dance to the left, to the right, you make me feel alive-live, wonderful tonight

(i couldn't find one of Taem that i liked. i'm sorry ><)

ohkay one thing i wanna say first. i'm really really really not faking ohkay. i'm not saying this to get attention (if i wanted i'd have told everyone about this blog alr -.-)

but just now during ballet. it was like hell for me ohkay. my head hurt so badly, my throat hurt so badly and somehow my nostrils hurt badly too ._. and my legs and hands were like jelly. whenever i took a break, blood rushed up to my head and i felt really really giddy. i dont even know what happened to me. this has never, and i repeat, NEVER, happened to me in my 6 years of learning ballet ohkay. idk what happened to me omg.

so it started out with i think we were doing petite allegro. then after dancing once, i felt really tired and giddy (i used to be able to do it many times). and then my throat started hurting really badly. idek why. when i drank water, it 'cured' it a little, but the moment i started again, it hurt so badly. my throat was so freaking dry omg.

but the interesting this was when i was preparing for the dance, i'd feel extremely tired, and everything. throat hurting, dizzy, legs and hands being jelly. but the moment the music started and i started dancing, during the whole duration i was dancing, i didnt feel a thing. but the moment i stopped, everything came back. i know you're gonna say i'm trying to show off or smth but no. i'm serious. this is really what happened. and idk why but i sweated buckets today. usually i dont even sweat ohkay. i really dk what happened to me today.

then after that we took a break. i felt like fainting honestly. oh, and when we just started, i also really felt like fainting and my head was hurting so badly. ohkay back to the break. when we took a break, my breathing was super heavy, like it was super obvious my breathing was laboured. then i felt blood rush up to my face and when we were going to prepare the dance, i checked the mirror and my cheeks were really red.

does anyone know what happened to me today? my legs got so suan and jelly and everything i thought i was gonna collapse. my throat hurt so badly i thought i was gonna have a sorethroat. my headache -thankfully- left halfway though. my hands were more or less ohkay. but i kept getting one step wrong even though i was doing my best in it. idek why but today i seemed to really work harder than usual.

then miss wah was like 'first time i see you sweat'. IKR LOL. YOU SEE?! EVEN THE TEACHER AGREES WITH ME. idk what came over me today. my legs still feel and little jelly now and i'm quite sure that it's gonna hurt tomorrow. and i'm feeling a little tired too. probably will fall asleep when i go to my aunt's house later. keke.

ohkay i guess that's all? haha finished all my water. for the first time in ballet lesson ohkay. usually i go there with a full bottle and take only a few sips. today i went with a somewhat full bottle and i finished everything. i wanted to buy water, but then i realised i didnt have money. so whatever. so yeah...

idk what came over me today. haha. and if there're even some dedicated readers or wtv (which i think there're none), i promise you, i'm not trying to sound weida ohkay. i dont like it when people fake and make themselves sound so weida. i find it quite attention seeking. but still, my ultimate proof for me not trying to seek attention is my unwillingness to share this blog with anyone. idk why i dont want to let anyone know. i really dont know why.

i guess i'll go now? it's kindda a long post and i'm really sorry that i dont have any pics (i should look for it now. ohkay chiao for a while)

xoxo

Hope™