Module Bidding Drama
alrighty guys. get ready for a whole lot of uni jargon in bidding HAHA so like... i meant to write this as a prayer to God for His blessing and guidance but i decided to document down everything first then write my prayer at the end.
so right.
the thing is that i took a korean placement test in which i was placed into Korean 3 in NUS. but the problem is that i already have the maximum number of modular credits (MCs) that a year 1 sem 1 student can have. so in a way i couldn't bid for it. but i really wanted to. the reason is because the waiver (that i can just take korean 3 straight and not have to start from level 1) will only be valid for 2 semesters and korean 3 isn't offered in sem 2. and i really didn't wanna have to take another placement test next year and bid for korean 3 in sem 1 again because like... we have this thing called grade-free (or everyone just calls it s/u hahaha) which is like if you passed a module but then u did quite badly on it so u dont want it to affect your cap, you can s/u it so there aren't any grades there; it just shows that you passed the module. and you're given 8, 5 of which you can only use in your first year then the remaining 3 is for your remaining 2 or 3 (most likely 3 la hor who doesn't want to graduate w honors HAHA) in NUS. so what most people have to advising me to do is to take harder modules that i think i cannot score well in in my first year because i have the opportunity to s/u it. and it's something that i really have to do because well, for fass we have this thing called 'basket' where each basket is basically a group of similar majors grouped together. i can't remember the baskets though HAHA i just know that there's one languages (was it just english language?) basket, one social sciences basket and one asian studies (or something idk but there's like japanese studies and all that in the basket) basket. and every fass student has to take at least one mod from each basket in order to graduate. so what xm told me is that if you have to clear a basket but you think that you cannot score well, then take it in your first year so that you can just s/u it. which is true.
ohkay anyway so back to korean 3. call me crazy but i'm taking 2 languages this sem. i'm taking french 1 and korean 3. french 1 is because i'm in this programme called lpp (language preparation programme, go google it HAHA too lazy to explain it over and over again). and like when i took the korean 3 placement test, it wasn't too bad but then like i know i'll be facing a lot of competition esp w all those bell curve wreckers so i really don't want to take my chances and yknow take it next year bc then i'll only have 3 s/u and if i'm still gonna be taking french then i have fOUR language mods in the two sems which my tHREE s/u won't be able to cover if i screw shit up. so like idk leh just go crazy in my first sem and see whether can i cope annot. if cannot then next sem i will drop a language lor. totally no qualms about that i'm prepared to drop korean or french if i really feel that i cannot cope anymore.
but yes, ohkay so that's my korean 3 story.
SO THEN
i'm staying in rvrc (ridge view residential college) too. and the thing abut rcs is that when you stay there you have to take compulsory mods. and the compulsory mods are es, geq and wr. HAHAHHA things are starting to get confusing eh. tbh i dont really remember what they mean either. tbh i just know that es is some english thing, geq is some general education thing and wr is workplace readiness but really we just learn sports there so HAHAHHA so we have to do this thing called mpe (module preference excercise) where we just rank what lecture (?) groups we want and then we get them through a balloting system. so i managed to get the mods i want for geq and wr. but es i didn't so i had to appeal (and i got something in the end la so all is well haha).
then what happened is that apparently my geq wasn't registered into the system??? so the rvrc person called me and told me to meet him and like yknow sort this out. and at first i was really having a lot of problems because the only remaining slots clash with everything else. and so yeah i was telling him that i would give him my answer tonight.
i went back, trying to bid for korean 3. and i had already planned my timetable that group 1 would fit really well into my timetable. BUT GUESS WHAT. there're five lecture groups and group 1 was the only one that was full GAHHHHHH and like the only remaining group that i could take that wouldn't clash with everything else is 3. BUT 3 is like from 6 to 8pm on tues and thurs and this clashes w mod. also i'm very thankful that chiang came to my room bc i was talking to her about it ah, like wondering is it really worth it for me to skip out on mod for a whole sem just for this one mod. bc like mod is to serve God through dance and even though i feel very outcasted and a stranger there i guess i shouldn't be going there for the people but to serve God? and i think i really do know intrinsically la that God should come first in my life no matter what. don't care is it modules or whatever crap that life throws at me, God should always be my number one priority. so even though i was considering taking grp 3 i knew that in the end i wouldn't do it la haha.
OH THERE'S ACTUALLY A SMALL SNIPPET THAT I MISSED OUT. i actl appealed to overload this sem but hahahahhahha guess what ofc not la they didn't let me HAHHAHA
ohkay back on topic.
so then during the discussing w the rvrc person (ohkay this feels quite rude. his name is joel but it feels a bit weird to type the name of a person of authority just like that bc he told me to call him joel but then like he 在我眼里 is a teacher or staff position so to just call him by his name feels really rude to me HAHA) and he was telling me all the other slots that were available for wr and geq. and like after doing some rearrangement I REALISED I CAN TAKE GRP 2 AND EVERYTHING WOULDN'T CLASH AND I CAN GO FOR MOD. it's basically on the same day but 2 hrs earlier LMAO. (grp 1 is another 2 hrs earlier HAHA). but yes. so i ran down to the admin office to tell joel about my decision (omg can i like call him mr joel or something but then that's even weirder? also i have a friend called joel so HAHA). and so i arranged it la. then i was like wheeee gr8 life's gr8 i bidded for korean 3 and all is well.
DUN DUN DUN
as i was calling mummy THE THOUGHT STRUCK ME. i'm taking this other module called fma (just know that the name of the mod is saving face) and it's on friday 12-3 BUT from the second week onwards it'll be on thursday 12-3 SO THEN NOW IT CLASHES WITH GEQ OMG I HAD LIKE A MINI HEART ATTACK WHAT. so then the thing is a new slot for geq opened up and it's on wed from 5-7. and the thing is that previously my ballet was at 645 on wednesdays but that was concert prac so idk if it'll still be on wed? so i gave a call to ms ho and she said that now only cfm is sunday. other days can decide again WAH HENG AH. so i ran up to the admin building AGAIN (thank God i stay in tower block and not d block HAHHA tb is right beside admin building but d block is bloody far away) and told joel about it and SO HENG he was being rly nice about it although i think in his mind he mustve been like dis bij keep changing her mind HAHAH
but yes so now everything has pretty much ironed out?
such drama man all my friends like just happy happy bid nothing ever affects them LMAO why do i cause so much drama to myself my life is a mess HAHA
OH i just realised i forgot to elaborate on my mc thing with korean. see my life is a mess HAHA so like the only module that i can drop now (as in like that is expendable and i don't really mind dropping) is social work(sw) exposure. then i went for my cnm (communications and new media aka my most likely major bc i'm 90% decided on it but i just took sw cos it sounded really interesting) yesterday and realised that actually right you don't even have to take the module to attend the lecture. SO what i'm gonna do is drop sw but then still go for the lecture to see whether i'm interested la because like tbh i never really thought that i would take sw? i just thought it sounded rather meaningful and interesting so i decided to try for it. so in a way if i end up not wanting to do sw, at least i can just stop coming to lectures and not be obliged to go and study for it. and if i do intend to choose sw, i can take sw1101e (the exposure mod) in sem 2 but then i dont have to work as hard because i'll have already gone through the lectures?? since i'll be allowed to overload next sem. so what i'm doing now is kindda like an unofficial overload la HAHA why am i so crazy
so yepps. alr bidded for korean 3 and like now i have to drop sw. because technically right i could bid for korean 3 w/o dropping sw bc geq isn't registered into the system yet. but once it gets registered then it'll be considered as me overloading then cannot already. ACTUALLY RIGHT now that i think about it wouldn't have been able to be in korean 3 grp 1 also bc of FMA HAHAHA THANK GOD. but yeah so i mean i can keep it la but then i think i will kena a lot of shit from the cors or osa or whoever is incharge of all these modules thing lor bc i'm a y1s1 student that didn't get permission to overload yet now i'm overloading???
so now i'm just feeling quite a bit of anxiety doing this because omg i'm really gonna be doing it man. i'm really gonna drop sw because of korean. initially i just said it as a passing thought like if i really really have to then i'll do it and like now i'm really doing it??? it's just scary i guess, having to drop a module like that. maybe i'm just being a bit fearful.
THAT'S WHY I WANTED TO WRITE DOWN MY PRAYER! BECAUSE I'M NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FEAR. I AM A CHILD OF GOD. YES. AMEN.
so right.
the thing is that i took a korean placement test in which i was placed into Korean 3 in NUS. but the problem is that i already have the maximum number of modular credits (MCs) that a year 1 sem 1 student can have. so in a way i couldn't bid for it. but i really wanted to. the reason is because the waiver (that i can just take korean 3 straight and not have to start from level 1) will only be valid for 2 semesters and korean 3 isn't offered in sem 2. and i really didn't wanna have to take another placement test next year and bid for korean 3 in sem 1 again because like... we have this thing called grade-free (or everyone just calls it s/u hahaha) which is like if you passed a module but then u did quite badly on it so u dont want it to affect your cap, you can s/u it so there aren't any grades there; it just shows that you passed the module. and you're given 8, 5 of which you can only use in your first year then the remaining 3 is for your remaining 2 or 3 (most likely 3 la hor who doesn't want to graduate w honors HAHA) in NUS. so what most people have to advising me to do is to take harder modules that i think i cannot score well in in my first year because i have the opportunity to s/u it. and it's something that i really have to do because well, for fass we have this thing called 'basket' where each basket is basically a group of similar majors grouped together. i can't remember the baskets though HAHA i just know that there's one languages (was it just english language?) basket, one social sciences basket and one asian studies (or something idk but there's like japanese studies and all that in the basket) basket. and every fass student has to take at least one mod from each basket in order to graduate. so what xm told me is that if you have to clear a basket but you think that you cannot score well, then take it in your first year so that you can just s/u it. which is true.
ohkay anyway so back to korean 3. call me crazy but i'm taking 2 languages this sem. i'm taking french 1 and korean 3. french 1 is because i'm in this programme called lpp (language preparation programme, go google it HAHA too lazy to explain it over and over again). and like when i took the korean 3 placement test, it wasn't too bad but then like i know i'll be facing a lot of competition esp w all those bell curve wreckers so i really don't want to take my chances and yknow take it next year bc then i'll only have 3 s/u and if i'm still gonna be taking french then i have fOUR language mods in the two sems which my tHREE s/u won't be able to cover if i screw shit up. so like idk leh just go crazy in my first sem and see whether can i cope annot. if cannot then next sem i will drop a language lor. totally no qualms about that i'm prepared to drop korean or french if i really feel that i cannot cope anymore.
but yes, ohkay so that's my korean 3 story.
SO THEN
i'm staying in rvrc (ridge view residential college) too. and the thing abut rcs is that when you stay there you have to take compulsory mods. and the compulsory mods are es, geq and wr. HAHAHHA things are starting to get confusing eh. tbh i dont really remember what they mean either. tbh i just know that es is some english thing, geq is some general education thing and wr is workplace readiness but really we just learn sports there so HAHAHHA so we have to do this thing called mpe (module preference excercise) where we just rank what lecture (?) groups we want and then we get them through a balloting system. so i managed to get the mods i want for geq and wr. but es i didn't so i had to appeal (and i got something in the end la so all is well haha).
then what happened is that apparently my geq wasn't registered into the system??? so the rvrc person called me and told me to meet him and like yknow sort this out. and at first i was really having a lot of problems because the only remaining slots clash with everything else. and so yeah i was telling him that i would give him my answer tonight.
i went back, trying to bid for korean 3. and i had already planned my timetable that group 1 would fit really well into my timetable. BUT GUESS WHAT. there're five lecture groups and group 1 was the only one that was full GAHHHHHH and like the only remaining group that i could take that wouldn't clash with everything else is 3. BUT 3 is like from 6 to 8pm on tues and thurs and this clashes w mod. also i'm very thankful that chiang came to my room bc i was talking to her about it ah, like wondering is it really worth it for me to skip out on mod for a whole sem just for this one mod. bc like mod is to serve God through dance and even though i feel very outcasted and a stranger there i guess i shouldn't be going there for the people but to serve God? and i think i really do know intrinsically la that God should come first in my life no matter what. don't care is it modules or whatever crap that life throws at me, God should always be my number one priority. so even though i was considering taking grp 3 i knew that in the end i wouldn't do it la haha.
OH THERE'S ACTUALLY A SMALL SNIPPET THAT I MISSED OUT. i actl appealed to overload this sem but hahahahhahha guess what ofc not la they didn't let me HAHHAHA
ohkay back on topic.
so then during the discussing w the rvrc person (ohkay this feels quite rude. his name is joel but it feels a bit weird to type the name of a person of authority just like that bc he told me to call him joel but then like he 在我眼里 is a teacher or staff position so to just call him by his name feels really rude to me HAHA) and he was telling me all the other slots that were available for wr and geq. and like after doing some rearrangement I REALISED I CAN TAKE GRP 2 AND EVERYTHING WOULDN'T CLASH AND I CAN GO FOR MOD. it's basically on the same day but 2 hrs earlier LMAO. (grp 1 is another 2 hrs earlier HAHA). but yes. so i ran down to the admin office to tell joel about my decision (omg can i like call him mr joel or something but then that's even weirder? also i have a friend called joel so HAHA). and so i arranged it la. then i was like wheeee gr8 life's gr8 i bidded for korean 3 and all is well.
DUN DUN DUN
as i was calling mummy THE THOUGHT STRUCK ME. i'm taking this other module called fma (just know that the name of the mod is saving face) and it's on friday 12-3 BUT from the second week onwards it'll be on thursday 12-3 SO THEN NOW IT CLASHES WITH GEQ OMG I HAD LIKE A MINI HEART ATTACK WHAT. so then the thing is a new slot for geq opened up and it's on wed from 5-7. and the thing is that previously my ballet was at 645 on wednesdays but that was concert prac so idk if it'll still be on wed? so i gave a call to ms ho and she said that now only cfm is sunday. other days can decide again WAH HENG AH. so i ran up to the admin building AGAIN (thank God i stay in tower block and not d block HAHHA tb is right beside admin building but d block is bloody far away) and told joel about it and SO HENG he was being rly nice about it although i think in his mind he mustve been like dis bij keep changing her mind HAHAH
but yes so now everything has pretty much ironed out?
such drama man all my friends like just happy happy bid nothing ever affects them LMAO why do i cause so much drama to myself my life is a mess HAHA
OH i just realised i forgot to elaborate on my mc thing with korean. see my life is a mess HAHA so like the only module that i can drop now (as in like that is expendable and i don't really mind dropping) is social work(sw) exposure. then i went for my cnm (communications and new media aka my most likely major bc i'm 90% decided on it but i just took sw cos it sounded really interesting) yesterday and realised that actually right you don't even have to take the module to attend the lecture. SO what i'm gonna do is drop sw but then still go for the lecture to see whether i'm interested la because like tbh i never really thought that i would take sw? i just thought it sounded rather meaningful and interesting so i decided to try for it. so in a way if i end up not wanting to do sw, at least i can just stop coming to lectures and not be obliged to go and study for it. and if i do intend to choose sw, i can take sw1101e (the exposure mod) in sem 2 but then i dont have to work as hard because i'll have already gone through the lectures?? since i'll be allowed to overload next sem. so what i'm doing now is kindda like an unofficial overload la HAHA why am i so crazy
so yepps. alr bidded for korean 3 and like now i have to drop sw. because technically right i could bid for korean 3 w/o dropping sw bc geq isn't registered into the system yet. but once it gets registered then it'll be considered as me overloading then cannot already. ACTUALLY RIGHT now that i think about it wouldn't have been able to be in korean 3 grp 1 also bc of FMA HAHAHA THANK GOD. but yeah so i mean i can keep it la but then i think i will kena a lot of shit from the cors or osa or whoever is incharge of all these modules thing lor bc i'm a y1s1 student that didn't get permission to overload yet now i'm overloading???
so now i'm just feeling quite a bit of anxiety doing this because omg i'm really gonna be doing it man. i'm really gonna drop sw because of korean. initially i just said it as a passing thought like if i really really have to then i'll do it and like now i'm really doing it??? it's just scary i guess, having to drop a module like that. maybe i'm just being a bit fearful.
THAT'S WHY I WANTED TO WRITE DOWN MY PRAYER! BECAUSE I'M NO LONGER A SLAVE TO FEAR. I AM A CHILD OF GOD. YES. AMEN.
Dear God,Thank You so much for today, Lord. Thank You that in my first week of study, today is my free day and that i can have all the time i need to deal with all these module problems that have been plaguing me for really such a long time. thank You that i was able to attend corporate prayer meeting this morning and have a blessed time there. thank You for letting me have klarisse and mummy to talk to throughout this entire difficult time of decision. and really just anyone else that i discussed this issue with, like daddy, korkor, xuan ming, hanny and everyone. i thank You for all this people in my life who have given me input. Lord, i have been praying and asking You for a way. that if it's Your will that i would be able to get to study Korean 3 in my first semester here in NUS. and Lord, many times, the doors seemed to have closed on me. for a while i really did seem like You were telling me not to take korean 3. but yet, i couldn't shake of this feeling, this feeling that i really should be taking korean 3. i don't know whether it's from You or from my own selfish intents but i had them and i knocked on every door, tested every handle to see if i could open the door. and after much knocking, i found a door. it wasn't wide open, i had to weave through many other doors to get to it. but i got to it in the end and everything has fallen into place now. and Lord, even though things have fallen into place and technically there isn't anything that i should be worrying about, i still feel quite fearful Lord. I feel quite fearful over having to drop a module just like that. is it really worth it? i've been asking myself. what if i really want to do it? what if what if what if is what i keep asking myself and Lord i really just want to trust in You, trust that You have made everything like that to teach me lessons and to guide me and help me.Lord, i don't want to be fearful anymore. i don't want to be anxious over this. i don't want too have to keep worrying about everything. i want to trust in You and know that everything will work out. yet, my mind still drifts to all the what ifs and whether everything will work out. but hey, i know that no matter what happens You have a plan for me and i just have to trust in You and listen to You as You guide me in life.Please give me peace, Lord. let me have peace throughout this period of uncertainty. Please give me the courage. Lord i thank You for all that You have done in my life and i just want to commit everything to You Lord.I'm sorry if i've been a bit distant from You lately, i'm sorry if i seem to be losing my focus on You. Lord, help me to focus on You again. I want to continue focussing on you despite the stresses of uni life. Thank You Lord. In Jesus' Name I pray,Amen
as i was typing my prayer, things that have been said to be about faith came to my mind. during dance enc, rachel told me this: the bigger the unknown, the bigger the faith should be. and ezra told me this:
and now i guess i'm also asking myself: am i moving by faith? sometimes it's really so hard to tell. i want to move by faith. i'll keep trying to. i hope i'm moving by faith now? haha
yes. i'll trust and i'll believe. i'll have faith. i'll have faith that everything will work out in the end. i just know it will.
maybe my name should be faith and not hope LMAO JK.
ohkay this is a bit mood killer but i realised i missed out another story of my module drama HAHAHA people got friendship drama i got module drama LMAO. anyway, so i wanted to take fma right. and like it actually clashed with french (and i mpe'd french ages ago and ages ago i alr knew i wanted to take fma i just dk why my first choice was one that clashed w fma. i think brain malfunction lmao) so i was having lots of probs w it bc i can't drop french if not i'll be out of lpp BUT I REALLY WANTED FMA bc it's only offered to freshmen and if i dont get it this yr i'm never getting it (so in a way i didn't wanna take my chances and not bid for it this sem. what if i need to fight next sem :o). so yeah. i was praying for help ah and like this one person emailed me asking to change french lect slots w me so at first i was like sURE (i didn't say that i just thought that). but then like after checking ivle AND REALISING THE TIMETABLE CHANGE FOR FMA i was like actl dont need la HAHA. BUT. i couldn't bid for fma bc of the damn clash. so i called the ppl (i forgot who la haha but the VERY HELPFUL AND PATIENT AND KIND STAFF THANK U SO MUCH). for help and she understood everything that i was telling her and she helped to allocate me the mod. but it was damn stress la haha cos i initially wanted to take another cnm mod but then it wouldve clashed w fma after the timetable switch so i gave up on that la haha aiyo that one can take next yr (and anyway nat was telling me that it's boring HAHA) so yes, i really couldnt drop fma bc of all the work that went into it.
SO YES. my life has been running up and now w my whole module thing i think i have one of the most unique module bidding experiences and i feel like i'll have a lot to share w my freshies freshmen next year!
i have an alarm at 4:50. i'll drop sw then HAHAHA
GOD PLS GIVE ME STRENGTH AND PEACE AS I DROP THIS MODULE THANK YOUUUUU
Hope™
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