The Power of Dance

so a few days back (or more specifically a week and 2 days ago HHAHA) i was having a supremely bad day. like legit. it's the kind of bad days when you wake up feeling like death and actually wanting death to approach with 0 appetite and motivation to do ANYTHING. like i actually didn't have a proper meal or even food in general until like 7++ and even then i wasnt starving. i was just eating bc i knew my parents were definitely worried or something. it's only happened one other time and that time i didn't even drink water. at least this time i drank water i just didnt eat hahaha. and it's not even like those kind like hungry/thirsty but don't eat/drink kind it's like i literally have no desire for it??? hahhah 

but so yeah. i'm quite sure what triggered it was just me being stressed and worried over laptop prices and plane ticket prices. bc there was sitex then and when i went on that thursday, the lapotp that i was eyeing was NOT ON SALE on sitex. or rather it was but it was only the display model and even then i wasnt a good price esp for a display model. so i was quite bummed abt it. and like tbh i didn't have that good of an experience w my current laptop esp after it got into its  3-years-old stage and i just really don't want another sucky laptop esp if i have to be blowing close to $2k on it. so i was trying to consider so many other laptops but every other laptop just didn't fit in one small tiny way and it's like.. yknow if i got it it's not bc i rly rly rly wanted it or what but rather it's just a replacement for the laptop i want. so that was kind of stress. and also i really wanted to go to tw to meet the girls and stuff BUT the tickets were flipping ex and even though i've come to terms w it now i was just really super bummed and upset about it la hahha. it happened from sat night and kind of just dragged on to sun i think. so yeah there's that. 

BUT THEN 

i went for dance! like i dragged myself to it. tbh i really didn't want to go for dance then bc it was just such a sian day and i just wanted to waste the day away at home watching videos and lying in my bed. but then i hadn't been for dance in 2 wks bc of a stupid injured toe (of which i have determined that its cause of injury is unknown and imma screw it and just dance until something bad happens LOL pls don't learn from me) so i wanted to go for it. 

AND I'M SO GLAD I DID. i dont think i was my usual self that day in class but really as class progressed i just felt so much better? like it just felt so great being able to dance and just... idk have something else to focus on instead of wallowing in my emptiness? and by the end of class i was actually feeling quite a lot better and was talking quite a bit too!!! usually when i have my days like this i really dont want to talk to anybody and i just give really short answers and stuff like that so DAYUM LOOK @ THAT. 

and yeah i feel like i really just felt how powerful dance is in lifting my mood. thank God for dance hehe x) 

Hope™