Dear Mom - SNSD

..... i legit cried watching and listening to this song. like really. the tears just kept falling and falling idek why. i read in the comments that many of the snsd members dont have mothers. so this song i guess it's a little like missing their mothers. even though my mum is thankfully healthy alive and well, i still cried. idk. maybe it's just all the emotions and everything.

i know this song was from a looooooooooong time ago, but i never really went to look up the english translations. i decided to look it up because i'm using this song for mothers' day. like on my mummy's card.

i think the part that i can relate to the most is the last few lines. ❝I was shy and couldn't often express that mother I really love you❞ it relates to me the most because i dont know why, but i have trouble saying 'i love you' to the people around me. like i love my parents and everything, but i rarely say it. i guess, because i'm awkward with saying that? or maybe like what the song lyrics say. i'm shy. i dont know but i guess the last time i've ever actually said i love you to someone... i don't remember it at all. unless you count saying it in a prayer to God. then i say that everynight. but i meant like verbally (?) i havent said it to anyone in a really long time. the interesting part though, is that even though i feel awkward and stuff saying it in english and chinese, i find it normal and ohkay to say it in korean o.O

btw, i cried writing this post too. still crying now.

i dont know.... i dont know how to say thanks well. i dont know how to say i love you well. i dont know how to say stuff like that well. i talk alot, but i dont know how to say simple stuff like that well. i dont know why. speaking of which, i dont know why, but i dont really tell my parents much. like i dont tell them about what i discuss with my friends, about me wanting to be in the kpop/entertainment industry.

i went to buy some scrapbooking material to make a card for my mum just now (: i hope it'll come out nice. i wrote a poem for her too (: mother's day is on sunday. i have to look for glue, and also i need someone to help me print a coloured photo of my family... hehe.

i dont know. i guess i'll go now (:

i think of mother who used to share my dreams and brush my hair

Hope™