Patience please

Sigh. Idk honestly i feel so cheated and frustrated at myself rn. Why is it that i keep telling myself to have patience and everytime i think i do i turn out i dont??? Why is it that i want to get things done so fast?? Im honestly so frustrated w myself rn.

This is gonna be abt my whole learning driving exp.

Honestly rn i feel quite regretful that i signed up for both the theory and practical lessons here at cdc (comfort delgro driving centre at ubi)???? But oh wells what can i do right? It's already over and the money has already been paid. This money sucking business aint gonna refund me no shit ._.

I rmb feeling so annoyed that i had not signed up to learn how to drive. And when i did it was just like BAM BAM BAM full force ahead. Turns out rather than cdc being smth that would rly help me it's just throwing road blocks after road blocks in my face. Spike strips, concrete barriers, you name it they did it.

So the first thing is that bc they're a sch they have so many students that there's legit no slot to book???? And they only open up slots 2 months ahead so it's not like i can book june slots (which i also cant cos im flying and stuff). It took me over a month to take my btt bc everything was so booked alr.

Then after that no one told me (and i dont rly think it was written anywhere???) That i could take this induction practical course BEFORE i took my btt so i legit just waited stupidly to finish my btt first. Maybe it was written idk i didnt read lol. My fault ohkay sorry. But anyway im fine w that la wtv.

So then jn i was gonna book the lessons and this is where i get so damn frustrated w myself. So the only lessons left are in may. And i saw that there were 17 slots. The thing is that everyone can only book 12 slots max per calendar month so i was like ohkay la that's not too bad bc i can max out all the slots i have to book?? In order to do that tho i have to have enough money in my store value acc to book. So i went to top up bloody $610 in my acc (my 12 days' worth of work ;A;) and went back to the kiosk to book.

And this is the time i should really scream THANK GOD. PRAISE THE LORD. Bc i suddenly rmbed that there were certain lessons that were more expensive than the others. I had been wondering why only the 4:25pm lessons were available throughout the entire month. So the thing abt this money sucking business is that they will purposely charge more for convenient timings (which honestly i think a lot of places do anyway lmao) and the price difference is like more than $9?????? I aint that rich to be able to throw away this $9 hello that is like 1hr of work HAHA . Anyway so yeah idk just as i was abt to confirm and everything, i suddenly thought abt the extra charges and immediately logged out before confirming my slots (thereby paying that extra $9 and wasting my cancellation allowances on stupid shit like this). So i stopped and went to check and omg i legit felt so cheated la made me feel so happy that i would be able to learn how to drive so soon only to realise that unless i pay $9 more for every lesson i cant????

So yeah. Guess now my goal to drive by june will definitely not be fulfilled. Maybe by end of this yr then. Praying that i can rly...

I'll say a prayer first.

Dear God,
Thank You for giving me this day Lord. Thank You for reminding me about my training record book while i was at work and for blessing me with a really smooth lesson just now. Lord, thank You that each and every single day You are just showing me to be patient. Showing me that faith is patience. Lord, i may not be able to fulfil my goal to learn driving by June but i thank You Lord that i have once again been reminded of the need for patience. That the world does not revolve around me.
Yes, i feel so annoyed and frustrated right now but i guess this is my flesh speaking?
Lord i just want to commit these driving lessons into Your hands Lord. Thank You for letting me save that extra $9 that i wouldve spent just now. Lord, i know that anything in You is possible. I dont know if i should be praying this but Lord, if it is Your will, please let there be many cancellation of classes from various students so that i can start my driving lessons earlier Lord. You know how hectic my life will likely be once uni starts and all so Lord i just want to commit it to You and trust that Lord You already have plans for me and everything will work out according to Your plans as long as I commit them to You. I thank You Lord for today, and I really just want to surrender everything to You Lord, all my anxieties over this whole driving thing. I just wanna trust in You completely and pray for Your blessing as i go through this driving journey. Thank You Lord.
In Jesus' Name i pray,
Amen.

Anyway, so if anyone is really reading this bc theyre researching on driving schs or whether they shld go to cdc for lessons, this is my advice:

1) check first whether is there a discount if you take both theory and practical tgt. I didnt to this and i wont do this now bc i dont wanna be upset if there isnt. But if there isnt, then just take theory first. If you can find a private instructor that teaches cheap, go there instead because you'll learn faster.
2) read through everything you get, i guess lol
3) don't pay anything online. Dont top up your stored value online. Everything shld just be done in person at cdc when u go for lessons bc there's an extra charge of quite a lot to top up online. Even if youve just registered and have to pay the registration fees, just go down instead bc u'll have to go down to collect ur theory books and stuff. Then after that top up whenever u need to whenever u go for lessons or tests or whatever.
4) always always ALWAYS check how much youre paying for your lessons. If it's driving make sure it's $68 something and not $77 something.
5) honestly imo dont bother w schs just take theory and find a private instructor (cos i think they're likely cheaper and like faster??? Idk i dowanna check rn cos i cant change anything anyway and ignorance is bliss lol)

Hope it helps if anyone's reading this lol. Im not saying that cdc is bad per se. But im just saying that i feel so restricted?? Like everything cannot do have to wait here wait there and then like they dont even show the slots for u to book early so honestly it's v frustrating la. And i also feel it's absolutely ridiculous to pay $25 for a piece of paper called ur pdl but then i need it so.

Praying for the peace and calmness to not get to worked up over this rn.

And also praying that i'll rly be able to take lessons soon. Haizz

Hope™