bon voyage
hey guys, my parents are currently overseas now. well, not really... anyways... like um, yeah, for the next whole week, it's just me and kor in the house. like really. there's no mummy to nag at me to bathe, to brush my teeth, to do my homework. there's no daddy where i can ask for help if the computer decides to go crazy on me. it feels so quiet... so out of place... so awkward.
i know i've told them that i'll take over their bed, i make it sound like i want them to leave. but really, i'm actually quite scared now. for the first time in my life, i'm left alone. i'm left alone to do all the housework. i've never done this before and frankly i'm terrified. to make matters worse, my brother's gonna be staying at a chalet for 3 days so for 3 days i'm literally at home. alone. you have no idea how much this is scaring me ohkay.
sure, i've been alone at home losta times. when it was the holidays and my parents would come home late or my brother was out with his friends. but the thing that never changed was by the time i slept, there'd be someone home with me. this time, no one. no one will be home with me when my brother's in his chalet. when my brother's in his chalet, i'll wake up to a big empty house, and fall asleep in a big empty house. all by myself. alone. i'm scared now ohkay. i don't know why. but from the time i saw my mum and dad walk into the departure hall or whatever, there's been this feeling in my chest that i cant comprehend. it's like a mixture of fear and sadness. i'm scared. i really am.
and i'm even more scared now to know that i cant contact my parents because they're on the plane now. there's no way to contact them unless i want to cause a plane crash. you have no idea how scared i am, do you? i'm so used to my mum, telling me to bathe early, telling me to brush my teeth. asking me if there were any clothes that i've yet to put in the laundry basket. telling me to sleep early. i just feel so out of place. and no, this is not the moment where i learn to appreciate what i had when i've lost it. i've always appreciated this. although sometimes i do find her annoying and naggy, but i know i wont live without this. i know i can't live without this. i can't.
i just feel so lonely now. i'm pretty awkward with my bro so yeah... but at least i'm not the only one home. i'm scared when i'm the only one home. i'm scared. i'm scared beyond belief. you have no idea the amount of fear in my heart now. but i'll stay strong. i have to. there's nothing i can lean on now if i fall. i can do all things in Christ. (did i get that correct? better go look it up. hehe)
bingo. this is the one. took it off jie's blog. haha xD so yeah. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Philipians 4:13
i have to now. no matter how scared i am. i'll go. idk what to say. i'm a little scared that i'll start crying haha.
xoxo
Hope™
i know i've told them that i'll take over their bed, i make it sound like i want them to leave. but really, i'm actually quite scared now. for the first time in my life, i'm left alone. i'm left alone to do all the housework. i've never done this before and frankly i'm terrified. to make matters worse, my brother's gonna be staying at a chalet for 3 days so for 3 days i'm literally at home. alone. you have no idea how much this is scaring me ohkay.
sure, i've been alone at home losta times. when it was the holidays and my parents would come home late or my brother was out with his friends. but the thing that never changed was by the time i slept, there'd be someone home with me. this time, no one. no one will be home with me when my brother's in his chalet. when my brother's in his chalet, i'll wake up to a big empty house, and fall asleep in a big empty house. all by myself. alone. i'm scared now ohkay. i don't know why. but from the time i saw my mum and dad walk into the departure hall or whatever, there's been this feeling in my chest that i cant comprehend. it's like a mixture of fear and sadness. i'm scared. i really am.
and i'm even more scared now to know that i cant contact my parents because they're on the plane now. there's no way to contact them unless i want to cause a plane crash. you have no idea how scared i am, do you? i'm so used to my mum, telling me to bathe early, telling me to brush my teeth. asking me if there were any clothes that i've yet to put in the laundry basket. telling me to sleep early. i just feel so out of place. and no, this is not the moment where i learn to appreciate what i had when i've lost it. i've always appreciated this. although sometimes i do find her annoying and naggy, but i know i wont live without this. i know i can't live without this. i can't.
i just feel so lonely now. i'm pretty awkward with my bro so yeah... but at least i'm not the only one home. i'm scared when i'm the only one home. i'm scared. i'm scared beyond belief. you have no idea the amount of fear in my heart now. but i'll stay strong. i have to. there's nothing i can lean on now if i fall. i can do all things in Christ. (did i get that correct? better go look it up. hehe)
bingo. this is the one. took it off jie's blog. haha xD so yeah. i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me - Philipians 4:13
i have to now. no matter how scared i am. i'll go. idk what to say. i'm a little scared that i'll start crying haha.
xoxo
Hope™
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