Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 ϟ

hihi! just finished watching HP! lolx. me and my dad made it so cinema like! we off all the lights and had a freaking strong fan blowing at us. i was a little scared though. :\ one thing about me is that i love horror/thrilling shows/stories. but if anything that is pretty scary happens inside, at that moment, i might think nothing of it, but at night, JUST BEFORE I WANNA GO TO SLEEP. it comes and hogs my mind. :\ so, my thoughts:

it was amazing, just like how my friend described it~ it's cool too! one thing is, either cos i didnt watch Part 1 or anything, but why did Ron and Hermione kiss suddenly? i mean, i KIND OF get why Harry kissed Ginny, cos they liked it other, it was pretty obvious. but Ron and Hermione didnt show any sign of affection or smth leyy...

sho sweet (: for both Ronmione(Ron+Hermione) and Harry+Ginny(idk their couple name)

the horcrux thing was really cool, and i'm just that awesome that i can always predict endings, and they're usually right! :D like i predicted that Harry would use the resurrection stone on himself, so that after he was killed, he can still be resurrected and everything. and in LOTS, i predicted that Richard would almost die, and Kahlan will cry until got another Stone of Tears. just how smart am i? haha, ohkay, the prediction for Harry Potter must give some credit to Serene, cos she was the one that tell me that they will have an epilogue and everything. lolx. but the LOTS one is really i figured it out myself. maybe too cliché? lolx. JK. i love Harry Potter! maybe not a Potterhead, since i didnt watch everything and i didnt read the books (i'm serious, not even one. the thickness of it scares me. O_O)

the elder wand, resurrection stone and invisibility cloak. ϡ

aigoo. ohkay, i'm not telling you the whole thing am I? sometimes, i feel jealous of those people who have like BFs, or like even in tv shows. but envy is one of the 7 deadly sins (i think) so i try not to think too much about it. cos it's like i wonder how it's like to have someone to have a crush on you; to feel loved or smth. i mean, the only person i noe that had a crush on me was my P4 crush... i wonder what it's like to have a first kiss... aish! idk, i'm a complicated person! even i dunnoe how to explain myself!!! T-T i'm just like some freak. a freak. a freaking complicated person... even Charisse says that.

i can be like cheerful and smiley... like bipolar like that la. like i watch comedies, laugh like siao. touching or sad stories, cry like siao. i'm serious! like, sometimes, it doesnt even need to be a sad story. can be a comedy oso. like in Ice Age (i think 1 bahh) when the sabertooth tiger decided to give up his life for the Sloth and Mammoth, i felt so touched! and yes, i cried buckets. NO. LITERALLY. tears were like flowing uncontrollably down my cheeks la. i'm such a complicated and emotional person... o.o even i scare myself sometimes. i usually try not to think about such stuff. i try to drown it out with happy thoughts; happy memories. when i think of stuff like that, i feel vulnerable and weak. and forever alone. damn it. this forever alone thing is really.... idk, like i guess it describes me perfectly now? i mean, URGH! I DONT KNOW WHAT I MEAN. I DONT EVEN UNDERSTAND MYSELF. I'M GONNA CRY! no seriously, tears are welling up in my eyes now.

another reason why i actually created this blog is cos i dont cry infront of people. i feel that people alr have enough troubles and sadness in their life. idk if they feel the same, but when i see someone sad, i automatically feel sad for them. an easy way to make me cry is to see someone cry and also noe the reason behind it. i'm serious! like during my grandpa's funeral, i see so many people cry, i oso like start crying le. but not many people have seen me cry. heck. none of my friends have seen me cry. only my parents and (paternal) grandparents have seen me cry. oh, my brother too. and you see the limited people i cry in front of? it's sometimes hard to keep all this stuff bottled up until i go home. or to write in a diary (image i write until like that, my hand will be damn pain siah) so i used the magic of the internet and everything, to create this blog that none of my friends know, to share my worries and secrets and stuff like that to. this is also why i refuse to give people my blog address. i dont want them to know. although many people read this blog, all are strangers. they dont know me personally. so i'm kindda ohkay with them knowing, cos since they dk me, even if they met me, they wont know anything. and since they dk me, they'll most prolly forget or wont even bother to read this. i mean heck, if i dk you, why should i bother remembering your troubles or anything?

urgh, i'm sorry for this long post. imma add pics and vids later. see? this is what romance in movies do to me. i always have alot to say, and when i read everything again, IT MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE. i've heard a phrase, ❝Love because you're ready and not because you're lonely.❞-Anonymous© this is why i kindda dont exactly love anyone now. i meant as in that kind of love y'know. idk. i have like close to zero guy friends. I HAVE A COMPLICATED LIFE OHKAY! humph. i'm feeling terrible now. but one thing about me is no matter how terrible i feel, when other people are around me, in a split second, my mood goes from depressed (I DONT SUFFER FROM DEPRESSION. THIS IS JUST AN EXPRESSION. hey, it rhymes. lolx) to cheerful and bubbly, the people that they know me as, basically.

dear people who know me and think i have the perfect/happy life: I DO NOT. i think i have a more complicated life than you think. i just dont show you. i dont want to make people sad (i mean, if their personality is like mine la, see people sad=i sad. kind of thing) people already have enough sadness. happiness is what we all need in our life. i prefer making people happy.

anyway, i just have freaking mixed emotions now. i think if i were to wear a mood ring, it would show up as mixed emotions. hold on, lemme get it. lolx. I REALLY HAVE ONE! ;D it's turning like bright light green. HAHA I KNEW IT! light green means mixed emotions. it also has orange. orange is nervous. but nervous of what? the top half has turned almost completely light green. ohkay, time to switch to cheerful me.

✰✰✰DINGALING✰✰✰

HELLO EVERYBODY! HOW YA DOIN? lolx. oh, side update. the mood ring is almost completely light green with a hint of orange. anyways, watch the vid below!

AAHHHH!!! THAT IS JUST DAMN CUTE LUHHH!!!! TAEMINNIE DAMN CUTEEEEE!!!!! KYOO TEU! (i think that's how you romanize it. i'm going by literal romanizations) HE.IS.THE.CUTEST.THING.EVER. 

but those irritating 2min shippers. urgh =.= i'm not hating it, i just dont support it. i'm not against gays and lesbians, but i just find it a little creepy. no off :\

heheheheheheh. i feel like such a weirdo. lolx. but i'm raping the replay button. x) imagine if people said this: ❝i'm raping the replay button of Replay(noona neomu yeoppo)❞ HAHAHAH ohkay, i've officially lost my mind. :D oh, my rings is turning yellow, orange, light green and green. yellow-anxious. orange-nervous. light green-mixed emotions. green-fear. um, i guess so la, i mean, the way my heart is beating.. it's literally mixed lurh -OOPS. SORRY. THIS IS NOT BUBBLY. BAI-

hahahahaha i wouldnt mind taking the rides, although i'd most prolly freak out when all the safety belts are on and the ride is about to start. like there's no way to escape. it happens ALL the time on the new thriller rides i take. lolx. i'm like a cross between a scaredy cat and a dare devil :D

also, i'm to a certain extent afraid of heights. i love roller coasters and everything. BUT I CANNOT CROSS A BRIDGE OR TAKE CABLE CARS. OR TAKE FERRIS WHEELS. ohkay, i can, but i'd most prolly be freaking out throughout the whole ride. cos when on a bridge, (those where below is like the sea or forest) i keep thinking that the bridge is gonna snap. when taking a cable car, i keep thinking that the wire's gonna snap. when taking a ferris wheel, i keep thinking that the carriage is gonna break off. O_O

had piano today. not bad. didnt get scolded. ;D aigoo, my mood ring says i'm nervous. maybe? LOLX. i went to Beadspin again today! :D bought some rhinestones for my rhinestone making machine. but it didnt exactly work. :\ they say it's supposed to be iron on. eh, nehmind. i shall try again next time. i really cannot, i have so many plain shirts. i can maybe just iron on a heart or a 'h' or a (korean) so nyuh shi dae/sha i ni there. :P sha i ni is SHINee. imma go - tsk, my mum moodswing again =.= - now. but i'll picture this post up! (:

annyeong!

Hope™

Ps. they did a goooood job in making Harry, Ginny and Ron look old. but Hermione is still pretty much the same. :P