some juniors were actually drenched because they had to come to training and they didnt have umbrellas. smart people nowadays huh, dont bring umbrellas ._. i have one in my bag and two in my bowling bag. although it's quite redundant now since my bowling bag's in ssc. i used to have two for two reasons (LOL) one just in case someone else needed it. and the other was like if i...